Posts by juicebox04

Forum	Topic	Date	Replies

Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 18 2008 02:40 (UTC)
its really for me to trust myself. ive spent so long hating...despising myself. i was my worst enemy. and i blamed myslef for every reason i was unhappy. it really wears you down, and tears you apart. but i understand what youre saying. it all begins with me. if i can expect myself, which has been the hardest thing to do. but im working on it. see, what i cant seem to get across to everyone is when they give me the advice to "let myself gain a few pounds so i can healthily lose the weight, but i can pick myself up later" is that...ive beenunhappy with my body my whole life. literally. theres never been a single moment where i could honestly enjoy what ive had in terms of my appearance. ive give so much, and sacrifised my health, etc...all to have the body i wanted. so to hear the words "take some steps in the opposite direction and in time youll bounce back" is sooo unpromising to me. ive waited 14 years, and each extra second im wating makes me more and more frustrated. i cant do it that way. im tired of being a work in progress.
Health & Support	ED Recovery Club II (the REAL one)	Feb 11 2008 06:04 (UTC)	1,360
hi my names Leah im 14 i want to be thin AND healthy. and im over my anorexia which i accomplished on my own ^^i would have rather gone to rehab or a doctor. but whateverrr and now that ive gained back a few lbs. im ready to lose them the second time around. my goal is to finally be happy with my body. thatsss itttt. :] kay.
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 11 2008 06:01 (UTC)	2
i want to get professional help. i would love to pass my problems over to someone else. someone who can promise me that theyll fix me for good. someone whos devoted to turning things around. to be able to just do what they tell me and not worry about making any decisions. not have to think about it anymore. it would be a big weight off my shoulders. and to be honest, if i didnt have to admit to my family that i even needed help in the first place, i would have gone. im not in denial. i know that ive had my share of problems. but i let my family be oblivious to them. and youre right. i contradict myself. i want to have my cake and eat it to. i want to be healthy. i want to be thin. unfortunatley, for me, it just doesnt seem possible. and i know the obvious choice would be healthy. but to me its a close race.. im not even sure if itd be first on my list. kindof sad. =/
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 04 2008 08:35 (UTC)	4
i completley understand your suggestions. but gaining an ounce would be tragic. im not going to consider, ponder, or debate the thought of gaining weight. its not an option for me. at all. another new size in jeans? more pudge for my stomach and thighs?? a fatter face...? just, no. i cant. i wont. it cant happen to me again.gaining that weight back made me feel disgusting. i feel fat as i am. actually theres never been a day in my life where ive been satisfied with my body. i can only go foreward. another step back is simply out of the question. i hope you can understand that.
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 02 2008 01:06 (UTC)	10
i eat a bowl of cereal in the morning a bad of apple slices= 35 cal a sandwhich wrap= approx 140 cal sometimes a snack= not sure it differs and then dinner= about 300? 200? im 5'3.5" and im too afraid to weigh myself =[ hah.
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 01 2008 23:51 (UTC)	12
ive had all the tests. cause i lost my period and my doctors dont really know about me starving myself [i know, i know..its not good] and neither do my parents. not many people do, actually. but i eat now..i still dont get my period though, but i do know that theres no healthy complications considering they ran numerous blood and thyroid and who knows what tests on me.
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 01 2008 23:26 (UTC)	16
anorexia.
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 01 2008 23:16 (UTC)	18
i feel disgusting when i eat =/ and i really dont think im normal. i think if i jsut ate i would gain weight. because thats what seems to happen.
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 01 2008 23:02 (UTC)	20
still, they eat more then id ever dare to. what i meant was that they dont watch what they eat and they still stay thin
Health & Support	and exception to losing weight?	Feb 01 2008 22:49 (UTC)	23
i reeeeeally dont want to gain any more weight then i already have. id rather stay the same then gain anything. :/ hahah! but they do! they eat junk food, and alot of it!
Weight Loss	size five in jeans? is it fat??	Oct 26 2007 02:02 (UTC)	12
please understand somethings: im only 14. im not going to want to be the same size as some of you on here, because im younger and my peers are slimmer. i used to thinner and gaining weight is really hard after you lose it. and so im upset and i just want to know how bad it really is. it was a bad day for me. dont you ever just wake up and "feel fat". yeah, one of those. i was venting. i like to vent on here. i get a lot of good adivce. but i also get a lot of rude comments. people think that i ask these questions to fish for complements, but i dont! i really, really DO think this way. ive always thought i was fat. i do have problem with myself. and thats not a good feeling. and im not asking for compliments, but when i get them it does help me feel a little bit better. but dont feel better when people compliment you when your feeling upset? im just kinda getting tired of negative comments to me. if you dont understand my problem, if you dont want to help, or if you really dont give a crap...them save me the time and just dont reply. because its rude, and im not trying to affend anyone who "REALLY does have a weight problem" because, my definition of a weight problem may be different from yours. and to me, i do REALLY have a problem. thanks for those who were kind enough to help :] im sorry, but i just had to say something.
Weight Loss	size five in jeans? is it fat??	Oct 23 2007 23:52 (UTC)	27
okay: 1. stellajo, they are not huge on the legs, they are lose on the waiste only. i think you need to understand that for me, seeing all the other girls weigh 110 lbs and a size 0, which i used to be as well, and then shoot back up to a size 5 (again) im not going to feel skinny at all. thats why im asking a second opionion, because ive learned that i cant trust my own. 2. renastar23, i know i post similar posts, but i post when i get ideas in my head. i posted this because i put on a pair of me jeans, and it was one of those days where you just feel fat. and i wanted to know if the reason i felt that way was because it was true. its hard to convince myself that im not something negative, but something positive. i have trouble complemeting myself and thinking good things about myself. im just looking for a realistic veiw. 3. hockeygirl44, i live in america. haha 4. catherinerich, i understand that some people on here may have different problems then i do. but you have to understand that to me, i have a problem and i really DO think that im fat. ive been unhappy with my body image for as long as i can remember. and ive done a lot of bad stuff and been through a lot of bad stuff. this universe is todays society. it makes silent laws that body image is everything. i know that its not, but its a personal battle for me and for me- size 5 is too large. and like i said before, i just need some other realistic opinions.
Weight Loss	size five in jeans? is it fat??	Oct 23 2007 01:04 (UTC)	44
thin is thin fat is fat. theres not much of a fine line between the 2. tyvm. hahahaha
Weight Loss	size five in jeans? is it fat??	Oct 23 2007 00:51 (UTC)	46
yeah i meant in jrs.
Weight Loss	I am so sick of dieting.	Sep 28 2007 00:13 (UTC)	1
to tell you the truth, its never going to get easy. even when you do reach your goal you still cant sart eating what you like again. you still have to count calories, weigh your food, exercise, ect. the best way to look at it is as a lifestyle change. if you have the mindset that when your "done with your diet" you dont have to watch what you eat or think its okay if you skip the gym then youll gain it all back. maybe if you think of it that way, it wont metter how fast the weight comes off, because youll be living this way...the rest of your life. hahah. good luck. =]
Weight Loss	Starving your self to lose weight does it work?	Sep 26 2007 04:33 (UTC)	21
i starved myself. its extremley depressing. i swear. its an awful, loong, dreadful road that you just never seem to steer off of. once you start you gave up your chance of good health, of happiness, and most importantly, your control. you have no control over your mind, over your body, over your food, nothing. the binges tear you apart. the obsession with food is miserable. your family and doctors being concerned for ur health is horrible. its just not the way to go. i have stories. and you dont want to live them. my advice, eat healthy food that TASTES GOOD. dont ever tell yourself that you CANT eat. then youll want to eat more. so eat when your hungry. eat good low-cal foods. exercise. EXERCISE IS KEY. youll feel amzing after you work out. and you will lose weight. the worst part about starving yourself is that you will AT LEAST gain back every. last. pound. and all your hard work and sadness will be for nothing... just dont do it :]
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 26 2007 04:20 (UTC)	40
congrats on the losses guys! keep up hte great work!! thats a good idea. if you reach your goal, you can take your picture in a nice dress or siut if you like. or something that shows off your loss. like a reward. if not, some sort of reward would be great. maybe buy yourself something you've been wanting and working tward :] you may have noticed that i didnt give my stats this weekend. its because i felt bloated and fat. you all know what im talking about i imagine. anyway, i didnt want to face the scale feeling all bloated, and my friends came over this weekend so i didnt really have the time either. ill give my stats next weekend. :]
Weight Loss	im scared of calories.	Sep 22 2007 21:47 (UTC)	10
if thats your advice, then you honestly dont understand.
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 22 2007 20:07 (UTC)	51
im weighing some time idk when. i cant tomorrow (which is when i usually do) because my friends will be over... :/ bleh. wish me luck...haha
Weight Loss	i always weigh more at the doctors office.	Sep 22 2007 04:48 (UTC)	1
well it was still bad to hear. :[ whateverrr. i usually ignore it. i absolutley HATE DOCTORS AND HOSPITALS , ETC. i spent a lot of time talking about a very insecure subject. one that i had already gone through, seen doctors, talked to them, had numerous appointements, ultrasounds, etc, etc. and it all came back to me. the fact that i lost my period wheni lost weight. i knew it was because i stopped eating but neither my mom or doctor knew so they had to investigate. everything seemed fine but i dont get it anymore :[ i rly dont want to go through it again. theres more to it but it gives mea headache just thinking about it.
Weight Loss	How people eat under 1000??	Sep 22 2007 00:45 (UTC)	8
you actually get used to it. i ate under 300 calories evry day for about 2 years.
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 22 2007 00:40 (UTC)	55
Im weighing in tomorrow =] sry guys, ive been so busy with cross country, karate, and homework that i literally have NO time during the week to check in. luckily, im working out every day. so how was everyones week? no cheating? haha.
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 16 2007 19:55 (UTC)	69
the scale HAS NOT BUGED. although, if you remember, last week i used 3 different scales that all told me something different. and this time, the scale that said i had GAINED a pound or 2, now says i was a pund our 2 down. i didnt check the other scales, though. :/ well whatever. i think metally i have made a lot of progress. if that counts for anything ^_^ haha
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 15 2007 21:08 (UTC)	73
UGH. weighing in tomorrow. i hate the scale. seriously. :/
Health & Support	does your doctor actually have to DIAGNOSE you with anorexia to be...	Sep 15 2007 18:39 (UTC)	5
i agree. the thing is, my weight wasnt under 17.5
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 15 2007 02:01 (UTC)	74
cross country is going fabulously. :] thanks. it wasnt too long ago when i could hardly run one mile. now im runnning at least 4 daily. im happy about it :] i just want to wish everyone good luck on their weekend-weigh-ins. hope my hard work shows on the scale tomorrow morning. :/
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 13 2007 19:06 (UTC)	83
good job lighterrose! and pantera, im still not sure how many calories i eat every day. :/ i have a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast and for lunch i have either apples or grapes and a wheat pita with turkey and lettuce and some ranch or mustard or something. then for dinner i have something healthy... and im going from cross country (at LEAST 3 miles every day) and then i go to karate. so thats that...im not sure what that would be. oh and i love love LOVE thsoe pitas. its a sandwhich without the calories and carbs! 40 calories of the pita, and 40 calories of the turkey. then lettuce which is nothing...and a dab of mustard or ranch :]
Weight Loss	10LBS BY ~HALLOWEEN~	Sep 09 2007 19:58 (UTC)	91
its never too late to join :] its open. the more support the better, i think... anyways, good luck!
Weight Loss	went out to breakfast...	Sep 09 2007 19:54 (UTC)	9
**eggbeaters
Weight Loss	went out to breakfast...	Sep 09 2007 19:52 (UTC)	10
500 calories?? omg. i would have guessed WAAY less... its only fruits, veggies, and eggbearters...

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