Posts by whatisbeautiful

I'm gonna have to back out of this challenge. =/

I'm in recovery for bulimia now and treatment's becoming more constant. I've been told to stop exercising. Though I'm sure walking is okay, between the appointments and meetings and meltdowns, I just don't have the time for this challenge.

Best of luck to everyone else, though!

Original Post by kingmedia:

just can't wait for her to do a song about the lemonade stand.

LOL, she wouuuld.

I saw my new dietician yesterday and I really, really like her. At my next appointment we're setting up a meal plan but I e-mailed her asking if we could set one up sooner.

I'm trying my hardest not to count calories at the moment but I've noticed I just don't eat enough that way. :S I'm hoping she e-mails me back soon !

Thanks to everyone for the help, though.

Original Post by mardix:

Original Post by whatisbeautiful:

Original Post by mardix:

5/19 - 12 miles / 103 miles total

Woohoo!  Reached the goal.  Now on to 150.

Errr... uhmm... can I steal some of your miles? Kthx :)

You got it.  Or better yet...let's both walk an extra mile today and you can have that one.  Will that work?

5/20 - 4 miles / 107 miles total

Haha, oh, effort... xP
Congrats on all the miles though ! That's impressssive !

Original Post by amberleigh7:

it's okay I did the same thing today.

and I plan on starving myslef tomorrow, just kidding but I do plan on only eating 400 cal till I get to my goal weight

Wtf kind of suggestion is this?

Wait, what? Eeew.

I have one main pet peeve I can NOT under no circumstances tolerate:

REPETITION.

2 miles todayyy. :) More tonight.

6.93/50 miles.

Original Post by fidget84:

do you have someone you can sit down with and ask what would be appropriate in terms of food. could you see a nutritionist and discuss that you dont want to do cals but that you no longer have any idea what normal is and need a meal plan to help you attain stability for a while. even google sample meal plans which may have a designated cal total but pick an appropriate amount for you and just accept that. do not go weighing or counting every measley cals.

i saw GI-jane said to someone earlier, you cannot unlearn the cals, nor can you deny you know them BUT you can choose to ignore them having an impact on you

Yeah, I'm actually starting OP this Thursday. My first appointment is with a dietician so I'm going to ask her for some help. I just really wanted to have myself on track before I started going there. :S

It seems impossible right now but there have been times I haven't paid attention to calories. I really wish I could just snap my fingers and get back there. But atleast I know it's possible, so even if it takes a while to get there, atleast I'm getting there... =/

Edit: Thanks, by the way, for all your help. :)

Original Post by fidget84:

well i thought id let you know that one fast track way back to anorexia and bulimic behaviours are by setting your goal to be 5lbs lower than your actual lightest weight.

do you really think its fair on your body that a 5'5 girl weighs between 105 and 110lbs.

you're really recovering arent you

Old goal weights. I'm sorry I haven't gotten the chance to update those.

Original Post by merylwhite1:

Hey, don't worry about it. Pick yourself up and move on. One slip up does not mean you have to go down that road again

This :)

i hear ya
for me it's not just health concerns or anything
i bloat like a beech, and sheet like a mofo when i consume aspartame !

gtfo !
tofurkey is my LIFE.

ahah <3

thanks for all the responses.

i know i am not recoverED from this eating disorder. i am recoverING. it's a process and this was a slip-up. if i were recovered, no, i would not run back to b/p as a coping mechanism. but i am still in the process of getting over this and that's why i ran to my eating disorder as a means of feeling better.

i'm kind of offended to hear that i'm being childish for blaming things on my mom. a lot of the reason i first developed this eating disorder was because of the influence my mom has on me, and her own form of bulimia (purging using laxatives, extreme self-esteem issues).

i've thought about this a lot just in this past day, and the clinic might be a good idea afterall. i just need to find myself a new counselor, annnd ask for individual meetings as opposed to family meetings as i could do without my parents (for reasons i won't go into).

thanks again for everyones responses.

Original Post by fidget84:

dont be silly . nothing makes you binge and purge only you. if you dont want to do it then dont do it.

to be honest  it sounds a bit childish to me. it sounds as though you are punishing your parents by binging and purging for making you go. its the same as saying "if you make me go, il cut myself".

if you had the power to be really eating well then none of that power has been taken off you and you can continue as you started. if you want to kick up a stink and throw your toys out of the pram then by all means go ahead but it is only yourself you are hurting

i don't even feel like responding to this.

this is such a naive response.