Posts by tofufish

Since I suspected refined sugars and carbs were the culprits of my binges, I decided to cut them out of my diet completely this January.
So far, so good and... no binges yet!
And I am not even thinking about all those "trigger foods" anymore.
180 degree turnaround for me, I am shocked and SO happy!!!

Well well.
I haven't been posting much because I haven't been doing that good!
Finals, end of college, working all the time... my schedule has been quite messed up and I've been binging quite a bit.

But! I have also been reading the book Sugar Shock!, which is about addiction to sugar and carbs, and how these foods can ruin your health. I'm not the kind to believe everything I read but this got me thinking about my eating patterns and my health. Even my family said that I have always gone bonkers after eating carbs and sugar, when I was a kid: I would run and jump around, then suddenly withdraw and be all quiet and tired.I mean, I don't binge when I stay away from sugar and carbs, and I don't even have the desire to. But as soon as I take a bite, I'm done, and I only want more.

And I was fine before this summer, I would eat well and I would be able to keep cookies and jars of peanut butter at home without emptying them within days. I think that being on a South American vegetarian diet and having 90% of my calorie intake come from white bread and white rice really affecting me. It is during the summer that I started having sudden food obsessions and binge on refined sugars and carbohydrates.

I think I may truly have a sugar addiction. I know there's more to my binging problems, but this could certainly be a factor. After the holidays, I'll cut it out of my diet and see where it takes me!

Nov 19: 153.4
Nov 26: 150
Dec 3 : 148.4
Dec 10: 150.1
Dec 17: 147.9
Dec 24: 148.2
Dec 31: 147.0
Jan 7: 144.8
Jan 14: 142.1

Edit: Wooo!

I just received mine yesterday!
And ate it today (I got the chocolate crisp one).
I thought it tasted like alcohol. Like a chocolaty drink. And I also thought it tasted greasy and was kind of heavy, really filling.
Nice, but not worth ordering, methinks.

I binged today. :(
I ate a 40g bag of Cheddar Quakes, then a 51g box of Reese's pieces, then 2 Felix & Norton cookies = 727 kcals.
Not too big, but in one sitting, it is for me. No matter how big the binge, it's still a binge, and I was doing so well!
I'll just continue doing well from now on but I'm mad at myself nonetheless.

ETA: And then the evil "well, you already screwed up" mantra kicked in, and I screwed up some more.

I've been using a Diva Cup for two years and I LOVE it.
It was uncomfortable at first and I kept trimming the stem, until I decided to just cut it off completely.
I have had no problems whatsoever ever since. No discomfort, no problems inserting it and getting it out, no nothing.
And I found that I have much less cramps with it, go figure. And I can't even feel it! I can do whatever I want when I'm wearing it.
I love how you don't have to wonder whether or not you should be using a tampon on lighter days (because they can be so painful to get out!). With the Diva Cup, I just put it on the day I know I'll get my period, and even if it's a light day, there's no problem at all.
I love it SO much, just thinking about tampons and pads makes me cringe. I can't believe I've ever used them!

Uh oh... not too many posts...
All I have to say is: don't feel guilty if you binged on Thanksgiving! It was THANKSGIVING for goodness' sake!

I haven't binged since the last time I posted about a binge.... but I have no merit, we don't have Thanksgiving over here!

That's the way to take it, hummus!
You did binge, but instead of feeling too guilty about it, it allowed you to learn that a nice meal is always better than tons of snacks. On top of that a meal will keep you full longer and help you not want to binge in the first place!

So don't feel too guilty either, insecure, all you can do is look at the future and try to do better tomorrow!

I had a nice binge free day today (so far!).
And I had a nice couscous for dinner (with eggplant, zucchini, onion and mushrooms... yum!) which was much more worth it than any binge.

What's silly is that I KEEP thing about those evil bags of chocolate chips that are in my kitchen. I can't get myself to eat them because my mother would notice their disappearance. That means I'd have to go buy some more, which would make me want to binge! I can't throw them away as well! And I don't want to ask her to hide them because I'm so ashamed of not being able to control myself.
Good part is that the craving is really not as strong as it was yesterday! Yay for me!

Multigrain does not necessarily mean the bread is made with whole wheat.
Reading the ingredients is the only way to know!

So it was my uncle's 60th birthday.
Went to the restaurant, was the only one not to take the table d'hôte. Was the only one not to finish my plate and not to eat dessert.
Afterwards, I was the only one who didn't take a digestive and refused the chips, cookies, candies and birthday cake.
Then I went home and ate the cake my mother brought back from the restaurant. And the remaining graham crumbs from the package I bought for the cheesecake. And emptied the PB jar that I had home (which fortunately wasn't full at all).

I get you guys. The worst part is doing it, eating all this crap and hating it, hating yourself for doing it and not being able to stop.

Sex: Female
Age: 19
Height: 5'7.5"
Weight 154 lbs
Frame: Medium

And vegetarian!

Edit: Now that I'm actually READING the other posts, jessixlee, you and I are quite close!

But If anyone else is close, message me!

deamer, we sound exactly the same!

I always do the same thing when I'm waiting for water to boil in the kitchen, because I'm just standing there, doing nothing, surrounded by food. Does anyone else also feel that it's when you're waiting that you feel the urge to binge? Waiting for the train to arrive in the metro, waiting for the bus in front of a convenience store... I'll start obsessing over sweets and then go buy cookies, then start reading the nutritional info and feel guilty because really, it didn't even taste good so it wasn't worth it at all!

I'm actually dealing with Christmas time (which, to me, has already started because there is coincidentally an incredible amount of birthdays and anniversaries in my family these days) by intensively dieting (...starving myself!)between events. Or during parties I will say "oh no, thank you", then overeat like a pig when I get home. It is so ridiculous!

But I think I would actually eat much less if I wasn't always with people. I live with my mother and eat dinner with her often, so I don't want her to believe I have issues...

Guhh!

1. Calorie Count Name (user id): tofufish
2. Name you prefer to be called in discussions: tofufish or Merlu (long story!)
3. Age & Sex: 19, Female
4. General Location: Montreal, Canada
5. Married? Single? Single
6. Kids? Furbabies? Neither!
7. Favorite color? Dark purple and dark red.
8. Favorite movie? Oh, it keeps changing. I have a thing for "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind" right now.
9. Hobbies? Theatre, reading, painting, being creative.
10. Favorite Snack? Chocolate
11. Favorite Beverage? Tea, homemade smoothies.
12. Biggest Obstacle to Getting Healthy? I can easily be influenced, so whenever I eat with people I will have the tendency to forget about my diet, or eat desert.
13. Weight/Fitness Goal? I'm currently at153. My ultimate goal is 130 but I'll first be happy when I reach 140! But I mainly want to exercise regularily and have a healthy relationship with food.
14. Least Favorite Household Chore? Cleaning the bathroom is yucky.
15. How did you find Calorie Count? Friends!
16. Anything Else You'd Like To Share? There's a history of obesity in my family (and morbid obesity, heart attacks, diabetes, etc...) and practically everyone is overweight. My mother is an emotional eater and does not really cook nor exercice, so I have been raised with McDonald's and TV. I turned vegetarian 5 years ago and my mother followed, and I am trying to learn about nutrition so that I can be healthy and in shape. And I spent the summer in Peru having other people cook fried foods for me so when I got back, I suddenly started to LOVE cooking and trying new healthy recipes!

And I'm really excited about this community!