Posts by debizonline1

Hi all, STILL going.  To date, since this saga began (6/30/09), I've lost a total of 30lbs and I think I've hit a plateau, at least on diet moderation alone.  I still haven't been working out but that's always been the plan.  I wanted to adjust the diet first and then incorporate working out so it wasn't so overwhelming for me.  It actually has been good because I now know what weight I'll gravitate to and I won't obsess about missing work outs because I'm happy with my weight now!  I posted an updated picture from Thanksgiving this year as compared to Thanksgiving last year,  198lbs vs 168lbs. 

Thanks to God. I literally had said days before the fateful lunch date that I'd given up.  I'd been trying for a year to change my eating habits and to exercise and I could not change choices or behavior patterns for any length of time.  It wasn't until my friend opened the door to that conversation, where I heard myself explain why I'd been unable to lose the weight.  Saying things like, "I CAN'T change...", "I CAN'T control it...".  It was divine intervention because I heard myself in third person and even I didn't believe what I was saying.  I responded as my friend did, "What do you mean you can't? Just do it!"  She was right, why couldn't I?  Those were lies I had bought into and the fact was that I had full control over everything I put in my mouth.  I left the restaurant that day and I was so mad at myself for allowing the lies, my enemy, to keep me down!  It was my choice to eat that heaping mound of nachos.  Would it be a sacrifice to give it up? Yes.  Would I ever stop wanting Nachos and Taco Bell, NO.  BUT I know what that food does to me and I wanted to be healthier, feel better and find ways to get those desires filled without all the damage to my body. 

So, as I said before, my plan was to go hard core, no cheating, for 3 months (started June 30th).  If it didn't make a difference I'd give it all up and go back to my previous eating habits.  Beleive it or not, that short term goal made the world of difference.  I remember eating a dry salad for dinner at a concert while my friends enjoyed french fries that smelled like the most fantastic fries ever made.  I felt so sorry for myself,  "This isn't fair! Why can't I eat what I want and enjoy good food, enjoy LIFE?"  I grumbled to myself, "Only 3 months and then I can quit."  It was during this 3 month period that more revelations came about my perception of food and it was clearer and clearer that I was operating under a lot of deception that enabled my weight gain.

I started to realize how food had become more than fuel for my body.  It was more about the senses - indulging in the richness of flavors and aromas.  I'd eat more frequently and over eat as a result.  It was revealed to me that I was looking at food as an experience, one that I had a right to enjoy.  Exposing that righteousness was freeing because it was another one of the lies that enabled my bad decision making.  I realized that sometimes food has to be fuel, to satisfy hunger and keep the metabolism up instead of being satisfying to the senses.  I also noticed, since I couldn't eat everything I got my hands on, that I ate less frequently.  I still have 3 meals a day but I'm no longer constantly snacking. What doyou know, that means LESS unecessary calories!

I have learned so much about listening to the right voice and exposing the lies that held me as a prisoner.  I am so thankful to have made it this far and I know I didn't do it all on my own.  Being so disciplined for 90 days was divine to be sure and I am leaning on that same strength to keep it up, especially during the holidays.  I did begin to moderate in September so I now allow myself wheat pasta and an occasional peppermint KISS but I watch the calories now and realize I can't do it everyday, it depends on what I've had for that day.  I had sweet potato casserole and pumpkin pie yesterday but it's back to basics today and I won't be guilted into eating more pie so it doesn't go bad.. see, another LIE exposed!!! LOL

Happy Holiday's everyone.  If you're just starting out, just know you CAN do it!  If you're maintaining, keep up the good work! 

WOW!  congrats to you too!!!!  Amazing what we can do when priorities are in order!

Hi all, not sure if you can still see this post but it's been a month since that Monday Lunch Meeting (6/30) and I'm down to 188.9!!!!  I've lost almost a full 10 lbs!!!! YEA!!!!  Praise God!!  I couldn't have done it without HIM for sure.. Thanks for all your encouraging words!  I really appreciate everything you said and all the support you gave!