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| Motivation | I am soooo beyond disgusted with myself | Oct 17 2008 19:05 (UTC) |
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i feel defeated.. and sinful... and now completely grossed out. Am always a biscuit lover but i tried to stay away from it. Lately, i have been cutting down on sugar and biscuits... But today, i , for fun, munched on 1 pcs of biscuit and it turned out to be one whole pack.. And for no reason, i ate alot of sugary stuff as well. Totally exceed my calories limit. Best part was, i wasnt enjoying it. Ironically, i cant taste it. But i just ate, cause my mouth wants it... i guess. I can feel my thighs expanding, arms growing flabbier and double chin coming out.. I dont understand, why did i stuff myself when i am not even enjoying it? Its a binge. Argh. I dont feel good. |
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| Games & Challenges | 10 pounds by the middle of August? Who's up for it? ----GROUP CLOSED! | Jul 11 2008 15:57 (UTC) |
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| Am i too late? I ate 2000 cals for fun... would i still be accepted? But i have binged the entire week away :( | |||
| Games & Challenges | 10 pounds by the middle of August? Who's up for it? ----GROUP CLOSED! | Jul 11 2008 15:56 (UTC) |
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| Am i too late? I ate 2000 cals for fun... would i still be accepted? | |||
| Weight Loss | scared, ate a WHOLE BLOCK of cheese today, need help? | Jun 23 2008 18:05 (UTC) |
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| let me make u feel better
the number of years u have been behaving is the number of years that i have misbehaved. And i did so majorly again. I binged when i was not in a proper mood. All was well until after dinner. I binged till my stomach hurts. And i finished every single piece of junk food i could find. I have no idea about myself totally, except disgust. So dont go my way, you are still fine. |
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| Motivation | Girls in their 20's who want to lose about 100 pounds | Mar 16 2008 17:07 (UTC) |
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| Hi.... I am in my mid 20s... and i am not sure if i would be welcomed here.. but i definitely need an outlet to vent.. I just came back to my homeland after spending a year and half overseas. Which made me gained near to 20 pounds... that made me a very moody and negative person.
Apart from that my complexion for i dunno what reasons.. became very bad... which adds on to my inferiority. I know.. all these are mundane compared to real world issues out there.. but such things certaintly make me feel bad enough to coop myself my house, refusal to do things and meet people. Especially its a very unfortunate coincedence that my besties happens to be really slim and pretty people, so they need not be bothered by an extra pound or a single pimple. I finally gathered enough courage to pull my ever tight jeans on yest ( which make me feel fat) and went out. And one of my besties.. ( she mentioned out of goodwill) abt my apperance.. and i wanna hide and cry out loud. I went home in a foul mood, binge with venegance till today... i seriously need an outlet to vent. And honestly speaking.. i cant be bothered by myself anymore... i totally stopped even try to workout, take good care of myself anymore. It would be great if i can just vanish, hide and cut off all contacts around me. I dont dare face the world.. Its too harsh for me... |
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| Weight Loss | On the verge.... | Feb 15 2008 21:01 (UTC) |
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| thanks for all the feedback....
this is random.. but i had a thought. I think i didnt trust myself and believe in myself. Before i left for studies overseas, i was sure that i would gain weight. Even when i send back pictures to my friends and family, they told me i still look the same. I had my doubts. I refused to believe them and i was CONVINCED that i am gaining. And so, i indulge. And when they told me i really gained. And then i would feel all horrifed and regretful. Why did i give up on myself and revenge on food? Its weird that i am always affected by my peers? I was always hoping that someone in my group would gain weight so that i would not be the largest among my peers. Its a selfish and nonsensical thought. I am sure or rather hope that my friends dont judge me by my appearance.. I am afraid of gatherings... especially after a long period of time. I fear to hear the comments... "hey, u gained more weight or "what happened to your skin" i am really afraid.. As years gone by.. i realized that my self esteem and confidence has gone down. I dont believe in myself anymore.. And i always tell myself that i will definitely gained weight as years gone by... Sorry for the long post.. i just need to let out... |
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| Weight Loss | On the verge.... | Feb 11 2008 19:16 (UTC) |
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| i did a degree overseas, and i just returned to my old country :) So i am an unemployed. I used to watch what i eat. But now, i just eat whatever is in front of me and i dont think i am restricting myself in food. Over-indulgence maybe..
Yes indeed, i am feeling very low right now and i am hoping that its just me getting too emo.. i am trying to come to terms with it... and if i really cant, i will seek help.. |
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| Weight Loss | On the verge.... | Feb 11 2008 19:03 (UTC) |
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| hi there, thanks for all the replies... but i just find it sad that it has been a few years and i am still back to the point that i have started. In fact, i might have gotten even worse. Its just disappointing that i cant "help" myself... Its a vicious cycle and i really dont know how to face it and face myself.... I just have loadsa wrath.. and i am not really sure if i can pick myself up again.. i am tired.. really tired...
swimchick, the amount i binge on nuts is super scary.. i am not surprised if i put on 10 pounds...for that.. its that damaging .. :( bakermom, thanks for offering to start all over with me.. but i am not sure if i can do it anymore.. i read your profile. You are tall and have always been slim.. i am sure you can achieve your wants. Keep going.. |
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| Foods | nut and granola lovers | Dec 20 2007 07:29 (UTC) |
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| Uh-oh.. i finished 2Kg of honeyed macadamia nuts in 2 days.. You mean nuts are fattening food? I mean how bad is my damaged? Will i gain 5 pounds within these 2 days?? | |||
| Weight Loss | Cereal Binging | Oct 14 2007 09:59 (UTC) |
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| i just finished a brand new box of cereal, 600g. And its 2410 calories.. waaaay.. over.... i am busted.. | |||
| Weight Loss | Strangest binges... | Aug 30 2007 16:47 (UTC) |
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| woohoo binge! thats what i lived for.. hehe
am i the only one who binge secretly? all everyone does that? hmm, that got me thinking for a while.. yesh, PB! love those crunchy ones.. cheese are nice too but i love carbs, sweet and savoury... lol. biscuits are my all time killer... tsk.. anytime, no matter what time, how full i am.. give me biscuits, and i am sure to finish them by boxes... so between raisins, cereals, crackers,biscuits and yoghurt... could someone help me rank them, from the "best" food to binge till the worst food to binge? i know its isnt exactly healthy... but i just like to eat food in huge amount.. makes me happy.. so i need to know.. what the least damage i can do , with the most amount.. thanks! |
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| Weight Loss | BINGERS!! What is the highest # KCal U ever had?? | Aug 27 2007 20:38 (UTC) |
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| i can usually binge consecutively for 2 hours.. and sad to say i only binged on junk...
To confess, i just binged from 3am to 5am... i can feel my thighs growing fatter... And now, i am tired, just want to go to bed straight and hide under the covers forever.. Now that we are on binge-ing topics, does everyone binge secretly when they are alone or is it only me? |
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| Weight Loss | Binging before bedtime!!! Help! | Aug 23 2007 17:24 (UTC) |
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| I have the same problem too... Mega binge in the middle of the night and feel gulity the next morning. This is a real weight gaining solution. Do any of you woke up swollen all over, especially on the face. Nowadays, i cant differentiatie whether is swell or i had really grown bigger :(
I went to bed once without binge-ing alot. But i was hungry and all i have in my mind was food food food... had a lousy night of sleep. And guess what? The following night, i binged with vengance.. its a vicious cycle. |
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| Weight Loss | Binging: Break the Addiction | Aug 15 2007 09:33 (UTC) |
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| Good work, shorelover! Its nice to know that people are doing well, i guess.
Sorry soph_a60 and runner_girl, i lost to myself last night at 3.30am. Was rushing my assignments all night. And i am no sure was it hunger pangs or binge-ing that triggered it. Binged till 5am. List of damage and total intake of the day: Breakkie : 1 bowl of oats, a cup of black coffee Lunch : a cup of black coffee, 2 slices of bread Snack : a cup of black coffee, 1 slice of bread Dinner : 90g of pasta, which i think its quite alot .. with eggplant, wombok and broccoli and 1 can of baked beans. 2 cups of sweetened tea Snack : 1 kiwi, 3 pcs of biscuits, 1/5 of kitkat chunky BINGE: 3 slices of bread, with cheese 1 cup of soup 500g of yoghurt 1 packet of chicken biscuit 4 slices of sesame biscuit 1 kiwi 1 cup of sweetened milk 1 rice cracker Please tell me i have gained 3 pounds by doing all that. I feel sick and disgusted. And all i wanna do now is to wail! I am such a weakling. There comes to a point that i got angry with myself for binge-ing and i binged even more! Loosing it again... Sorry for that.. i just need to let out. Deserved to be spanked. Its just an irritating and vicious cycle. I hate how i succumb and feel bad and allows it to take over my mood the next day. weak!weak!weak! |
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| Weight Loss | Binging: Break the Addiction | Aug 14 2007 16:56 (UTC) |
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| thanks people!... i shall not succumb to the binge and disappoint you guys up there.
Nah, today was an incident.. i overslept.. in a rush, i had my oats on the bus.. on the way to school. And i forget to bring my bags of greens and tuna. Which was why i ended up with bread. =( But well, had a mad day in school today... so lunch and snack was kinda short .. which its good.. in a way i guess.. :P |
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| Weight Loss | Binging: Break the Addiction | Aug 14 2007 16:46 (UTC) |
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| No too sure, if anyone gonna read this.. but i think i am gonna start the binge again..oops.. craving for savoury stuff like peanut butter and tuna now... but i snacked quite alot in the night earlier on.... intake for today
Breakkie : 1 bowl of oats, a cup of black coffee Lunch : a cup of black coffee, 2 slices of bread Snack : a cup of black coffee, 1 slice of bread Dinner : 90g of pasta, which i think its quite alot .. with eggplant, wombok and broccoli and 1 can of baked beans. 2 cups of sweetened tea Snack : 1 kiwi, 3 pcs of biscuits, 1/5 of kitkat chunky okie.. zekie shall not binge.. zekie can do it.. argh... |
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| Weight Loss | Binging: Break the Addiction | Aug 13 2007 17:39 (UTC) |
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| I am back.. and decided to face the truth.. I have been constantly binging since 31st July till now... thats 15 days... Maddness... I dont really want to know how much damage the past 15 days has been. So i should really get down and do something about it i guess..
Runnergirl, i guess i am like how you used to be.. in a certain way. Looking back at how skinny i used to be and wishing, yes.. wishing that i could go back to that weight and frame. Its time i move on. Now, i am trying to identify what triggers me to binge excessively at night and try to quit i guess... one thing i realize. i like to binge when i am tired.. esp in the night... so i should just settle for bed and zipped my mouth up? |
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| Weight Loss | Where's your "trouble area"? | Aug 13 2007 16:48 (UTC) |
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| tummy and thighs... is face considered one as well? My face is like a gigantic meat patty.. round and fleshy. I think thats the first place i gain weight on. And sad to say.. it never shrinks... it just get bigger.. sighs | |||
| Weight Loss | disappointed.frustrated.gulity | Aug 12 2007 19:09 (UTC) |
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| Hi librarygirl, sgt_pepper,jill_w,
Thanks for the responses :) Its nice to know that there are people out there. Perhaps its a vicious cycle. It gets worst each day.I feel gulity for eating soo much at night. So i limit myself in the day? I am not too sure about it myself. But i realize i have a very bad habit.. i like to eat only when my housemates have gone to bed. Its like i am afraid of them watching and commenting on my eating habits? Once they off their room lights. I will raid the kitchen till i am.. well.. feeling gulity after all the eating. I am not too sure if i am feeling hungry or just feel like eating. Sometimes its both. For example today, i was working on my assignment till 2am ( its 4am here now) then i just got out of my chair and eat. Then i feel gulity, and i thought i already bursted my limit and i am growing fat ( i feel the fats on my thighs and tummy oozing out), so i might as well binge all the way.. and .. hmm.. then it gets worst... And more confession, i tried to stop myself from buying junk food. Sadly, my housemates have stock of them. Which means, i eat their stash of junks. And the next day, i will go and replace back the stash i have eaten. My utmost ugly side to binge leads me to "steal" people's food. Sighs... i seriously dont know what to do with myself at times... Jill, i am always fine with coffee.. :) |
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| Weight Loss | REAL binge | Aug 09 2007 15:11 (UTC) |
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| i dont know if its of any comfort to you. You have only binged for a day. But i have binged for 2 weeks. I feel like crying everyday and felt as if i have sinned and right now my mentality is that i have drift too far away so i might as well go back to being fat. People around me just dont understand... and i think i am sick. I enjoyed snacking sneakily alone .. so when people are sound asleep i will come out and attack the food. i am sick and a loser... I am a totally wrong example.. so dont ever learn from me. You are still near your goal. Keep it going! | |||
| Weight Loss | Binging: Break the Addiction | Aug 06 2007 07:00 (UTC) |
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| thanks marina91!
Last week was a rough and bad week.. i totally succumb.. this week i am gonna try again and keep myself occupied.. with good thoughts... i will keep trying... :) |
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| Weight Loss | Binging: Break the Addiction | Aug 05 2007 06:28 (UTC) |
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| I am just soooo glad to find you people out there on this forum!Not too much people understand, i suppose, unless they have gone through it themselves. I cant seem to explain to people why i binged.. and that leads me to binge alone... when everyone is asleep.. Too ashamed.
I binged mega.. and this problem goes on for waaaay tooo long... Just this week, i have finished up 3 fresh packs of biscuits ( 200G each) , 5~6 bars of chocolates. I am pretty sure, there are some other food that i have downed..All in the middle of the night throughout the week. It scares me at times that i could just binge despite not feeling hungry. Yes, i share the gulit after binge-ing. And my stomach aches till i cant get to sleep. Then i start to feel that every part of my body grows wide and fat.. and i wont be able to fit into my jeans the next day. Like most, i will try to starve off myself the next day.. to make up my binge-ing the previous night.. its a cycle i guess.... And i am lost.. i tried to buy healthier options.. like raisins and yoghurt.. biscuits,crackers. But it aint doing much help..coz i love the feeling of having endless reach for food.. which means.. i will keep eating till probably i finished the entire pack of food or something.. i feel like such a wimp and loser... |
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| Foods | Urge to binge/snack in huge quantity | Aug 04 2007 19:48 (UTC) |
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| thanks folks! I will definitely give these a try!Hope i will feel more satisfied....
Cellulitedelight, your fiance is lucky to have you wearing him down at night =) |
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