artsyrach Conquering my weight loss goals one day at a time :)

Posts by artsyrach

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Young Calorie Counters	Does anyone want tto start a group for college kids who have been overweight most of their lives?	Jan 30 2009 16:48 (UTC)	221
Hey you guys :)! Sorry it has been a while! I have been super caught up in finishing up my recent move! Wendo!!! I'm so jealous that your sides are getting smaller! I feel so muffin-topesque right now =/!! Keep up the great work!!! :D Ohhhhh lafoutloud!!!! Congrats on the soccer! I had two volleyball matches on weds. because the week prior we had a bye and OMG it was so much fun :D!!!! I play on an adult league right now.... but I'm really excited because my school's volleyball is going to start up again this upcoming Monday! Heyoooo! I'm sooooooooooo excited! It is going to kick my butt so fiercly three hours/5 days a week OWH~ You guys I made a workout buddy/friend at my new apartment complex on Monday! I'm so happy! I went the the apartment complex's gym which holy crap is swanky!!! and started using the oliptical and this chick came in! I ended up having a casual conversation with her because there is one remote that controls two separate tvs and I had it on me. (Too be honest I was also very thankful because she was overweight like me..... although she did one up me cause she was sooooooo gorgeous! I always get a little put out have to constantly workout around thin gorgeous people cause it makes me feel so insecure and makes me count the minutes I'm working out instead of just working out..... and with her I felt like I had a bertheren!) So we were working out and both watching the same thing scrubs and I went to go pass her the remote and ended up accidentally dropping it on the machine to my left..... hitting EVERY piece of metal possible. Although embarrassing, that was a good thing because it got us laughing pretty hard for a while, lol! After I had been going for 30 mins I announced that I was going to go use the sauna and lo and behold a good 2 mins later she joins me and we just chatted the night away! It was really fun!!! Have you guys been able to find gym buddies? What is your most embarrasing gym moment? (I have another one.....it is similar but different LOL! I'll tell it later :) )
Young Calorie Counters	Does anyone want tto start a group for college kids who have been overweight most of their lives?	Jan 26 2009 19:52 (UTC)	236
Welcome Alanna :D!!!! Congrats on your amazing weight loss! I'm so sorry to hear that you fell into the trap of an eating disorder, and I hope you will find comfort in this group! We are all at different stages in our weight loss and have different backgrounds, but we are all united in our struggle for fit and health (both body and mind :) )!!!! lafoutloud- I think the other girls have some great suggestions! Drinking and drugs make things difficult for all parties involved because it takes away a lot if not all of your sense of judgment at the time.... I think if you're able to extend your circle of friends outside of that group of people, you'll feel a lot safer in general. That might come off as a bit snobbish, and I'm sorry for that >___<;;; but, I used to be in a similar situation. I never drank or did drugs myself, but just about all of my friends did when I was in this music program at my college. Too be honest, it never really gave me the best sense of security in any situation (especially when in a small group or alone with a guy friend). Granted I didn't have/nor was I pursuing any guy in that music department at the time..... but it just never really settled with me or made me feel all that comfortable. I ended up widening my friend-circle and getting friends that I felt more comfortable with and I have to tell you that was the best decision I could have made! It feels so excellent to be around people that create the kind of atmosphere that makes you feel comfortable and shine as a person. I think jessicasbc has a great suggestion of joining a club or something that doesn't envolve drinking or doing drugs as a means to do so :) I hope this helped ^___________^!!!
Young Calorie Counters	Does anyone want tto start a group for college kids who have been overweight most of their lives?	Jan 23 2009 18:47 (UTC)	253
Omg you guys.... please forgive me this is so long.... I just had to respond to everybody :) lafoutloud- Omg I know what you mean about associating food with guilt... I always used to feel so embarrassed to say that I was hungry or accept food when it was offered to me because I was so afraid of being seen as that fat girl who couldn't stop stuffing her face....which was ironically far from the truth... in fact, my skinny classmates would eat like 3x more than me (all unhealthy stuff too, whereas I usually eat pretty healthily) and then BOAST about how much they eat and such. This has always made me incredibly jealous and a little confused lol! Isn't it weird about how we thought we were so unnattractive and yet we werent really!? It's kinda frustrating >____<!! Neneokafor1- Yeah O_O! I'm really happy that everyone has been able find some much to respond to and expand upon :) Jessicasbc- My parents are trying to call me beautiful now (I thought to perhaps absolve themselves of the guilt of my youth)..... but I just can't believe them when they say it because I feel like I have already heard their true opinions and anything they say now is a falsehood. OMG! Boys will tell you soon Jessica :D! You look smokn' AND you seem like such a cool person ^___^!!! I know what you mean abou the whole using humor as a defense thing.. I do similar things... it makes it easier & yet it makes me feel worse, you know =/? I just want to say HOLY CRAP I know EXACTLY what you are going through in the men dept! THat used to be EXACTLY me.....EXACTLYYYYYYY!!! I was so sure that I was going to grow old and die along and perhaps be that crazy old cat lady or something. In a moment of being unbelievably down about myself (I had just moved, all my friends had moved away off to schools in other areas, I was dealing with awkward family drama, AND I had two massive fails with two different crushes I had... like consequetively.... god that was harsh) I ended up going on okcupid.com to meet new people in my new area (friends and whatever I could get) and my now boyfriend (who is my first boyfriend by the way.... gave me my first kiss and everything :) ) pursued me on it & we finally got together and have been inseperable since :D.... too be honest, it still blows my mind when I reflect on our relationship because I think "OMG WHIT IS THIS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!?!?" It freaks me out sometimes because I'm just so not used to it!! I think way to much too, and I've learned that it will never change because it is who I am! I have also found that that if you focus on positive things and things that will make you happier and feel more fulfilled in times of hardship..... those thoughts will be just the ticket to pull you out of yourself out of that pit of despair and land you in a better place than you were before :). My parents weren't the hugging typing and I think the combo of that, the abuse I fell victim to as a child, and my weight always making me feel like a giant blob made it extremely uncomfortable when any contact occured. Now I feel uncomfortable if I don't have that physical contact, especially with my boyfriend. It is such a welcome change :) happiness4u & theatredork: I never really felt like I had a grop of friends that I could rely on either. I tried to cling to this one click in high school.... but omg that just made things worse because I felt fake. I even did the same thing at the beginning of college! Too be honest, i recentl did kind of a friend purge, per say, and I am only keeping up contact with those that truly like me for me. I was sooooooo tired of being that friend that gave everything and was satisfied with getting nothing in return. I was sooooooooooooooo tired of feeling constantly judged for my appearance, personality, and habits (I am not the partier type and let's face it, that seems to be like 90% of college students). And, I was sooooooooooooooooooo tired of feeling horribly lonely even when I was surrounded by a bunch of people! I like that my very small group of friends really seem to respect and like me for exactly who I am now... it freaks me out sometimes because I am not used to giving AND taking as well as having such an opposite feeling of the loneliness I used to feel! wendolinelad: I know what you mean about getting hungry at work! It's the worst when you have all that junky food around you too.... omg & you know what's weird?!? I noticed that I was always more hungry at work in the morning if I ATE breakfast. If I SKIPPED breakfast I was totally fine?! WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH THAT!?!? That made me step into the gross eating habit of just having a lunch and dinner and that's it!! =/ I find that drinking water like you are desert in summertime has helped to curb a lot of my cravings :) vron082- Omg that bit about you being a choco-holic...LOLOLOLOL! I'm the same way! Curse you foul, yet unbelievably delicious chocolate! it is so good to see that you are on your way to redefining yourself sans the fat. I hope that we may all be able to take a page from your book fo success :D stuhrjr06- You don't seem like a boring person at all :D! Doesn't it feel good to say it outloud?! Doing just that has been so unbelievably therapudic for me because I used to keep EVERYTHING in and let if just sit there and fester! I still do it a bit, but I'm getting better :)! Man oh man you guys .... I'm so happy we can all get this stuff off our chests on here! It is so nice being able to relate to other people about such things that used to be so painfully personal :D!!!
Young Calorie Counters	Does anyone want tto start a group for college kids who have been overweight most of their lives?	Jan 21 2009 17:39 (UTC)	267
Hey you guys :)!!! Welcome happiness!!! Congrats on your amazing weightloss!!!!! You look absolutely gorgeous! :D I was just posting up a journal..... and I realize hmmmm.... perhaps I should post this up here. I apologize because my journal entries are notoriously long and ridden with profanity xD; BUT I am extremely curious to see what your guys' responses are.... especially if you guys have found a solution ^____^ "Yesterday was actually kind of a bad/weird day. I started out the day wearing an outfit combination that I was feeling good about.... and then when this time warner cable guy came over to hook up the internet in my new place (a young guy) I got asked out to lunch vomits everywhere .... those are things that should be giving me more confidence and all that crap....so why did I end up having a mental/emotional relapse and feeling like **!? I was feeling soooooooo down about my weight and looks and just everything =/. I felt like an unproductive, hideous blob >_____<! Too be honest I still feel like that a little bit, but I'm hoping I can change that up. I'm so grateful for Ivan T_________T;; he ended up showing me his journal in that time that I was down and I realized "LE HOLY CRAP~" he has a lot of the same insecurities I do. Perhaps not always about the same thing. But one huge thing stood out as like OMGOMGOMG THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL: "So, to be as succinct as possible: I do not trust most people and that affects how I look at and treat most relationships and friendships that I create. This scares me mostly because I fear that despite any progress I may make, someone will just lie to me once more under the guise of honesty and genuineness. I worry that I'll be taken advantage of again and that no one will ever truly take it upon themselves to sincerely take me for who I am in the context of a relationship. Though I may want someone in my life to fill this role, I can't help but wonder what lies beneath what I see and whether truth is in fact authentic...from anyone." I hope he won't be pissed if I post this up here xD; (Oh and btw he wrote that wayyyyy before he met me.... so don't think there is trouble in paradise) GAH! I have gotten that two-faced, bitchly-ass, back-stabbery ** my entire life! You know there are some things that have been said about my appearance that have haunted me my entire life.... and will probably continue to haunt me forever?! The biggest ones are actually from my parents.... I was feeling really down about my appearance because of some things that were said to me by some kids at school and how I wasn't really fitting in (only to later discover that it was completely a maturity level issue) and so I asked both of my parents, separately (without eachother knowing): "Am I cute?" Because well, to be honest I had never been told so before.... I'm sure I was when I was a baby and didn't know any better.... but not while I had my memory going.... And then they each responded almost identically: "Ohhhh honey, when you lose some weight, you are going to be soooo cute!" Which broke my heart in two. Then I asked: "So I'm not cute now?" And they replied almost identically: "You just need to lose some weight. When you do, you'll be so cute" Which shattered my entire existence and any remaining self confidence I had that I was barely clinging too. And you know what the kicker is? I WAS CUTE. I finally pulled out some old elementary school photos a little while back and almost threw up I started crying so bad. Did you know I was a little tall for my age? That I had unruly brown hair and apparently the worst fashion sense ever (thanks to my mom who never wanted to buy clothes). I had two ginormous dimples and a smile that could barely be contained in a photograph. I had a little more plumpness than other kids perhaps.... but you could even tell through my pics that that was mostly muscle. Did you know I was a synchronized swimmer in my youth? I did that for 3.5 years until my coach told me she wanted me to quit school and get a tutor so I could practice 8 hours a day instead of 4 and start training for the olympics (to which my mom said AWH HELL NAH and pulled me out of the program!?). All throughout my childhood they were constantly telling me how overweight I was and trying to get me to go out on walks with them (even though I was tired from sports/school/playing around the neighborhood with my sister like a young boy) and they took me to a nutritionist saying that I didn't know how to eat properly (I wonder why!? My mom became a vegan and my dad went on the atkins diet..... AT THE SAME TIME.... I had two extremes in front of me that I didn't like). Did you know that that nutritionist pinched my skin and told me, a 5th grader, that I was obese because he could only get a big pinch? Did he not notice that my skin was tight and that I was ripped for a kid?! GYAH~ Anyways.... Because of this I was conditioned to think I was overweight.... and because of that, guess what I became? That's right, overweight. No matter how much sports I played, no matter how well I ate..... I just gained weight. My parents and those around me had put me on a one-track path to a negative self-fulfilling prophecy. It really sucks now. Because anytime I have a thought of like "oh this looks good on me" it is instantly shut down and out by negative thoughts telling me "oh please you look fat, etc.". And what REALLY sucks is I can't believe it when other people tell me I'm attractive in any way. It's not that I won't, it's that I can't. It makes me feel even uglier because I end up shooting down their compliment disrespectfully.... even though I don't mean too. Like.... right now.... Ivan is trying to convince me that he thinks I'm beautiful.... and everytime he says it, it makes me so FLIPPN sad because I can't believe him. Even though I know he doesn't speak falsely, even though I know he loves me so deeply.... I just can't. It kills me inside and boils my tears with anger as they stream down my face. This isn't fair. And I know I'm partially to blame as well..... I just..... I just don't know how to get out of this mindset. I truly think that it is helping to keep the weight on, surpressingly my self confidence, and extinguishing my positive self image. Does anyone know what I'm going through? Has anyone found a solution?" Thanks so much for taking the time to read that rant :) I really appreciate it!
Young Calorie Counters	Does anyone want tto start a group for college kids who have been overweight most of their lives?	Jan 21 2009 06:08 (UTC)	276
Good evening you lovely ladies you :)! (I do mean that by the way! You guys are all gorgeous gals with awesome personalities from what I can tell from your posts!! ^_____^ ) I have been feeling all horrible and gross recently (as I have have fallen off the wagon per say.... or rather life grabbed me by the hair [which there is a lot to grab] and kick my butt [which is a grand target] straight off the wagon LOL) so I have decided to get myself back in gear with my weight loss! I had started out at 230 forever ago and got down just below the 200s this past august. I had an unbelievable amount of life changes happen since then (the best of which has been my amazing boyfriend, Ivan :) ). Ladies I have read through all of this thread and let me just say I see myself in all of you..... I have a really bad past filled with negative remarks, two-facery, sexual abuse (thank god just once), frustration, and masssssssssive insecurities. I hope you guys don't mind if I join your group so late in the game.... this group is something that I have definitely been waiting for! It is very hard to find people that are going through the same situation as you that can cheer you on while you are ceering them on :) Right now I am on the path to FIT! I DON'T want to be skinny.... I want to be fit.... and curvy (but in the right places please ;D) I'm not doing this for society, I'm not doing this for my family, and I'm not doing it for my boyfriend (who loves me for me mind/heart explosion), I'm doing this for myself. I'm sick of my sabotaging myself at every opportunity by playing victim to my insecurities and to those around me's negative influence. As of today my stats are as follows: Name: Rachel Location: So Cal Age: 20 Height: 5' 7" or 5' 8"... I'm not quite sure SW: 230 GW: 130-150.... I'm not sure exactly where I will land.... Between this coat of fat and my small frame I am actually ripped LOL! I play volleyball competitively :) CW: 207.5 as of this morning I really hope to reach my goal and I would love to have some buddies along the way that are right there with me :)
Young Calorie Counters	Any teenage musicians?	Apr 23 2008 16:47 (UTC)	11
Wow! So nice to see that there are so many musical people on cc :)!!! I posted a thread similar to this in the Lounge, but I was curious to see if any other singers were on Midomi? It's this music search/recording site that is pretty awesome! I've been on there a couple weeks and would lovelovelove to hear some more cc'ers on there? Any instrumentalists have myspace recordings or something of their work?! I'm so curious :D! edit:: This is my midomi profile so if you guys have one or end up getting on give me some signal so i can listen to your songs :P!!!
Young Calorie Counters	Gaining Self Confidence and Self Esteem	Feb 25 2008 18:23 (UTC)	1
I used to be totally beyond reserved and had zero self confidence and and a horrible self image. I'm still working on the self image (because I have only lost 15 pounds) but I still have improved it greatly before I even started losing weight. Although I do agree with smwhipple, that a lot of confidence comes from age and experience, there are some (like what I was) that have trapped themselves within themselves and have not allowed for this natural growth to occur. One day I was reflecting on my lack of self confidence and everything like that (something I almost annoyingly do all the time) and I realized "Damn it! I've trapped myself!!" There is no way that I can just assume this without effort and just with time! I then decided upon a "fake it 'till you make it" approach. From that day on I faked the hell out of being confident! And slowly but surely I noticed that I had to fake it less and less and that I was it more and more! It really really worked for me! But mind you, I don't believe in "get confident quick" schemes nor do I believe in the "get rich quick ones". Any good change in your life takes time because this way it builds up the strength to be a lasting result. Just like if you lost 100 pounds in a week versuses a year or so . . . which one is more likely to stay . . . But yeah! So far this has really worked for me! I'm still working on the body image part, like I said, but I didn't focus on that from day one . . . but lucky me a started to assume a better body image as soon as a started gaining self confidence! I hope this helps! :)
The Lounge	Calling all POETS, ARTISTS AND MUSICIANS!	Feb 20 2008 22:58 (UTC)	25
@__@ Omg! Like I said on the other art thread holy moley there is a lot of talent on here! As for me, I sing (particularly jazz and classical), compose ( . . . I suck with lyrics), write outrageous (but true!) stories (mostly out of events in my life, personally . . . some of them wind up partly in my journal on cc when I go on a rambling spree) and doodle (my deviantart website) Admittedly I'm not that great at any of the above but boy do I love doing them none-the-less :D
The Lounge	Calling all Artists	Feb 20 2008 08:43 (UTC)	5
That was a photo of a rose in my old backyard :) I lovelovelove roses and had a bunch of bushes :D My mom even called me her little rose lol! I'm so totally flattered that you liked my work :D Thank you much for visiting my site and for the warm welcome into the semi-closet artists here ;D
The Lounge	Calling all Artists	Feb 20 2008 08:12 (UTC)	7
HOLY COW! There is some serious TALENT on cc! How awesome! I really enjoyed viewing everyone's art :)!!! I hope you deviantart users don't mind me watching you! I'm a bit shy about showing my art because I really never learned the basics and my art is just really kind of awkwardly flamboyant (just like me :P ) AND YEAH! SCREW THAT! I'll suck it up and show you guys anyways~ you all are such a nice bunch :) Here is my deviantart site!
Weight Loss	What's the 1st thing you will do for yourself when you hit your goal weight?	Jan 24 2008 07:40 (UTC)	16
Even though I like to dress (when I can) in flats, a cocktail dress, and a pea coat . . . lemme tell ya honey child I would go out and buy myself a full outfit and strut my stuff something FIERCE (Right now I don't always feel like I look like a million bucks, but I lovelovelove the style so I wear it now anyways LOL). I would also buy a bikini and go on a trip with my best friends and/or significant other (if I have one when he time occurs ;D) OH! And I will sing jazz at an open mic night . . . I know "What the heck does your weight have to do with singing", right? In reality nothing and everything at the same time! I have just grown into the habit of having stage fright (when I used to be way ok with being on stage) and being overall VERY self conscious. SO YEAH :D! Awesome thread! Forced me to write this down so now it is set in stone ;D!
Young Calorie Counters	Post here to find a weight loss buddy!	Jan 23 2008 06:30 (UTC)	140
My name is Rachel :)! ~My current weight(as of this morning) is: 217 ~My highest weight(when I started in October, I think it was?): 230 ~My short-term goal: 210 by Valentine's dayish ~My long term goal: get down to 140is (I have a small frame apparently so it should work) . . . but really I'll stop trying to lose weight when I feel satisfied . . . I don't really care about the numbers (I could weigh 1,000,000,000.5 lbs for all I cared, just as long as I felt I was fit!!) ~My current height: 5'7"-5'8" (sometimes I get a little slouchy~ trying to stop that :P) I would love to have some more weight loss buddies :)! Please feel free to pm me if we are even just barely close ;D! OH! I also have PCOS! So definitely pm me if you have that as well! (If you don't no worries ;)!)
Health & Support	PCOS	Jan 22 2008 21:43 (UTC)	21
I just got back from the gyno today land it looks like I have PCOS myself. It wasn't too much of a shock because I started researching all about it several months ago. My gyno informed me that my case is really not that bad (thank god) and she ended up putting me on the pill to rebalance my hormones and get my period to start coming again. Has anyone else been prescribed a similar way?
Young Calorie Counters	Any teenage musicians?	Dec 24 2007 22:11 (UTC)	37
I always joke around and say I play the vocal chords :P! I guess you could say that I was classically trained, but jazz is so incredibly my passion! You would definitely find me singing it WAY more than classical stuff . . . although I do whip out an operatic song every now and then LOL
Young Calorie Counters	Favorite Thing About Yourself??	Dec 22 2007 07:43 (UTC)	3
physically: I love my full lips and my hair! And the narrow right underneath my chest . . . HA! It makes me feel curvier and thinner at the same time ;P! mentally: I'm always there for my friends and have a interesting personality!
The Lounge	How much is YOUR body worth?	Nov 03 2007 19:39 (UTC)	31
$6050? Just the books purchased during my prospective college education are worth more than my corpse! How unfortunate O_O
Motivation	Being my current weight is like....	Oct 23 2007 19:45 (UTC)	11
Being my current weight is like: Duct-taping 8 clones of my best friend's cat to my body. (He weighs 10 pounds,exactly). P.S. cograts rebepi for giving up 8 of the original 16 newborns up for adoption ;D! I just let one house cat back into the wild, personally :D!
The Lounge	Embarrassing man problems, minus the man, with a dash of angst	Oct 23 2007 04:27 (UTC)	1
That is really true :) I'm really coming to love myself more and more but I am still a long ways from where I should be and hopefully losing weight will help propelo me closer!!
The Lounge	Embarrassing man problems, minus the man, with a dash of angst	Oct 19 2007 15:13 (UTC)	3
carazyb0i~ hey! If that is how my love is to begin I'd be nuts to argue with it ;D! smwhipple~ aha! I thought it might have been them! I like your view on things :)! I really just need to be getting myself out there more it seems!
The Lounge	Embarrassing man problems, minus the man, with a dash of angst	Oct 19 2007 03:04 (UTC)	6
lysistrata~ Those are great lyrics! May I ask to what song? They seem somewhat familiar but I can be totally retarded when it comes to remembering names, HA! Wow! Thanks so much for the compliment ;D! You are so right! It will be so much better to wait for someone who is worth me and I worth them :)! Omg that whole scenario you laid out was almost the plotline of the movie-and yes, it would suck! Yeah yeah! I got to make them earn it! And I think the best way to doll myself up will be to add the glimmering hint of self-confidence along with my smile and horribly embarrassing laugh . . . bwahahaha . . . seriously though! Losing weight will help but I have to find that confidence elsewhere I think ;)! carazyb0i~ Everybody is a dimwit these days! Especially me @_@! We do seem to have a lot in common there ;D! Seeing as how you are a nice & hot gay man I'm absolutely sure that such a magnificent gravitational pull will snag you a perfect mate asap ;)!!! (By the way congrats on figuring out that you are gay early on! I know a bunch of peeps who figured out waayyyyyy later and life and you can imagine that their selection is significantly smaller [as anyone's would be as you age, anyways])! I want a fairytale love minus the fairytale because hells no am I going to be "saved" by my knight in shinning amour (granted I do have the hair for it .. .. ) I would MUCH prefer the mutual adoration, respect, and answered needs that comes along with love :)!
The Lounge	Embarrassing man problems, minus the man, with a dash of angst	Oct 19 2007 02:23 (UTC)	9
WOW! Thanks you guys so much for all of your replies so far :)! seshanno2~ Thanks so much for that link! I'll check it out sometime :D avacadogrl~ Those signs are so frackn' mysterious! And I'm sure it is just as hard for guys to read! Thanks so much for the kudos :)!! I know I lack a lot of self-esteem . . . but that is something I have always realized and been trying to work on! In doing so I came to really like my personality and expand my tastes and such! I think I need to put myself out there more . . . I can't wait for that spark to ignite! I'll bring along my lighter fluid to keep it going ;D! sun123~ At the moment I don't have many close guy friends but I find I am relatively comfortable with guys. I coached guys before, one of three girls at my work, and usually end up being around guys and such when I go to work out or play volleyball . . . but I have no idea if I flirt or not? I surely joke around all the time because it is in my nature . . . but flirt? Not sure about that one. I like to do a lot of things with friends but I'm not one of those 19 year olds who love to party . . . at all . . . but I do agree that I do need to find ways to put myself out there for starters. Any suggestions? luvmyboy~ HA. Men are over-rated in an over-rated world ;D! Thanks so much for the compliment!! That was really sweet of you and it made my day :)! (I actually need to lose 90 pounds! 5'7", small/medium frame, and 225 pounds at the moment) I think some men may not go for skinny, but I would have to say that I believe men to have just as diverse tastes as women! I'm not taking that many classes at the moment, but hopefully I can take some better classes next semester! Congrats to your bro and his wife! That is great :D!! Thanks for your wise words and your sweet compliments <3! loriklorik~ Thanks so much for the reassurance :)! It feels like kids are getting involved in relationships (although who is to say if they are the meaningful kind I'm looking for) at an early age . . . especially around me, HA! I agree with you! I have to improve my body for myself, that is definitely an important thing to keep in mind :)!! "Men want their cake WITH icing." ~ HA! The same goes for women! I like that line by the way! jewelsmcblah~ I agree with you absolutely and I think how you phrased that was absolutely amazing ;D! I don't know if I am doing much to get myself out there or not! I do strike up conversations with men, but every-now-and-then. Just the past day or two I have been wallowed up in a bout of disgusting loneliness but normally I'm out and about (though not a partier and such). I agree about the looking for someone older than me bit (I am actually generally attracted to older [by a few years] men to begin with so that shall make that a little bit easier to keep on doing . . .!) Jdroller~ That is actually a very true statement! There are a lot of cats out there (both men and women) these days in and around the 19 year old age group that will hopefully ripen with age :) Thanks so much, again, everyone for your comments! I really really really appreciate them! Does anyone have any thoughts regarding how to get myself out there more (& seemingly available) or still regarding my original post?
Motivation	I want a weight loss buddy too!	Oct 17 2007 06:49 (UTC)	3
I'd love to be your buddy! Count me in ;D!
Foods	whats YOUR weakness??	Oct 10 2007 06:14 (UTC)	13
popthebubbles you are my hero ;D! Ice cream for me, hands down as well!
Motivation	List 5 things you love about yourself...	Oct 08 2007 20:47 (UTC)	82
1. I'm incredibly hardworking. 2. I have many varying interests. 3. I am a great support to many people. 4. I am very witty. 5. I am very creative. Wow . . . this is a great thread! I just made my own day O_O!
The Lounge	Anyone from southern California?	Oct 08 2007 08:03 (UTC)	50
I live in Orange County! Have gone to school and lived in Irvine, going to school in Costa Mesa, and working in Tustin HA
The Lounge	Anyone from Southern CA?	Oct 07 2007 16:34 (UTC)	7
yeppers I am :)
Motivation	Any Embarrassing Moments Because Of Your Weight?	Oct 07 2007 05:27 (UTC)
Wow . . . reading these entries were soooooo painful . . . and yet so relieving? Theywere painful because I can empathize with all of the situations and yet I am relieved because (although I wouldn't wish this upon anyone) I know that I am not the only one to have gone through such trying times and the fact that you coming to terms with such events helps me come to terms with some of mine. ~ When I was in elementary school I remember being at a park walking away from some swings (I loved swinging) and this kid comes up to me and bluntly asks me "Do you eat vegetables?" and I go "Yes, why?" Then he went "That is weird because fat people don't eat vegetables . . . I bet you are lying . . . you should eat more vegetables! . . . I eat vegetables & look, I'm skinny!" . . . then I ran away crying =/ I don't think I was a severely overweight child but I definitely wasn't a toothpick (& I was tall). . . . This makes me choke up whenever I think about it. ~ Also in elementary school . . . I started to take notice that all the other girls in my grade were called cute or pretty or something of the like . . . and no-one ever called me those words . . . so I asked both of my parents on separate occasions if I was pretty/cute and both told me on separate occasions "If you lost a little bit of weight you would be a cute girl-- I mean you are cute girl you just need to lose a bit of weight-- I mean--". Thanks a lot mom and dad =/ Because of that I have always had real issues with my appearance and have probably gained weight because of this among other things O_O (& also that was a difficult time to learn what to eat/ get the right food (my mom was vegan and my dad was on atkins . .. neither seemingly ate "normal" food to a kid) ~ Everytime I would go out with friends to go clothes shopping and have to tell them "I'm sorry I don't fit in any of these clothes" when they asked why I wasn't buying anything . . . only to have them answer "how can you not fit in these clothes? Xl is as high as you can go!!". I could go on for hours but some of them have already been listed!
Weight Loss	Find your CC Twin...Part 2	Oct 04 2007 18:44 (UTC)	185
sex: Female age: 19 height: 5' 7" current weight: 225.5 small frame (I posted this on the other thread . . . but it doesn't hurt to post it here as well!)
Motivation	finally reached 200!!	Oct 04 2007 18:17 (UTC)
congradulations! Wahh~ that is my minor goal at the moment! I just want to break 200! 25.5 pounds away from it at the moment 26 to get to 199.5 ;D! I, like andesite, really just want to get away from the "o" word right now! Once I get to the other "o" word . . . overweight . . . that will be such a great day :D!
Motivation	Week 1 ROCKS!!!!!!	Oct 04 2007 18:10 (UTC)	1
sweet!! Congrats man! My first week (this is my second) I only lost 1 pound! But so far this week I have lost 4.5?! But whatever! I'll take it ;D!

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