Jackie Never Enough

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Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ Jun 04 2007
13:14 (UTC)
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Hey Ozfiz,

Thank you for the tips i think most of them will def. help! But the only thing is when im on a binge i eat whatever i can get my hands on...even if it healthy, i just eat to eat, its really sickening. So keeping food away is almost impossible. Im homeschooled, meaning its like im always near that freaking fridge! Anyways i cant wait to hear some more advise. Thank you so much!

lil_t88,

Yea me too! Those routines arnt wierd at all, i always eat a healthy breakfeast [even if im not hungry for it] I know my body needs it to keep my metabolism going. so I eat like a packet of oatmeal and a small banana and down a glass of water so i feel really full. I used to stop eating after a certain time, for my binges, but now i dont care...my self control goes way down if i was bad the day before. 

Yea i am totally with you on the gum, and im always drinking tonz of water! Im either anorexic mode...or binge mode. I really want balance! 

Aw im so sorry thats awful! I have bathroom troubles too[not fun]. Thank you for the encouragement, i dont know how but tonight im gona be stronge enough....its been such a long time since i've had a good day...i want one so bad! One day i hope we are both able to say we overcame this struggle.
Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ Jun 03 2007
15:18 (UTC)
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lil_t88,

I can so relate to you! im 16 yrs old. I used to struggle with anorexia/bulimic/exersize freak. 7 months ago I used to do whatever it took to get the weight off and keep it off! I lost 20lbs...people judged me, i lost friends, people wer constantly telling me your not eating enough! I was so sick of it! 

Then I started with the binges....and the sad thing is i couldnt tell you when they started. At first i would vomit afterwards...from having so much regret, and scared to gain any weight.  I would be filled with rage, so frustrated with myself...I would turn to cutting.

I binge everday now...im trapped in this misery. Its a constant haunting. sometimes i will have a good day and think thank God im better! Let me tell you not the case =(

I ache when i wake up.....always feeling full, my morning doesnt start off well. When i look in the mirror i hate what i see! I still cutt...my body is so abused.

And yea i totally get you feeling fat even though you look "healthy" now! Everyone does the same thing to me! They dont know im feeling out of control...hopelessly destroying my life!

-I pray you have better days! People say these are the best years...we dont want to miss them. Im going to check out that website, thanks!
Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ Jun 03 2007
04:46 (UTC)
620
I wish i had the strength to live with balance.its harder than it looks! Good luck to you too alex!
Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ Jun 03 2007
04:44 (UTC)
621
O God im so happy im not the only one who has that sort of thinking! I do the exact same thing....i will mess up say Friday and then i say o well i will eat the way i want till Sunday then i will be good. (never works) I always tell myself this is the last time...so better do it up big....its terrible!

I know its not good for our bodies, Im just way too extreme! Im either fruits & veggies all day or im ice cream, cookies, pop corn, ect. Im scared if i am doing too much damage....one week i will weigh 100...the next 115....i hate it! =(  I tried just eating "normal"....all the food groups then at the end of the day give myself a lil treat like 2 cookies or something....but that first bite sets me off...how pethetic is that?! Like today i was so good...it had been my third day of eating right. But then my family was having ice-cream.....i kept telling myself dont, you know wut happens....but i did....and then i went to town. Now its late and im writting this with body full of pain and regret. 

-sorry for such a long message....i've just never been able to talk to anyone else about this. Thanks
Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ May 31 2007
15:46 (UTC)
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Hey larmedusoleil,

I think you struggle with bed if you are all or nothing like that. Even if you didnt scarf down tons of candy and crap you still ate more food than you wanted to right? Even if it is healthy you still dont want to consume that much in such a short time. Idk that is just my thought.
Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ May 31 2007
15:38 (UTC)
628
 Hi my name is Jackie,  and i am a binger.

I struggle with going through weeks eating non-stop. Gaining a ton of weight, hating myself. Then i cant take it anymore, and i go through a painful week of recovery...[eating super healthy, and loosing the weight] Then after a couple weeks i give in to a craving...eating the WHOLE bag of cookies, sometimes i can pick myself back up, but if i cant i go for binge episodes falling back into the same old habbit.

I really want to change, but its like once you take that first bite all hell breaks loose! I have hurt myself horribly for the past two weeks. Today i want it all to stop!  

So far i have eaten great this morning...im not sure how this evening is going to turn out. I pray im not gona mess up!

THanks for reading my pethetic process...even if noone really listens, it helps me to be able to admit my shame to someone
Weight Loss Trying to lose 10 lbs. forever club May 31 2007
13:38 (UTC)
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Yea im short, I am currently 115...also very desperate to be rid of the last 10 awful pounds. Im just not sure what to do.   aeromancers plan sounds like it might work...but i walk 4 miles everyday, do i stop that for a week?
Health & Support anorexic to binger. and out of control. May 31 2007
01:35 (UTC)
Aw im am so sorry...i understand you completely! I have a very very similar problem.   It is good that you are seeing a nutritonist...because you seem to need help creating a plan and sticking to what works for you.
Motivation 5'3" and under! May 31 2007
00:51 (UTC)
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Yea I hear you! Im 16 and im 5'3, People tell me im apple shaped whatever tha heck that means...anyways i hate my mid-section...any weight i gain goes straight there its awful! It is very true that every pound is more obvious on short people, man i hate that!
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