Posts by veronicar

I am exactly the same way.  I did really good last week and last night while watching tv I made the mistake of eating an oreo. I swear I think I ate 20 of them!  So it's like I totally can NOT eat in moderation, not junk food anyway.  Give me a plate of vegetables and I'll know when to stop!

Your reply did help, A LOT!  I am going to write that essay when I come back from my errands today.  And I think I do take myself too seriously.  I act and feel like I have committed a crime - but the crime is to myself!

Thank you for replying.

Welcome ekko123.  There is nothing to be nervous about.  It's all one day at a time, that's what I tell myself.  Each day is a New Day to try to eat healthy. I am convinced that it is a process.

Yesterday I binged really bad on candy.  I must have eaten about 2,000 calories worth of candy!  As a result I got up early this morning and ate Frosted Flakes (which I consider binge food, it kicks off the binge!) and went back to bed really depressed.  I have pretty much kept it together since I got up the second time.  I'm planning on going to 12:00 Mass to feel closer to God. 

This is such a wide range to rate yourself on?  Couldn't we have done 1 to 10?  Much easier!  If it were 1 to 10 I think I'd be a 6 or7, I'm working on it!  This is only Day #3 of my new and improved diet.  If I had to rate 1 - 100, I guess I would say 70.  I'm not the kind of person that will be 100, I'm never satisified, I always find something wrong with the way I look.

I hope I'm doing this right and the post is going where it should!  Please bear with me, I joined yesterday.  I am totally a binge eater and it is so shameful to me.  I have gotten worse in the past year.  I gained 15 lbs. by binge eating, a lot was because I quit smoking (I started again!) and I would just eat a whole cake in the middle of the night on more than one occasion.   The other day I went to the store to buy my daughter some stuff and I saw there were Enteman's glazed donuts.  Don't you know I bought them and then hid them under my bed?  I think it was a dozen, I had eaten all of them by morning.  I was up a few times in the night to eat them.  I felt like I just couldn't throw them out, that I had them so I may as well eat them.  Well my story could go on and on, it's embarrasing really.  I don't tell just anyone this stuff.  This is the first time I'm admitting the donut thing, anyway.

P.S.  Oh yeah, after I had initially eaten about 8 or so I tied them up in a shopping bag and brought them outside to the trash where there was a large trash bag.  I put them inside there and went to bed.  I got up a few hours later and went outside to the trash and pulled them out and ate them.  Pretty sick, huh?