Posts by samantha1104

Congrats! Must feel great to kick EDs A** and not think twice! Keep it up girl!

Wow! Im so overwhelmed with all the support here! Thank you everyone! So i guess the definite answer im getting is that i do need to seek professional help for this. Last night while my hubby and i were at the basketball game i just started thinking those positive thoughts like i want to stop this, i wanna change, my body cant take it anymore. but then the bad voices come in saying oh you look great, lose 5 more pounds and you'll look amazing, and then we can stop. But i cant listen to him anymore. I want my life back.

SO do i research an eating disorder specialist? I thought id have to go through my regular family doctor first to be diagnosed?

Were a lot of you like me? Like you had those good voices that would tell u " lets get better" and then you have bad ones that tell you "no!"

Im terrified of upping my cals. i know a lot of you keep saying i should, but im so scared to. I know if i do ill gain. IDK its so tough. Thank you everyone for all your quick responses it really does mean a lot!

Rainbow - Thank you for the quick responce. The thing is, Ill get in these momments, moods where im like ok thats it i cant take this anymore, i need to change, this is unhealthy, and ill tell myself ill change tomorrow or ill try next week and I never do. Im terrified to up my cals anymore bc im scared of gaining. Thats where the negative voices take over.

Thats what my husband keeps telling me he says " you always say your going to try, your going to change, but when? you never do?" and hes right. Thats why i think i need to see a doctor to give me a push.

I bought a book called: Life Without ED and it was great, but not inspirational enough??

Ive been counting grapes as 1/2 cup = 50 cals. 1 cup = 100 cals. Ive been doing this for about 8 months

I weigh myself 3 times in 10 min in the a.m. Just to make sure i get the right number. Sometimes after i work out saturday a.m i weigh myself again just to see the diff. I weigh every day. I cant imagine only weighing in once a week. I would do the same thing if my hubby did that. lol. Its just the fear we have of consuming those bad cals.

KUKK i was wondering the same thing today. I dont eat more than one a day. Only in the a.m for breakfast. but ive always wondered if it would be bad to eat more than one and if its bad to eat one late in the day??

WRM & JEN thanks for the quick replys. Im going to run the path i usually run 2xs. The second time maybe slow it down a lil if i feel exerted. When i run i push myself pretty hard i think. Im thinkin 3mph??? Thanks again everyone. Last question - so would you think that what im doing is considered a decent workout for the days i dont jazz. I also do crunches and core workouts for about 30 mins everyday on top of all this. Is the running good from your point of view? Or just a meesely work out?

*bump* please anyone?

Im glad to hear im not the only one that thinks this way. Well I stay around 1200 cals. The only time I up them is when I hit a plateu. which seems to have happened a lot lately. I was stuck at 126, then 122, then 118. So i upped to 1300, 1350. It scared me. So when I went up like that one day I would cut back down to 1200 to level it out. The weights coming off so slowly now.

I know the Reeses arnt a lot of cals it just that im scared to eat them. I feel if i do thats bad. That I cheeted. How did u break this habbit?? Should I be concerned or is this how most dieters think?? I just want to be able to eat stuff like I use to sometimes. But i cant!

I agree BLM. Today I got so frustrated at my hubby. He was like " oh im going to chick fila" do you want anything  I was thinking you s.o.b of course i do but i cant! Then he has the nerve to call me while he's eating it to make sure I didnt need anything from the house!

I always get jelous of him and my friends when we go out and they look at the menu for 2 mins and know what they want. I have to pull out my cal sheets and add up anything i want. Its so hard to sit there and watch people enjot that stuff I wish I could have.

I use to eat oatmeal every night but then switched to plain cheerios. which do u think is better??? I hate cottage cheese. I love nuts so i have to stay away from them or ill eat the whole can lol.

I've been weighing myself everyday forever! Its a bad habbit i guess. I freak out if i dont do it.

I feel so much better reading all these post and knowing Im not alone. Its so hard to be around my friends and family anymore when going out to eat, to a theme park, to the movies, anywhere bc food always comes up. I have to paln ahead what am I going to bring so im still eating with them, but then i look crazy bc i bring an apple to snack on.

My husband always begs me and says this year will you eat normal. It makes me so upset we cant go out to eat anywhere new. Only safe places I know the calories counts. Its not fair to him. I feel awful.

I too graze the grocery store for hours looking at food I wish I could eat. Reading the back of everything and leaving with the same foods like last time, never anything new.

I get mad at food like all of you, like i get so pissed when my husband or people around me are eating things I only wish I could eat. How come they can eat all that and not feel one bit of regret? Why cant I? Its not just not fair.

Thanks for the fast responce. I dont eat red meat. I eat a South Beach or Kashi protein bar every morning. And for lunch I always try to have something like a turkey sand, chik noodle soup, or a lean pocket. I dont want to eat too much protein. I think the south beach or kashi bars in the a.m are enough???

What are some good protein snacks?? I have food issues I get really down on myself if i go over 1200-1250 cals. Really sad. I keep plateuing in my weight also. You have any clue y??? Or any suggestions???

Thanks so much!