Posts by hattierod

I'm right with you too.  It's true that I work a ton and feel perpetually stressed, but today wasn't like that.  Work was low-stress and I was home by 5:30.  Plenty of time to exercise and cook dinner.  But no.  I've been watching junk tv and have eaten the weirdest combination of crap food.  

I decided that since I have no motivation for anything big, I'm only going to commit to very small goals.  I wrote on an index card what I'm going to eat tomorrow.  Not a meal plan for the week, not a big promise to get back on track, just a promise that I'll eat the things that I wrote down on that one card.  I'll cross each thing off as I go and then throw it away at the end of the day.  

It's just one day.  I can handle that.  Then maybe I'll try and plan for just one more day after that.  And then maybe another.  Fingers crossed.

I'm stuck too.  I've been perfect for 16 days straight, and no weight loss at all.  I was doing really badly before, so I expected it to take a little while for my body to believe that I am eating healthy and exercising regularly, but it's still frustrating not to see a change.  Oh, well, keep chugging along. 

Good luck ladies!

I'm on board too.  I'm going to Puerto Rico in late May and I don't want my food baby hanging out over my bathing suit.

I'm 4'11" and weigh 115

I'd love to be 105, but I'll take 108

As for managing hunger - I eat a lot of fresh vegetables.  I try and always have cut up bell peppers (yellow are my favorite) and other fresh vegetables on hand.  It makes me feel like I'm eating a lot, even though it's only a few calories. 

But, you're right, it's real easy to get to 1300 calories without really eating all that much.  Most single restaurant meals have more calories than my daily allowance.  I often have catered work lunches that I have to attend where even the *healthy* options are sandwiches on huge pieces of bread with tons of mayo and salads with creamy dressing.  I generally just eat the turkey out of the sandwiches and undressed lettuce, but that's not real appealing either.  It's tough.

First, I agree with lk1234.

Second, ever since I can remember - like 8 years old - I've thought that if people see me eat they'll think "OH!  She eats food, that's why she's so fat!  If she weren't so glutonous she would be thin!"  Regardless of whether or not I may or may not have been fat, or what I may have been eating.  I never over-eat in front of people.  I identify these feelings as the beginning of my ED.

People with eating disorders don't usually just stick to one type of disordered eating.  Recovery means working on all the emotional issues that caused you to develop anorexia in the first place.  Until those issues are resolved, you'll probably continue to use food as a coping mechanism.  Whether that be starving yourself, making yourself throw-up or bingeing.  In many ways, it's all kind of the same.

That said, you should be REALLY proud of yourself from moving away from anorexia!  That is a huge accomplishment.  And knowing that you did that, you can feel confident that you'll move away from the bingeing too.  It's been 1 year and 3 months since I last made myself throw-up, but I still struggle with bingeing.  The periods of bingeing are less often and less severe now than they were when I first started recoving from bulimia.  I hate that I still struggle with binges, but I'm so glad that I no longer make myself purge.  I know that if I keep working on the emotional stuff, the bingeing will become more and more rare and maybe one day will be gone forever.  Until then, I just try and appreciate the progress that I know that I've already made.

Good luck!

What confuses me is that 8 oz of nonfat milk generally has 90 calories in it, which would mean that 12 oz of nonfat milk has 135 calories.  I know that the shot of espresso accounts for a few ounces, but not 4 ounces (unless it's way over-extracted).  And the foam reduces the overall milk content a little, but not by much.  So how can it really only have 90 calories?  Calorie count says it's 126, which seems more accurate to me.       

I can't even imagine having a normal relationship with food.  I feel like I wake up each morning and get ready to go off to war.  It's the first thing I think about - how am I going to handle this today? 

Although many of us haven't found it yet, I do think it's possible to one day have a healthy relationship with food.  I feel like I have wasted so much mental energy on keeping track of what I ate and how many calories it has in it.  I could have cured cancer had I put the same mental energy towards that.  Such a waste of our lives.

Ugh.  It's so familiar.  I haven't found a way to deal with this completely for myself either, but I am starting to recognize things that make it better or worse.  I've noticed that sleep makes a big difference.  I'm able to regulate my moods and my binging much more when I'm getting enough sleep.  And staying on a routine.  If I can keep myself on a regular schedule that is consistent and reliable, then I do better.  Exercising regularly helps a lot too.

All that said, I encourage you to talk to someone.  Therapy has been a big help, even if I'm not "cured" yet.  I also have read lots of self-helpy type books and I keep a good journal.  The journal has helped me recognize patterns that trigger certain behaviors.  Out of all the books I've read, some are great and helpful and some are annoying and completely out of touch, but they all force me to be more aware of myself and what I'm dealing with.  Which is a big part of it.  You should feel really proud of yourself that you recognize what's going on and want to do something to make it better.

Good luck.

I definitely think you could have gained a pound of muscle in the last week and a half.  Especially if you have just been doing weights and no cardio.  Weight training is really important for overall weight loss, toning and bone health, but if you are looking to lose weight you should incorporate some cardio in your workout routine too.

 Good luck!  

You sound like you have such a great and healthy outlook on this!.  It's inspiring and encouraging, thank you. 

I agree with singing girl - keep eating healthy and exercising, and stay at 150.  Those BMI calculators are just estimates based on the average person.  I bet that if you had your BMI calculated by a doctor you'd probably find that 150 is in a healthy range for you.   

If you're happy and healthy at 150, that sounds perfect to me.  And I'm sure you look totally awesome.