Posts by hope3333

I am sorry this happened but it does not take away from your progress. Now that it happened it is a time to look at why and then move forward from here. It does not have to be black or white you can still get back on track. What do you think happened to have you binge and what are some ways to help you get through this without food?Try not ot be too hard on yourself

Do you think you may have some issues around working out because 2.5 hours is very extreme daily and to me is unhealthy unless an athlete. With 2.5 hours you need a lot of fuel. You don't want to have injuries due to lack of fuel and overuse.

Hi. I have had moles removed that I didn't like and I just had one removed that looked suspicious but turned out it was nothing. You are not supposed to pick at them though cause it can cause infection.

First Fidget though you mean well there is a way to respond to people that is more kind hearted. I agree everyone needs a kick in the butt once an awhile with an ed but still. I agree with a lot of your suggestions for coping and building a bigger life. I do not agree that one should not make sure especially after loosing so much weight like he has to have bloodwork and a physical. I have and had a lot of health problems arise with refeeding and/or from the ed. It is better to be safe then sorry. You may be right that it is just from regaining weight but who knows.

Now Clay I understand the expense of treatment because I have had to always pay out of pocket and have spent an unreal amount for inpatient and outpatient. Some will work on a sliding scale though. Now if this is not an option for myself I am working on ways to build a bigger life outside the ed to make me feel good about me. Same for you. I have read your posts and responses and I was inpatient with a gentleman like you who was kind hearted and had a lot going for him but he did not see it and he had to work on ways to feel this. How are you doing now and with getting back to a better intake? What about in your life in general? It sounds like you are very busy.On a side not I have had the dumbest things said to me by doctors who don't understand ed and it is hard but you have to remain focused on your life goals.

It is going to scare you especially in the start. There is a lot of unknown but people who recover push through the anxiety and fears. Do you know what makes you unhappy and scares you and ways to push through that?You said it has been a week and I am not sure what calories you started at and how much weight you need to regain but is there a way you can work on increasing every few days and pre plan your meals like lalabanana said?

Hi. Has your doctor done extensive bloodwork and a physical to rule out any other issues? Now I know for me I tend to regain a lot in my stomach. I have been told that there are organs that need protecting there so at first it will go there. It will redistribute but it takes time and to be consistent. I know it is hard but the more you go back and forth with eating and weight your body can never adjust. It is hard to not get scared when the weight comes on and in a way that is not optimal but it is the only way to get past the eating disorder. I agree with others that you have to work on the issues behind this and I wonder are you in therapy?Take care of yourself

Hi. I am here too. I have suffered on and off for many years and done every form of treatment multiple times. I am regaining now out of a relapse but this time am really trying to make this recovered for good and work on my both the mental and physical issues in full. As you know it is a daily battle and support can really help. I also joined the no ed in healthy group. It looks like a really positive group and also lalabanana it sounds like you have come a far way.

I am going to respond here to both posts and I hope that is ok. First off be proud of yourself for posting because it is a sign that part of you wants to get help. This is a public forum so you will get a mix of feedback but please don't leave. You deserve help and I think everyone is concerned for you because you are in such a bad place. Now I know you feel that other boards or docs don't want to help or would not relate but you can't give up. For ex the other boards like the child grief there may not be a mom who uses an ed but may use another addiction to cope. It is not so much the kind of behavior but more how to cope in a healthier way that you can support each other with. Have you been on a board called something fishy. They have different categories and I know grief is a topic. I think you should post on there or look around in general. On the other post you said you felt you were hopeless and there is no such thing. You have to find the smallest piece of hope you have left or even look at your kids now to get through the day in a better way.

I hope you get or got the call for more intense treatment. Trust me as I regain weight and eat more it is a daily battle to push through the thoughts and do it. I think many here gave good ideas and thoughts. I know for all people who recover fully they have to push through the fears and anxiety of gaining or changing behaviors for the better. It is very hard but in the long run gives on a better life. I agree with the list of goals,ways to cope like journaling/calling a friend. I am trying to stick to a meal plan and think of it as prescribed medicine. Let us know what happens

Hi. I am so sorry about your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going through. I wish I had some words to take away your pain as well. I suffered many years with anorexia and have a mom who suffered my whole life with anorexia and still today. I know the loss of her mom though different sent her into a spiral of her ed as well. I really feel she didn't allow herself to grieve and feel the feelings so she numbed out with an ed. It is very hard even through my struggles to watch my mom in an ed and be concerned about her even as a little child I knew something was not right. My mom like you was not a bad mom but sick. Actually my mom is my best fruiend and truly is the greatest other then her anorexia. You I am sure are the same as you sound very caring. I know things are different with treatment out of the US. I do think something needs to change and you need to find the strength a push through and do things you don't want to but have to for yourself and your family. That means reaching out for help whether it be inpatient or outpatient. I understand you may not be ready to talk about certain things but the healing process can not start until you begin to even if it slowly. For your mind to think though it has to be nurished. I don't see mention about your husband. Is he supportive? What about others like your mom or extended family to reach out to?Someone to talk to ot to help you with meals. If you want an email buddy I am here too. Please take care of yourself and again I am so sorry.

I responded to your other post as well and I am sorry you are struggling and are facing surgery. I know this is a hard battle but please try to stay strong and recover so you can be strong for your surgery and life. I have insurance but it does not cover my ed treatment and never did. Even when I was in the cardiac unit from my anorexia and severly underweight they would not cover any ed treatment so getting super low is not the answer and it is only hurting yourself. Is there any way you could afford op treatment as some will work on a sliding scale of what you can afford. Most people who work with ed know this is also a mental disorder so it is not just about weight. Please take care

I know how hard this place in recovery can be as I have been there where physically I was healthier but mentally still struggled. Are you in therapy and if not can you get into it? Finding the reasons behind why you have this is key to recovery. Also to work on ways to make you feel better about you. You are not your outside and part of building self esteem is becoming a whole person. That means finding a job,hobbies,the inner stuff that makes you. Some of your behaviors right now sound like you are heading towards a relapse with eating less and exercise. This is not the answer to feeling better as you know. I hope you will reach out and get more support and take care of yourself

I have been ip many times and ensure was not used as a replacement but as an addition to a full meal plan. I have seen this supplement along with others like Boost given to many from severly under to almost weight restored to meet high calorie needs in recovery. Some people in recovery need over 3500 which is not a normal way to eat for many. I know a director at a program I was at wanted people to add ensure to a more normal sized meal plan so that when weight was restored they could just eat the same plan but take out the ensure.

Have you been checked by a doctor to make sure there is not anything medically going on? If not try to think in 2's like 2 pb sandwiches,dense breads,granola or other calorie dense cereals. Can you add in ensures? Think 3 meals and 3 snacks at least a day.

First I have been inpatient and daypatient treatment and there are all different sizes from under to over. This can damage your body and mind regardless of weight and anyhow you are under. I know your fears as the weird weight gain can happen. Your body is confused and can hold onto a lot of water when refeeding. I know and it is very hard and scary but it is important to be consistent with enough food so your body can trust you and not hold onto the food in fear of restriction. Your metabolism can take time to jump start too. Hang in there and try to push past your fears