Posts by hockeygirl44

Everything has been verbal at this point, besides the occasional arm touch or whatever. But comments have been pretty blatent. And by pretty I mean extremely. Thanks for the input, it has sort of reinforced my reservations... or course what you know you should do and what actually happens in the heat of the moment are two different things, but it helps to have a clear position in mind.

I have known him about 14 months - long enough to know him pretty well I would say. We hang out - work together alone often and often have a few beers after work, but it has been strictly friendly up to now.

Purespark, your reaction is understandable and maybe correct, but the one thing I didn't mention is that he is not from Canada and isn't terribly culturally attuned. For example, he legitimately doesn't seem to understand that I could probably have him charged for his behaviour (not that I ever would, but I could). He's not terribly attuned to social norms in this regard.

Windra: you could be right about the feminine thing... and although I would like to say no, I have not acted differently... its definitely possible. I try to act the same all the time but i realize that I probably dont... even if its just looking stressed.

Hey,

Not sure if I count exactly as part of this group, but after being fairly normal as a child i lost weight a few years ago by eating a bit healthier (i ate ridiculously badly)  and due to stress, and ever since i have had a really hard time keeping it on. It doesnt help that I am on medication that supresses the appetite AND boosts the metabolism, plus although I almost never exercise (bad me, i know) I am on my feet working as a server in a busy restaurant nearly 60 hours a week, plus walking is my mode of transport (ends up being 1 hour per day of walking at least). In the last year with this lifestyle my weight has gone from 130 at 5'7"  to 115 and falling, and when I bend over my ribs are now prominantly visible through two layers of clothing. talk about gross:P

Ha so cutting a long story slightly shorter, I now have the same issues as you guys - and i need to at very least stop losing, if for no other reason because I am now wearing clothes from grade nine... ie when i was 14. I am now 20 and three inches taller lol and thats just sad. So I am on board!

First question - I have a severe nut allergy (peanut and tree nuts) but I eat a lot of cream cheese... any other suggestions for similar products that are calorie dense?

Thanks... I am responsible for the arrangements, and I didn't even think of an obituary. Wow am I ever on the ball. So I guess I just write it and submit it? And I suppose the local paper is the best bet... ok. And I haven't contacted the funeral home yet, I guess they might (?) be able to help spread the word?

Sorry again, I just have never done this before and frankly have extremely little experience with funerals. Someone needs to write a how-to guide.

I take adderall... it works well for me but there are side effects. One is no appetite. You have to make sure you drink tons of calories and eat a meal at night as it wears off, and even doing that i lost nearly 20lbs on it (and i didn't need to, i am now about 115-120 at 5'7" and struggle to maintain). I suggest taking at least one day off per week to help you eat and also to reduce tolerance.

The other major side effect is trouble sleeping, especially at first. if you can manage the side effects though, it really really helps with ADHD, so for me its worth it.

Breakfast: Tvp and honeycomb

Snack: apple, 2 large coffees

Lunch: Mixed frozen veggies with sour cream, soy nut butter on a cracker, chocolate

Snack: coffee (I know its absurd, but I work in a coffee pub. what can you do?)

Dinner: Veggie wrap with grilled veggies, a bit of cheddar, fresh veggies and half a large ww tortilla.

Snack: half a muffin, probably.

Breakfast: TVP, honeycomb, milk

Snack: Vast amounts of coffee with milk and sugar

Lunch: Half a breakfast wrap (egg, tomato bacon and cheese)

Snack: tea, chocolate balls

Dinner: cesar salad with light dressing, no bacon, extra mushrooms (its actually delish, believe it or not.

Glass of wine or two;)

Breakfast: Mochachino, coffee, spoons of soy nut butter (don't ask).

Lunch: Huge ceasar salad with light dressing

Snack:Chocolate and coffee

Dinner: will be at a potluck type thing, going to try to eat mostly veggies because the indulgence in alcohol will be copious.

Thanks all... I saw him on Christmas eve, and decided to take all the advice here and try to bring up how he's been treating me (i have to admit, the wine had something to do with me screwing up the courage to ask). It did not go well, unfortunately. The converstation became an argument even though I made certain not to attack him at all, and before the end a few dishes had become casualties. But it made me realize that you guys are right. Its not my problem. Its a bit tough because all of my friends are close to their families, but I have to realize that that kind of relationship is not what we have, never has been and never will be.

Its not good but at least I now realize it - thanks for the help.

Thanks for the advice all.

Gi-jane, I appreciate your concern, and I will make an appointment to see my dr. if other remedies fail, but I don't see this as a medical emergency and my Dr. is tough to get an appointment to see anyway. Thank you though.

I think maybe the problem might be a lack of fat... in response to the question, my stats are 5'7" and about 130 lbs. And aside from soy nut butter, I think I probably don't get a lot of fat. So if that could be an issue, I will up the fat intake. Thanks all! 

Breakfast: Oatmeal with soy nut butter, Coffee

Lunch: ceasar salad (light dressing) Chocolate, Hot chocolate (oops)

Dinner: Bread with say nut butter and banana, tea

Snack: wine and chocolate (oops again)

Thanks for the advice... And don't worry, I really have no expectations. I guess it might get better over time, but somehow I don't think so... We'll see I guess. I just don't know how to make it happen, especially not without risking making things worse. thanks everyone anyway:\

Thanks for the kind words... I agree with the "easy way out" thing. I'm not saying suicide is easy, and I'm sorry I wrote that. I just meant... Acutally I'm not sure what I meant. I guess what I think Isn't all that clear, even in my mind.

Mommakitty: Thank you for your prayers. I do appreciate it. But I don't believe in god, so the Bible is not all that helpful for me. Thanks though.

My pet peeve is when people get mad and leave no tip because other tables are served before them. The place I work is sit-down but with quick service, so tables are typically served within five minutes (which is a lot of pressure on me, by the way). But some of the items on the menu take longer to cook (like kabobs, for example). So when the table next to you gets their salad order before you get your kabob, its not because I am playing favourites. Even if you ordered first. No matter how much I want a tip, I can't make food cook faster. sorry.