Posts by angeleyes137

H: 5'3

W: 105?

Calories: 2200-2500ish.

I'm a tiny girl, trying to gain muscle and perhaps 10 lbs! But I'm also really active 5 x a week.

I agree with the above poster...you guys need to eat so much more, don't harm yourselves :-\. 

Ok I'm feeling better now. I had a veggie omelette..still feel kind of bad but I'm pulling through

meesh-I lived in the capital, Bogota, for a few years with my mom because she's from there. Buttt yeah I live in the US now.

decempt- I actually have the same doubts as you, maybe someone here knows?

psychoj- I'm so glad you're so happy! Keep it up girlie

relena- how much do you weigh? If you post your stats its easier to know if you can maintain at 1500 or not

agru- yeah I'm not getting much exercise either. Maybe some days walkin for half an hour..I hardly have the chance to go to the gym, plus the doctors didn't recommend it. And I know CC can be so triggering for me sometimes; I just have to tell myself that I'm gaining and have to eat more than normal. Can't wait till I'm over this, I don't want to be counting my calories all my life. I'd rather spend my time doing other things, and food preoccupation just takes up too much of my time right now sadly

gibbit-gj on eating those FF! they sound scrumptious

alysha-how much do you weigh now that you want to maintain?

theofournay- your cravings seem veryyy interesting haha. jw, whats a yorkshire pud? I wanttt a homemade donut :p

bugger me *giggle*

I agree with starcrossdlovex.

After reading through these posts, I can see a lot of people here don't even eat enough. Direwolf, you're in starvation mode, that's why you're gaining. I don't even think you should be on CC, but rather seeking real life professional help.

Those of you who post 1000 cal meals know you're not eating enough. TEENS need at least 1700, I'd say (I'm 5'3, a teen, and need MORE- and yes, I am lean). So if you really want to keep doing it, at least don't post it. Try to realize that these "menus" can be very triggering to people that read this forum; someone may even follow your footsteps because they might not know any better. Don't do this to yourselves, please!

 It does not make an individual in ED recovery feel good to know that there are others eating wayy less. Someone might think they're eating waaay too much and start cutting down on the cals again. This is like a pro-ana forum people. It could create ED mindsets for others.

 So seriously, like the creator of this forum said, do not post if you are not eating enough. It is not something to be proud of.

I'm not trying to be mean. I't just not a healthy way of living

Hi everyone! Wowww, lots of posts. I can't even keep up! I've been busy with school (started monday for me), scheduling, and work, so I haven't been able to log on and comment. I've been struggling to keep my calorie intake because of this, since I can't really "count" or eat when I want when I'm running around..I'll have to figure something out, because I crammed in most of my calories at night and it sucked. I'm not a night time eater..

meesh- your story about your dad was sooo touching! It makes me feel even more determined about battling this ED. :D Like others said, you're so mature and inspiring.

alysha- omg your pb&j oatmeal sounds amazing! Also, how did you make your almond milk? I usually buy the stuff, it'd be fun to make it myself :D. Also, a little bit of transfat can't be terrible, but like gibbit said, maybe you can find some natural?

aussie-Congrats on the college! Knew you could do itt girlie.I know how you feel about carbs haha. I hardly eat pasta and potatoes and now i pretty much have to every day. I don't like potatoes so I make some macaroni or something. I used to love mac&cheese and my dad bought me this wholee prepared macaroni. On the box it says 700  calories and 26 g of fat for the meal! I used to eat this without caring, like weekly! But I can't do it; i'd rather make my own healthy version

gibbit-good job on the positive attitude! I had been feeling kind of down about food lately too, but we can do it. On to gainingg

Haha I guess I'm not the only one that makes crazy concoctions with oatmeal! I always make pumpkin pie oatmeal, or even reese's oatmeal. Decempt, we'd get along very well haha!

I'll post my food later, but todayy I "invented" the most amazing apple cinnamon popcorn. Pretty much just combine popcorn, applesauce, cinnamon, and sweetener to your taste and stir. It's sooo good I swear. It's not very high cal, but you can stove-pop the popcorn or add butter to make it more caloric. Even add maple syrup. It's soo good. I'm obsessed with cinnamony things. I sprinkle it on everything! :D

agru- happy BIRTHDAY! :D:D

theofournay- I think my test went well. I suck at math, so maybe that's the only weak spot :p haha. But I get my results monday so I can plan my schedule. woohoo seeeniors 09. Oh yeahh, I used to eat oatmeal 3 times a day. I put pb on it, chocolate, fruit- anything. It's like my all time favorite food. Now I'm trying to vary things a little, haha.

psychoj-girrrrl I know how you feel about the whole schedule thing! It sucks. Last year I didn't even have any periods with my bf and I was mad. And this year I have to be without him cause he graduated. haha it really sucks at first, but you'll be fine (hopefully). I mean, if they change it, great! Just don't kill yourself over it

gibbit-I made the tofu ice cream! Except I tweaked it a little. Skipped the choc chips, added pb and blueberries. maaan so good!

alysha-I also like oatmeal with milk better..haha and I like mixing in cream cheese usually (not cottage) because it takes like oatmeal cheesecake I swear haha. oooh maybe I'll try one of those tim horton donuts too..

aqua-I can totally relate to the period thing. It's like my ED mind thinking that if I don't have my period yet, my bf% is still low. AND it makes me feel good! If I got it, I'd feel like a failed anorexic too. Wow, but I'm supposed to be getting over this! Sigh. We just gotta learn to push these negative thoughts away. Having a period is healthy, it's normal, it's womanly.

also, I read someone posted links about saturated fats? Can you post them again? They're like my fear food

ohh and yesterday went so well! Since I wasn't at home and went to the airport, we stopped at Chili's. I ordered veggie fajitas (hugeee portion) and I ate nearly the whole thing! I felt oh so proud!

I'll post my food later!

:D:D you all made me feel so much better *hugs*. I guess I'll talk to the shrink to see what he has to say, but I honestly don't think I have a huge "emotional" problem anymore. I'm a happy person, and I want to gain weight!

alysha- yesss we all care what you think haha. talk to me whenever you wanttt!

psychoj- or should i say jesssss! hehe. THANK YOU youre amazing! let's kick some ED butttt

gibbit- thankkk you. I know it's hard for me to say, "yeah, hi I'm anorexic". I'd rather keep it to myself ya know. It took me months to even realize I was. I just thought I was superrr healthy. omg I'm drooling over your tofu ice cream and cobbler! I abs love tofu in desserts

Okk, and I know I'm a health nut but today I'm cravingggg a donut. Guys, I never eat sweets/bakery goods/treats/desserts..pretty much anything sugary . I developed a fear of them along with my ed...I never was a huge sweet tooth, but I just can't eat them now at all. My definition of "dessert" is oatmeal with cocoa powder, fruit, and sweetener.Or those greek yogurt smoothies I make every day (they're sugar free). I'm not even kidding..  :-( I want a donut though. Think I should get one tomorrow? I dunno if I'm ready, it's like...I'll feel the guilt trip. but my other voice says, "omgg it's just a freaken donut!" Sigh.

anywayyy, here's me for the rest-

s-pb kashi bar (140)

d- seitan, kamut&quinoa spirals, broccoli, spinach, green beans, marinara, tomato soup, spices, a little rice (350) . mannn i was like ROARR I'm hungry (my dad made me wait for a late dinner)

s- ALYSHA haha speaking of oatmeal- (by the way, example of "dessert" for me) oatmeal w/ pb, diced peach, and cottage cheese all mixed in -(310?)

I'm SO full haha. Still have like..200-300 to make it to 2200 at least. Waiting a few.. :p

heyyy everyone. I'm going to the doctors today for a final weigh in..kinda scared.I've been stuffing my face today and drinking lots of water(I know, not the best way.); but i just want them to realize i'm gaining and stop telling me I've got issues. It's really annoying when you're trying to help yourself and doctors don't realize it.

I'm gonna start today on not measuring so much, too. At leasttt I'll try my best so that I can finally stop one day! Wish me luck :D

b- egg whites, veggies, nutritional yeast, soy cheese. Trail mix, cheese crackers. Coffee w/ soy milk (400)

s- veggie bruschetta burger, whole wheat pita, spinach, marinara (250)

s- popcorn with blackberries, chocolate syrup, cocoa powder, more cocoa powder, (haha), maple syrup, cinnamon. [psychoj - it was amazing!] (200?)

s- frozen smoothie made w/ cup of greek yogurt, cinnamon, baby banana, blueberries, vanilla, & lotsss of ice (200)

oh man, my appointment's in an hourr. Xxx

lala- read my prev post about seitan

aqua and t17-wow i can totally understand. I used to have a certain percent of carbs in fear of getting too many. I'd rather have a 50-30-20 ratio (carbs-prot-fat), but I stopped when I started wanting to gain. LIke whooo in the world does that!

agru-youre not unhealthy girl! not by any means is it wrong to eat that. I wish I could do that, I need to be able to do it once I'm fully recovered! I don't actually enjoy my fear of "unhealthy" foods..Wish I woulda never known

psychoj- I know, isn't popcorn amazing! and whole grain too, haha :D. Did you melt the dark chocolate and then drizzle it on? Sounds tempting. Man I wish I could go pop some now and try it. haha. Dad's asleep, can't make noise. But seriously, try drizzling maple syrup on it (or sugar free- dunno if you're sugar conscious like me..) next time. Maybe syrup + chocolate + cinnamon :-O. Or even chocolate + peanut butter to make it...amazing?! Wowwww I have the urge to go in my kitchen now, I have to try these both! :-(

agru- yeah today I'm just lounging around the house and not exercising :-). Like psychoj said, do something you really enjoy.I think for your birthday you should parttyyy it up! haha, and honestly, try doing your best not to think about food as someting scary that day. It's your birthday, have your favorite food, no matter what. I know it's hard, but you can do it; it's for your benefit!Have cake, treat yourself. Cheers for a long and healthy life :D

psychoj- I'm glad you're so happy!! hehe so am i.well I have that smart balance butter spray thing, and I spray it on my popcorn so that the cinnamon sticks :p. I also microwaved the fruit w/ syrup for 10 secs -so it'd be all warm and gooey- and mixed it all. yay. and with 6 cups of popcorn it goes a LONG way. I know it's not calorie dense, but I just love it. like 150 cals for the whole thing...I'm thinking of adding pb to that tonight? mm that'd def up my cals in a yummy way :D

today so far-

b- egg whites, nutirtional yeast, hummus, bean dip, carrots . English muffin, cottage cheese, cinnamon. Coffee w/ soy milk. oz of trail mix. (500 cals). YESSS I was hungry haha.

s- cheese crackerssss (60 cals)

s-mighty bites cereal (120)

l- seitan, like a million cups of spinach (ran outtt of my veggies! only thing left :p), nutritional yeast, lentils, olive oil, red wine vinegar, spices.. (250?)

s-greek yogurt, 2 baby bananas,  almond breeze, bunch of ice,  cinnamon, puffed millet (150)

good day!

 I absolutely LOVE mexican, but I always want the quesadillas and enchiladas, haha not your best option calorie-wise.

I'm pretty sure the best option is fajitas. Usually where I go you can order them and then make them yourself. If you're really going for low cal, just add veggies, salsa, and beans/meat to your pita. 

Skip the cheese, sour cream, go easy on the rice (if you have any at all) and try not to eat those chips they serve! They're so addicting, but are like 500 calories for the whole thing...Or something way up there haha.

agru- i took like a cup of greek yogurt and 1/4 cup of soy milk and froze it for an hour then put the warm baked apple on top, syrup, cinnamon, peanut butter,and mixed. its really good :-). I can't eat those fruit yogurts and stuff cause I'm vegetarian and they have gelatin..so oh well, I gotta make my own inventioins! :p. oh about cardio, I only did elliptical for 30 (could not make myself go slow; that's why I have to restrain from exercising so much..). But elliptical's not so bad right? I meannn I probably shouldn't be doing it every day yet, but I felt relaxed?

oh yeah i just had 2 slices of whole wheat toast w. smart balance. yummy

lala- I used to try and do 30 mins of either elliptical/running or something and then strength training like 4 times a week. But now my doctors are recommending i only WALK for half an hour, and not even at like 3.5 mph. They're telling me I shouldn't even do cardio. And it's so infuriating because I feel like I need to exercise regardless of my ed. I like it..

charliebo- thanks for your input! I just need to get rid of that stupid voice that tells me to stop eating at a certain point. I need to do this for myself. I need to gain 10 more lbs, and the faster the better.

gibbit- I'm sorrry you're in that situation too. I know how you feel when you're out and all you can think about is what to eat next. It's sooooo annoying, and it makes me be in a bad mood. But just try pushing that voice away..and today's a new day. Think about things that make you happy, and enjoy your life. Our life shouldn't be a menu! Also, if you're on the go a lot, try bringing portable snacks. I mean I'm always out and about and I'd have to eat like 1000 cals at night cause I hadn't reached my goal...and it sucked. I felt like I was binging and stuffing my face with anything I could find. But now I just try bringing a bar with me, a fruit, sandwich.. and it's become less worrisome to fit in all my calories at night. Hopefully this helps?

thanks agru & aqua. I feel better now. I mean I obviously can not look fat at 95 lbs or even 105 (gw)! well, my dietitian thought it was the faster the better. I dont have to see her again till next month :-). But now that I've calmed down I'm pretty sure it's water retention because there's no way I gained 1.5 lbs in a week. I usually gain steadily..

agru-kamut & quinoa spirals are like pasta, butttt more protein? I just tried them for the heck of it, I don't think they have gluten. They're yummy. And you're doing so good haha it doesn't matter what you eat I just have this "clean eating" thing in my head still- I wish I didnt

anyway, I went out with friends after that. Came home, had another banana. like 6 cups of popcorn (plain), and a cup of pumpkin w/ cinnamon & cottage cheese. I probably just made it to the 2000 cal mark today, but I really don't feel like counting. Today just wasn't my day..

hey guys, I haven't been able to come on for a couple days (work, friends & stuff)...let's just say I really missed you all :-)

Anyway, I went to the dietitian today..and I'm freakin out because I got weighed last week and I was at 94 now 95.5 in ONE week. I'm having an ED moment right now, my mind is telling me,  "STOP eating so much you're gaining too fast". But at the same time I chugged a lot of water today and had quite a lot of food befre I went. Sooo maybe it's all that? I mean I wasn't even gaining at 2000 and now all of a sudden I weigh 1.5 more lbs? I know I feel guilty for having these thoughts but I can't help it.

Regardless of this, I have kept on eating..

b-egg whites, veggies, hummus, pepper jack slice. 2 cups of puffed corn cereal, soy milk, cinnamon. coffee w/ soy milk again

s- english muffin, 1 oz trail mix, 30 crackers. ugh

s-kamut & quinoa spirals

l- tofu, nutritional yeast, veggies, hummus, salsa, veg gravy

s- cup greek yogurt, crushed ice, 1 cup of bluberries & blackberries

(This is when I went to the dietitian..)

s-kashi pb bar

and i was just CRAVING chocolate when I got home. I had a baby banana, thenn: oatmeal, cocoa powder, carnation instant chocolate, and a vitatop deep chocolate brownie ALL mixed in. heavennnnn.

I feel like a pig todayyy :-( Help meee block these negative thoughts!