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Everything has been going great otherwise. My hubby and I will be heading to our church campground today actually for "winter camp". Funny how it is called winter camp but all weekend it will be hovering around 60 degrees. Not exactly winter temps but oh well. This weekend will be a challenge. 200 teens, snack food gallore, fatty cafeteria food, late night pizza etc. ugh, what a nightmare for healthy choices!! It will be fun though and I am sure I will get far more exercise than I do at home.

Ok I have to drive 2 hrs. tomorrow with three teen girls in my car, maybe I should go to bed. My DH is over on another computer ordering a fishing magazine...ugh!!! That explains where I will be this summer...the local fishin' hole!!

Still here.

Seems to be just you and me 2BB. I just popped in to see if there was anything going on..not much though.

My DH is working on our car and I here grunts and clanging, maybe I should go check to see if the car is alright...lol.     & nbsp;      &nbs p;

2BB- sounds like God is blessing those who trust in Him!!

I have some very exciting news about my night. We had youth group and out of the blue my DH's other daughter walked in. For those who didn't know he has another daughter who was conceived before him and I got together. Things have been very messy with her mom, and if you read things I posted a couple of months ago you have some understanding of that mess.

Well tonight she was invited by a friend who normally attends our youth group. She was not told my DH was the youth pastor, so when she walked in and saw him it was priceless. Her mom didn't know that she would see him, and I slightly worry about her reaction but I know God has it all under control. I feel so blessed and I know my DH is breathing much easier tonight.....ahhhhhhhhhh.

I told earlier how I have been working on my relationship with God, I never expected for such blessings in such a short amount of time.

This month I have had many people reconnect with me. My maid of honor that I lost track of for a few years, a few old school friends from 20 years ago, friends that I was in youth group with when I was a teen. BLESSED. I am getting a major blast from the past and I am in awe. Some people I am sad to see where their lives are heading, but others I just want to shout because I am so blessed!!

shhhhhh.........I am sneaking in!

Ok I am back!!

I decided to return to the lovely Going4Gold Gang on the one year anniversary of beginning my diet last year. I have been taking a break for almost 4 months now and ashamed, but still ok with it, I have gained some weight. I weighed in this morning at 156.2 which is 32.6 pounds off of what I weighed 1 year ago at 188.8.

Not much has been happening except lately I have really been trying to draw closer to God. It is time to get all areas of my life in fit shape again, I can't lose weight when spiritually I have been a big ole bouncing baby. Since I am making progress in my relationship with Him I can get back to losing.

Still, most faces are familiar. The ones who aren't I am sure I will get to know real soon.

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!

I never featured in that area either but I don't even remember being an A before, that is how long it has been. Oh well, this means I can wear Jr's clothing and fit, so all is not lost, already I can think of things that might fit better now. 

2BB- I will work on that special 500 mile trophy today!! I can't wait to make it a bit more special than my smaller ones. Congrats on walking that much!!!!

KK- wow what a perfect date. Everyone is right as usual...you look terrific and you totally deserved such a great time...accept it you look GREAT!

I got really carried away with the scrapbooking!! I went and spent around $25.00 and got my feet wet. I bought some pretty papers and lots of stickers, and a corner rounder, and also a glue dotter. I created 4 more pages to add to my scrapbook, all of go carts, 4 wheelers, dirt bikes, and compact car racing. today I will get out old pictures and start organizing them too. Still lots of photos to work with. I tried to print some on our computer and found out I was low on ink...how frustrating!! I tried to refill it but I ran out of that ink too, found more so that is on the agenda too.

Quick update.

There was no dinner with my DH's daughter, her mom got in the way. Real rough night but glad it is over and in some ways glad it happened. In 16 years my DH and I have been through many trials, this one ranks right up with the toughest. We are through it I believe. Things are at a stand still because the mom wants to have control and I am not gracious enough to let her do that this time around. I trust my DH, so it must be a pride issue with me. He and I seem to be ok with this stand still, I just can't wait until his daughter is 18 and can make her own choices and her mother can't be part of a relationship between him and his daughter. Funny how she says she is trying to protect her daughter, but the end result is hurting her. Sorry, I am really trying to forgive her, I need to quit picking her apart. I do want to forgive, and that has been a moment by moment decision I am trying to make.

Checking back again and needing some support.

Summer has been crazy, not many dull moments. Last weekend we went and spent Saturday night out at my DH's sisters house for a picnic and I rode a four-wheeler for the first time....loved it! All was good till I got a picture back that made me look absolutely huge!! DH said it was just the angle....I hope so.

This has been the week our city has a festival. Use to be a big deal, but this year things have been very big, like 10,000 people at a rib burn off. In all the craziness we do tend to bump into people we haven't seen in a while.

One of those people being my DH's daughter. Now you notice I said his daughter. Her name is Kate and she is 16 and she was born shortly before our wedding. We were informed she was his 9 years ago, and over the course of 9 years he has spent very little time with her, due in large part to her mother who remains bitter.

It was a pleasant surprise to see a 16 year old standing there almost in tears from the joy of seeing her father. The last time we saw her was probably 5 years ago. Seems strange that we all live in the same city, but rarely see each other. She was alone, mom was nowhere in sight...ahhhh relief. Not sure how to say this, so I will just say it, DH and her mom had an affair nine years ago. I have known this information for a year and a half now and I have learned to deal with it, but in many ways stuff some of it so I wouldn't have to keep dealing with it. My DH is such a different man now than the boy he was then. Many changes have taken place one of the biggest being his commitment to God. Without that our relationship might have been crushed with such news, but with God all things are possible. He heals more than our bodies, He can also heal our broken hearts.

I feel like I am babbling but I just need some support.

We are having dinner with Kate on Friday night. Happy for him and her but just feeling a bit like the 5th wheel. I am getting almost use to that feeling with him discovering a sister who was adopted out as an infant. This year has been very hard, having people really wanting to know my DH, but I seem to be the baggage. Now I am having that familiar feeling again, as his daughter hardly even glanced in my direction or at our kids (who by the way thought she was a cousin!).

Now I get to deal with that plus deal with how in the world we will deal with her mom, now knowing what I know, things will be different. How do I face the woman who tried to steal my DH? Nine years ago she wanted to control all things, and now I am afraid I will be that one. I need prayer that I can let him prove that he will stand up to her and start calling the shots. I know he will keep me by his side and she won't like it, but if he is going to have a relationship with his daughter and me I don't see any other way it could work. Once we get over that first encounter with the mom, I think things will be different. Either I will be more secure or the opposite.

Just needing lots of prayer. I couldn't even list all the things going through my head, to hard to sort through. My children have no idea about the affair so in a couple of days I will be deleting this so it doesn't accidentally get read. With that I ask that if anyone responds to this, try not to directly mention that. PM's might be a good thing for that subject. Probably shouldn't even be posting this but I need to tell someone, and my two friends who know anything about this and my senior pastor are all still asleep. I know I probably won't hear from anyone for a bit in here too, but atleast I got it off my chest.

2BB I agree that the thought of you with your underwear on the outside makes me grin too. Thanks Jella needed a good smile for today Not that you wouldn't look terrific 2BB, but I can picture you with something like underoos or maybe some of those festive poka dot undies like Molly use to talk about Oh and I saw these really cute bras at Walmart that had crazy monkeys all over them...hehehe. Watcha think?? Oh and then the tights should be those striped leggings. For those who know who I am talking about maybe you might look like Cindy Lauper instead of superwoman dressed the way I have it pictured.

Hi gang. Sorry I haven't been in here lately, life has been hectic.

A week ago my mom got rear-ended in a car accident which sent her to the hosp. to get her neck checked. Things were kinda quiet over the weekend. Monday took my 10 year old son and two other kids to our church camp about an hour and a half away. Kids can be annoying in a car for that long...lol.

My mom called while I was at the camp to say she was having severe pain and it was so bad it was hard to breathe. She went to the doctor and was feeling better by the time she was seen. Told if things got bad again to go to the hospital.

Tuesday morning at 4:40 a.m. I woke to my cell phone alarm and noticed I missed a call from my mom at 4:01. Called mom and dad and mom was sick. Got dressed and went in to find my mom halfway sitting in a chair white as a ghost. After some discussion she agreed that I could call an ambulance. They got her to the hospital and she had a bleeding ulcer. They admited her and so that is where I have been. They said she lost almost half of her blood and she nearly bled to death. They gave her one unit of blood and her blood count is going back up slowly. She was released yesterday and my daughter is over with her at this time because now I have to go back down to camp and pick up the kids again.

This will be my 4th trip down to camp in 2 weeks. Only 2 more to make after today, Jr. High camp is next week Once we are done that it will be 960 miles driven to transport kids to and from church camp...ohhhh what fun

Hello!

I have been busy all day. Our weed trimmer broke a couple of weeks ago and this morning I decided to buy a new one. So once I got home it was time to get busy weed trimming. It took me 2 1/2 hrs. and now I see areas that I missed..how frustrating! I forgot to put on my Polar, so who knows how many calories I burned. My TOM began yesterday so I am not too worried about eating too many calories, I will try to just be sensible.

I was extra tired this morning and by the time we headed out the door to walk it was already 78 degrees outside. I still walked 4.2 miles but the other 5.8 will have to get walked on my treadmill, indoors with the air conditioning running. My DH is a welder and he told me it wasn't hot yet...he is nuts.

We got new cell phones last Thursday. We got ones that have the little keyboard to make texting more enjoyable. Funny thing is that I am so use to it now that when I type on the computer I end up making mistakes. Like I need to remember to capitalize the first word of every sentence...lol.

Gotta go do some running around, be back later

I'm back. The farm was very nice. I was very nice too. They agree that the night before schedule is just not working very well, and they are working on another system. The pay amount, well, there are many other things that don't show up on a paycheck that they do for him which I hadn't thought of, things like profit sharing etc. So I guess considering that my dad is 65 and can't do as much as he could 10 years ago, maybe $10.10 isn't so bad when you count in numerous other benefits over the years. I was pleased with the meeting, and I hope my mother will quit worrying so much now. We got some laughs in about my dad not talking, but we all realize the many problems it causes.

I bought the Hungry Girl cookbook today. I have already made a couple of yummy dessert type items. I need more ingredients for most of the other recipes. I love cookbooks!!! 

*CRAP*

DH just called and wants me to bring him his keys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess this means I will just stay up and take it as a sign that it was....to walk!! 10 minutes went by, no more sleep for me.....