Posts by zmarsh

It didn't really touch on the males plight.

I have the trifecta. OCD plus Insomnia plus Anorexia. They're all interelated as you might have guessed and each one causes the other one to get worse. I also have depression. Fun life, I know.

Okay, I've come to a conclusion. I'm only going to come here to post and only when that's appropirate. So basically so health questions that wouldn't fit in any other forum. Thanks everyone. :D

I know how you feel, I'm recovering too. I won't allow myself to look at my BMI or even try to calculate. That was how I charted my success at becoming skinny. So maybe try to not to think of it in terms of BMI, but rather personal health and happiness.

Thank you! :D

Where to start? When I was only 4 I was molested by the neighbor kid who was 15. This went on for about a month until he moved away. I forgot about it shortly after.

Later in life my parents put a lot of pressure on me because I was the first born so I became a perfectionist. My mom is also a control freak.

I was skinny until I was eight then I became obese and was called fat my entire young life.

I hate change and puberty hit. Being a year older didn't make things better because I was alone. I also wanted to be attractive to girls and get attenion because no one noticed me.

I had a great desire to be like everyone else because of being made fun of for everything.

Finally my Grandpa died bringing the memory of when I was 4 rushing back. I told one of my only friends and he told people sending me into a cycle of depression. That was in my sixth grade year.

Two years later near the end of the eigth grade I watched supersize me in health and I developed food phobias. From there things began cycling out of control. It got really bad in the beginning of freshmen year when the girl I always liked asked me to homecoming because I couldn't possible comprehend someone as ugly as me being with a goddes like her. So I decided to make myself good enough for her. My entire freshmen year becane a nightmare.

Sorry about the length.

15 more now.

Original Post by shinybiscuit:

Original Post by skinnyogi:

I pick at my fingers and it's incredibly embarrassing that I've turned them in to these scar-riddled appendages. I have nice enough hands, small and nicely shaped, but the finger tips are red and scabby. :/

YEP! Me too!

I can't stop :( And sometimes it really hurts. I'm not as bad as when I was a kid - I used to bite my nails til they bled...eww - but I'm still always nibbling away.

 For all 3 people who posted something about this there is actually a mental disorder that causes you to pick at parts of your sking despite how painful it might be. I don't remember much about, but I think you guys should look into it.

All 4. It says so in the criteria. I get to learn to speak Horsinian and I get to learn what a horse wrench does. They should even be making the horse costume for my size right at this very moment. It's mostly to be able to do horse yoga with them so we can learn how horses want the world. I really don't want a horse riding my back, but what are you going to do? Finally we get to ride. I can see it now, falling off the back, getting kicked in the face as I fall, and flying through the barn. Just picture that. Oh how glorious it shall be!

I'm going to get a job at the library and hang out with my friends. Gonna have my sweet 16, so yeah, whoooooo. Going to try to get to whatever parties are held in this tiny unimportant town, so I'll probably party for one hour total. UNLESS people decide to start having fun (Don't count on it).

I'll also be reading 2-3 books a week, but that's not at all unusual for me.

Going to be spending 5 weeks away from the house. The first thing will be a Military Youth Leadership Camp where I'll finally be a junior coach, so yippe, (I really mean that yipee, honestly no sarcasm. Don't look at me that way. . .) Then its off to Scout Camp which isn't done justice by a yippe, so hip hip hooray (May be a wee bit of sarcasm there, but just a wee.). Then Church Camp. Then Horse Camp. When I heard that I screamed WTF. I don't even like horses, they scare me. They bite peoples hands then kick you in the face and you DIE, FOREVER. But my Mom said it was for free and I was going then I said no and then she said fine. You were going to get a surprise party, but I guess you'll be able to help now. So then somehow it turned out I was going and I had to act like it was a surprise party for everyone but me, so like a reverse surprise party. That confused look on your face is one I carried then, whenever I think about it, and now as I type about it. Happy days :D.

Almost forgot Grandma's house for a week!!! Can't forget dear old Grandma now can we.

19 more to go for me.

Original Post by p0nda:

Original Post by travija

and for good measure, a singular tomatoe ends in the letter E

In bizarro world maybe.

@zmarsh, all commonwealth countries say (and would say, if they spoke English) zed, so I see your paltry 300 million and raise you 2 billion. Majority rules! It's ZED!

I live in Canada, and they all say zed here. You're friends have clearly been corrupted by living too close to their cra-zee neighbours!

 O_O Where exactly did that two billion come from. . .

You silly Canadians, the only reason you have higher overall IQ's is because you get more chinese immigrants :P Besides, why would you need an IQ to hold a gun (Yes, I threatned Canada. What are you going to do?).

How much have you lost?: 58 pounds, maybe more. Haven't checked the scale in a good long while unfortunately.

Is this the 1st time or a repeat performance?: 1st time.

Are you finished?: Nope.

How long did it take?: About 5 and a half months.

How long have you kept it off?: Since I started.

What approach did you use?: I exercise and cut down the amount of calories I eat. I stopped my addicition to pop, but not caffine (Thank god for coffee, diet pop, and tea). I stopped eating all fast foods and junk foods as well.

Original Post by spuckine:

Well for what its worth all of canada, england and australia say zed.

Its the only letter that is said differently!

And when we see a z       &n bsp; we say zed not zee,  zee is the sound the letter z makes!!

 Ha, we have a higher population then all 3 combined :P. We win. I know lots of Canadians seeing as how the border is only like 15 miles away from me and they all say ZEE. That is all :D Have a lovely day.

I think it depends on how hard. If you felt pain half an hour later go get help. I had a friend who is physically abused my is father. We tried to get him emancipated and to live with his aunt but his head is so wrapped up around this family first mentality that he won't do anything. So unfortunately all we can do is talk with little action. Just last week they kicked him out because he wouldn't go home with his crazy driver brother.

Anyway even if it doesn't hurt that much and it really bothers you you should go get help. Good luck.