Posts by julia_rose08

*You've come too far in life to take orders from a cookie!

*You have to believe in yourself. And you have to down deep within the bottom of your soul, feel that you can do the job that you've set out to do.  (sorry, 2 lines)

*The secret of success is the consistency to pursue.

*Eat to live, but don't live to eat.

I live in a dorm so I usually eat lunch and dinner in the dining hall.  Lots of soups with beans thrown in, 100% whole grain open face sandwiches (hold the mayo), pepper instead of salt, skim milk......

But I've lately eaten breakfast in my dorm.  More peaceful, better way to focus on the coming day.  If I'm up late studying (or if my schedule of the day dictates an early dinner), I'll also have something to snack on at night.

My list includes:

Skim (or 1%) milk

Cheerios

Old fashioned oatmeal

Cinnamon, vanilla, splenda

Coffee grounds, filter, creamer

Cocoa powder (the baking type)

Apples, oranges, and bananas (I steal them from the dining hall)

Bulk bags of popcorn (I air pop mine in the microwave, in a brown paper bag, with a packet of splenda and a dash of cinnamon)

Milled flax seed and wheat bran (for my oatmeal)

That's about it at this time.  Yay breakfast!

sharonclaire, I agree with your clarification between binging and overeating.  I know people, however, who classify the "overeating" of a cookie (eating quickly without even thinking about it) as a "binge."  And while eating a cookie may hurt some people's diets, the actual act of eating the cookie in the "overeating - binge" sense doesn't elicit intense emotion & physical pain- these may occur afterward, but not often during the consumption.  It's comparatively 'mindless'.  I term the unconscious-cookie-eating impulsive overeating, as it may lead to another cookie but doesn't become a true "binge."

true binging is what was described in my previous post.

any agreement with my clarification?  any clarification of my clarification?

that's a good idea, but i think this clarification should be in order: two distinct types of bingers exist.

this is a quote from a negative site that my invoke eating disorder behaviors, so I will not post it.  if, however, someone wants the link for an intellectual property inquiry, i'll gladly offer it.

One cookie is not a binge.
One cupcake is not a binge.
Two or three pieces of cake is not even a binge.

A binge is when you stuff cereal down your throat just because you NEED something to eat that you can get down in huge quantities FAST FASTER FASTEST, as if this was a race where anything but first place will lead to the realization of all your worst nightmares. (Except the binge itself, of course. That's a nightmare all its own.)

A binge is when you eat until your stomach is distended, and the skin stretches so you can see ribs you couldn't see before you started your gluttony; when you eat until your whole abdomen, your whole torso, hurts; when you can't even straighten up because if you did the pressure in your guts would be too unbearable; when you can feel the liquids and food trying to shove their way back up your esophagus because you can't fit it all in; when even all this sometimes isn't enough to stop you. You just need one more bite... no, two more... threefourfiveten...

A binge is when you ravage close-to-empty cupboards frantically, looking for anything to shove in your face, even stuff like brown sugar from the bag, or full-fat peanut butter in huge tablespoons straight from the jar, or some hideous peanut-butter-Quik-syrup-brown-sugar-art

ificial-vanilla thing that you mixed way the hell up with the biggest spoon you could find and are just eating because it's so high calorie and disgusting.

A binge is when you eat things you don't even WANT, don't even LIKE, because you NEED to be terribly, hideously full so bad.

A binge is when you eat even though you don't even REMOTELY want to eat, because your biology screams "MORE MORE MORE" and you scream "NO NO NO" and it just happens anyway and you can't even begin to stop it.

So **** you and your one-cookie binges.
You haven't got a ******* clue.

that was a carbon copy of my nightly july 2007 binge.

the other type of binge is the "one cookie" binge.  it could even be a five cookie binge, but it's not a true "binge" from my experience.

MONGO's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !  30 veggie choices, fish beef chicken etc (i vote for the salmon), just don't add oil (or if you do, add just a little); stick to the water-based flavorings

lunch is significantly cheaper than dinner, last time i checked.  and you could get one bowl as opposed to unlimited, as unlimited bowls winds up to be only 2 for even my strongest- stomached friends.

143, aiming for 133 sept. 19th...

quickstart!

Former binger speaking:

If I feel some of my old habits sneaking up on me, I discovered a new way to fight mini-binge-returns (it's so simple it sounds stupid):

don't take the next bite.

I don't focus on the bag of cookies, or the banana bread, or the cheesecake...  I just focus on the NEXT BITE.  If I can break the cycle and just pause for 10 seconds, swallow whatever is in my mouth, take a drink of water, and consider my actions, usually I can walk away.

You guys can do it!  I have confidence in you!

lose 25 pounds?  I'm in!

Everything starts tomorrow.  I'm determined to lose 10 pounds in 5 weeks, then I'll probably slow down after that.

CW / SW 143 - 145

GW 120

5'7"

18 yrs old, college student

haha!  the cafe at our small town called my dad when he didn't show up for morning coffee for a few days... but domino's?  that's hilarious!

I'm going to lose 15 pounds by the end of my first semester.  Just you watch :)

I also have a pretty basic, pretty yummy meal plan that I stick to:

Date

Sleep

Goal

Breakfast

Oatmeal / Cheerios

Milk / Yogurt

Nut / Seed / Egg

Coffee + Multivitamin

Lunch

Milk / Yogurt / Cheese

Vegetable

Vegetable

Bean

Fish / Poultry

Dinner

Milk / Yogurt / Cheese

Vegetable

Vegetable

Bean

Fish / Poultry

Exercise

notes for tomorrow...

Pick one option per line, it totals around 35% protein, 15% fat, 50% carb, its high in calcium and fiber, and is 1200 - 1400 calories a day

I also have a piece of fruit or two per day as a snack

And I live on a HUGE campus spanning two cities, so I walk (or bike) everywhere

I'm back to the basics, and back to the message board! 12-1500 net calories a day, light activity built into my schedule, planned work outs most days a week...

i learned about this in psychology.

people who are chronically hungry tend to dream about foods often.  countries stricken by famine, anorexics, etc...  the statistics were crazy... i was recovering from my ED then, and i had terrible food dreams.  not only the eating of an entire lunchroom table's worth of food, or mcdonalds the volume of a CAR in a single sitting... i had daydreams too.  i couldn't focus on anything else in life.  nothing else.  i would come on this site and read through incredibly unhealthy caloric information to get to sleep... during the day, i wondered what it was like to think about boys, or the future beyond lunch time, or games to play or social interactions or even school work...

ok, i got off topic.  here's my point.  when i was trying to fall asleep, i felt like i was being run over by a train, but not actually by a train: by images of food.  they just kept hitting my eyes, even when closed... bright, moving, full-color images of terrible, terrible (to me) (like fruit) (or milk) foods... and i would hold onto the bedsheets to keep from going downstairs and eating...

the point is, i was obsessed.  perhaps clinically.  at 97 pounds and 5'7", i was sick.  i didn't know it... not fully... and the "recovery" summer that followed was the worst hell i dreamed possible...

BUT I COULDN'T NOT think about food.  so dreaming about food made sense... wasn't quite as random.

kashi, or fiber one?

kashi has loads of protein, which i never noticed before.  i think i'll buy some tonight, but i know it'll cost me $4.50 for a 12 oz box.  that's my local grocery store, for you.  it sounds like a fun experience, though.  i used to LOVE fiber one, until the box went empty; i'd tell all my friends i was eating rabbit food, and they believed me! lol.

i'm thinking about buying some fiber one... its more fiber for the calorie than anything else that i can buy at my local grocery store, even carrots!  (well for the money also.  i could buy lots and lots of celery but that's silly)

i compared it to a standard cheerios box.  they both had 17 servings.  granted, fiber one has a small serving, but i would mix it with yogurt or oatmeal.  i'd probably only eat 1/4 cup at a time.  so in that sense, it would be more of an additive... like flax seed (can't buy that at my local grocery store, its too old fashioned)

so when that is considered with price, it's worth my money.  (more fiber than my old fashioned oatmeal!!!!)  but... how do they get the fiber in there?  all bran flakes don't have nearly so much.  is it super-processed?  but in the oppositie, fiber-ADDING direction of most modern processing?  i try to eat mostly "whole foods"

ok point of this post:  how does the fiber get in 'fiber one' ?

corn is a grain.

but i get plenty of carbs, in milk sugars, in natural fruit sugars... plenty of carbs, and LOTS of fiber.  i was wondering if the bread or dry cereal itself i used to live on had a key nutrient that i'm lacking