Posts by olivia77

he can read it all --- the journal, the posts, the "private" messages.   everything. 

it is always so fun to come to this post and catch up.    You are all super cool chicks! 

welcome workoutchix.   ( :

I wish I was anywhere close to you all.  GOSH --  I am within 4-6 lbs of my original goal  (150!).   which sounds hoggish compared to you girls.   : P 

Still working it out though.   I am a teacher and we had parent-teacher conferences Thursday evening from 4-8, leaving me time to workout after work from 3:05-3:45, clean up and still eat a little dinner.   Know what I did????    I joged 10 laps on the track with the WHOLE FOOTBALL TEAM watching.   go me.   ( : 

KEEP ON KEEPING ON ----   have good Sundays and better Mondays!

all he had to do was google my email address and cc popped right up.  

I did not get in the habit of locking all my journals until recently.  I did it sporadically, but not often enough for sure.................    I felt bad for saying all the things I said, reading it again through his eyes, but it still remains, he shouldn;t have them anyway.    I went back and locked the last few months where it got really bad, just so he will not be tempted to re-read them in a moment of weakness.  He promised he wouldn;t do it again, but yeah right.  

He knows everything I thought or felt or wanted for a long time.    I vented here, so I could avoid venting on him, but my provacy is gone.   I am half tempted to stop using cc-- just to avoid the betrayal again, but I would be lost without cc and my girls, so......   just extra careful from now on?     : (   

how are all of you????      I am excited for my trip for Halloween this next weekend and to see my old friend, M.     ALso in my cleaning yesterday and this morning already, I made a last pile of his things in the spare bedroom where I can shut the door and not seem them at all.     ( :     good stuff

He totally read months back in my journal.    

I am sick over it. 

BUT

Despite my awfulness, he read my journal, breached my trust, and tried to manipulate me.   

:)   I will be ok..................   we shall just HAVE to see.    I will be me ----- regardless. 

my mom is like that with Xmas music too,.    I am that way with Halloween...  I put up decorations like --9=15 every year.   LOL   Being a teacher, Halloween marks the first sort of downhill of school towards Xmas.  YAY!!

lol, abbs is gassy.   : )     Fiber One bars = good, but bad that way for me.   just to embarrass myself so you are not alone  : P 

Hope all you other ladies are doing well too!!!!!!!!   we miss you!!!!

Boys are idiots who do not deserve us.    AT ALL.    I agree -- tell him you did it, even if you didn't.... 

I wish it was Halloween already,.  Really wanna see M. 

him making me feel hella GUILTY.     

it's mine.  I was bored and lonely and dumb.    just wanted someone to talk to.   He thinks I lied about everything.    I'm confused.   which sucks.   I am so sure most of the time. 

not going as quickly for me now that I am close to 150.  sigh, BUT ---  through the break up 3 weeks ago, him cleaning me out this last week and the ensuing nonsense, and TTOM, still down a little this week.  

Name:Olivia
Age: 31
Height: 5'6"
Start Weight:  156
Goal Weight (by October 29):  150 (and beyond)

1/10/08:  156
8/10/08:  155.4
15/10/08: 155
22/10/08: 154.6
29/10/08:

Total weight loss:  -1.4

I'll take it.   

love you, abbs -- good to have you back. 

I am just having a hard time getting around in time in the AM to comment on journals and posts like usual.  Not enough sleep will do that to you.   =P 

Your vaca sounded awesome!!!    ( : 

I jogged and lifted this morning.   exercise is good.   it keeps me sane.   no groceries yet cause I got home at 5something last night.    TONIGHT -- FOOD!    : D   yay!

thanks,  B --   I am glad you are takng care of you.  

I hate to have to block him, but it may come to that.    sigh

they are NOT benefiting me at all.  They are for him.   You are correct.   And after the phone call ended badly, he started IM'ing me.   *eye roll*   oi vay.   let it go......... 

He wanted to try and make it right today --- come and clean up his wreck of a mess, hook up the tv and give me the key etc, but I said no.    It will be good for to clean up the mess --- both the real one and the metaphorical one I created by ending things.   I think he did this --- left the mess and "forgot" the key on purpose = a reason to come back over and worm in again, and I am not having it.  PERIOD

MIss B  ---- {{{{{{{{{{SUPER HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}  I wish I could make it all better for you.   Stay as positive as you can.  I really do think it makes the mind and the body better......   thinking about you and sending all my good vibes your way.................... 

thanks, Bots --   I didn't.   terrible, actually, but I will be ok. 

Called me this morning crying and wants to come over and help clean and set up the tv, blah blah blah.     come on.  

He wants me to leave the door open to a reconciliation.   Little does he realize that door shut a long time ago.    Maybe there will be a new door, but not for a good, long while. 

BOYS ---  what tards. 

How are YOU, B???  

hey ladies. 

SO HE IS A JERK>    asked me to "wait for him" and not date.  Um, no?   duh?  why would I be single. uproot my whole f-ing life, and not try and find someone else???????    selfish jerk 

he cleaned me out today.    I went to my mom's for the day while he moved out and my place is freaking TRASHED.   not on purpose like with spray paint, but GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!     &nb sp; He took so many of the things he said he would leave, I am crushed,  I guess that is what I get for being honest with him.   It is good for him "to get real."   I am not going to "wait for him."

I want MORE and BETTER>>>>>>>>>> ;>>>>>

I deserve more and better....... 

hi leslee!   GO RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(((did it work??)))

I am a runner too.... and ride a bike and lift weights.    Holler if you need a cheerleader!~    ( :