Posts by finskafisk

try washing down a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar in the morning with a glass of water before you eat breakfast...its a near guarantee.

Breakfast: banana bread, 1c greek yogurt, 1 tbsp flaxseed ground, 3/4 c blueberries and strawberries

Lunch: 3oz steak sauteed with peppers/onions, 1/2c quinoa, roasted broccoli, carrots

Snack: 6 almonds

Dinner: Beef curry, 1/2c cooked lentils, roasted eggplant, spinach, carrots, 1/2c quinoa, orange

Snack: 6oz strawberry yogurt, banana bread, 1/2 c blueberrie

I love my nighttime snack and wouldn't give it up ever...I know sometimes I've had nights where I've gone out and gotten home after midnight...but still had it at that hour...my nighttime snacks always tend to be on the dessert-y side...recently I've been having: Strawberry frozen yoghurt (or some variation of ice cream) with 2 of my mum's DELICIOUS whole grain oatmeal chocolate chip cookies (heat them in the microwave so they're freshly baked ish) and then i put loads of berries with the ice cream/frozen yoghurt. DELICIOUS>>>I know it might be a tad sweet for some...but its my sweetest "meal" of the day :)

Yeah I was wondering the same thing actually! Where do you work at? I work at Abercrombie & Fitch...and even though its not too physically demanding of a job...mostly just standing/folding/etc I always find myself absolutely exhausted and sore after a six hour shift...haha i guess it could be the pounding music too!

Thanks :) Thats reassuring to know

haha I'm in college and its rare that our cafeteria has decent tasting meat so i guess I was just overdoing it since its so rare around here.

i'm a virgin. therefore i know i'm not pregnant.

Back down half a pound to 95 :(

ahhh. despite having a week of cheesecake factory cheesecake, brownies, eating out 5/7 nights, and just overall A LOT of 'fear foods'. I'm guessing its metabolism speeding up? Because oddly my breasts have gone up again (yays!) and I'm now a 32B! Sweeeeeeet.

I go back to college on sunday so don't know when the next time I'll be weighed is as I don't have nor plan on getting a scale over there...but I'll probably need to touch base at the health centre at some point...in any case whether i know it or not, still shooting for another 1/2-1 pound per week :)

I have! I have! I've never been on BC or any sort of hormone treatment so feel free to ask me anything....I've gone through the restarting menstrual cycle post anorexia three times in the past three years...most recently this past month.

I suppose I'll use my most recent time as an example...so I'm 5'2 and keep in mind that each person is different at what weight they menstruate at/not...

So the first time a few years back I lost my period at around 95 lbs, but I didn't regain it back until I was around 100...however, this time what had happened is this past april I'd relapsed a bit and made it down to 88/89 lbs and then basically May-August I was eating completely normally (no skipping meals, nothing)...but not exactly weight gain amount...I'd estimate around 1500 cals a day which still isn't technically enough I think (but I've upped it in the past month to closer to 2000) and by nourishing myself constantly I found that I got my period back at 94 lbs- completely normal blood tests/vitals etc...and it was a full on real period! I think the difference is that this time I am a lot healthier at 94 then i was the first time I lost weight (2 years ago it had only taken me about two months to go from 112-94...and i kept on going down, so you can imagine how malnourished and sick i was then)

It will come eventually...definitely takes patients- but you have to be consistent with upping your caloric intake and assuring your body its healthy enough to have a period...also I found eating good fats (nuts/avocado/etc) REALLY helps so make sure you eat ENOUGH fats.

94 is still a low weight for me though longterm so I am trying to get to 98-100 at the time being...currently around 95.5, but i definitely feel a gajillion times better now that i get a real period :)

I don't really religiously count anymore since I have learned to rely more on my hunger/fullness cues...but I am in the process of trying to gain a few pounds as I'm a bit underweight...so it depends- but my intake can be anywhere from 1500-3000 depending on the day ;) Oh and I never ever everrrrrrr skip meals ;)

Haha so I thought I would tell all you lovelies who replied to me how it went...

It went really well actually...he met me after work, we sort of hung out at the shops a little, then we went to cheesecake factory and split a slice of chocolate cake cheesecake (being a recovering anorectic this was like the ultimate test of overcoming a fear food for me just as a side note)...anyways we sat and talked for a while which was kinda nice then we went back to visit our coworkers at Abercrombie...and...kind of hooked up in the fitting room. Lol...I know...i know, but it was nothing too uncomfortable, just making out i guess (sorry if this is tmi) but nothing beyond that...i was so relieved he didn't try to do anything else...

he seems like a really nice, intelligent guy...oh well...too bad its end of summer and all...but I don't know it was a nice experience. And then i met up with my friend afterwards for dinner...so it was all good :)

Once again thanks for all your valuable input :)

Yeah I definitely have the whole safety thing under control (have enough money for cab, etc...programmed taxi #s in my cellphone) and I also have a friend who i will periodically text who knows exactly where I am etc (and i do intend to keep it a public venue in which like one of you said will not involve any unzipping, etc ;D)

I wouldn't want to miss out on this opportunity since its the end of summer and nothing too exciting has happened and also because I already said I would, so I told my mom I'm meeting a friend after work which isn't a lie and I just said I would be having dinner with them, etc.

Oh and about the license suspension thing, I know that sounds really sketchy and all but he told me the whole story behind it and I've known him for about four months now and I don't get any bad vibes from him really or any instincts that scream that I could be getting myself into trouble.

I'm basically just trying to save my parents from any worries they might have (my mom is like a chronic worrier...and she gets very stressed very easily), because I feel this is a decision I should make for myself. And I also feel like I need to venture out of my comfort zone...I regret that in high school I had been so sheltered that I'd NEVER went to a high school party/had any regular fun high school weekend experience-

The only part thats really making me nervous is how I'm going to get home...I hate to bother my friend by calling her and asking her to pick me up and take me home...so I'll probably resort to a taxi or such. Ahhh. I still cry over that itty bitty 'unsafe' lane change i made that caused me to fail my drivers test last month :(

Thanks sounds good!

Yeah public place (restaurant for instance) sounds better...because i can definitely see how going to his place might imply that i'm willing to go for something else.

But yes, I have mounds of respect for my parents and the only reasons I wouldn't specify that I'm seeing a guy for dinner is just because I don't want them to worry or overreact or stress themselves (or myself) out- plus since I am an adult and did after all survive my first year of college, I do feel like I am fit enough to make decisions for myself and to judge what I am and am not comfortable with.

Oh well I'll tell you guys how it goes! I guess its somewhat comforting to discuss some of this stuff sometimes. :)

Haha! That was a funny story! Yeah the thing is my mom is Arab but my dad is from Finland which is literally like the most laid back liberal place ever, but for some reason my dad is stricter than my mom...its almost like he's the Arab. Strange.

Thanks...and yeah I hate lying to my parents too...but the truth of the matter is sometimes its just what I have to resort to...they're very strict, and basically I'm never really going to technically be allowed to date, it would just be 'not right' considering my mother's cultural background and all...I'm not as nervous about the part about getting away with it since I'm going to be vague and say I'm seeing my friend for dinner or whatnot, but more of how to deal if anything advances farther than I'd like...like I said i'm nineteen and a virgin (lets just say i've never gone past second base even with my exboyfriend i had in college), and this guy is 21 and definitely not a virgin- and I just need a little advice on what to do if things get kind of awkward because i'm a little nervous...I know I know everyone will say if he respects you he won't force anything, and i have no doubt that he wouldn't force anything i didn't want to do, its just how to put a stop to things if it gets 'too late' or whatever without seeming childish or anything.

Ahhh sorry, I really need to get myself a little more together, I know this post is kinda pathetic...sorrryyyy.

Breakfast- 1c 2% Greek yoghurt, 1c blueberries/strawberries, 1 tbsp ground flaxseed, 1 big slice zucchini flaxseed bread

Lunch- 2 white corn tortillas, 4oz ground turkey with onions/ 1/2 can canned tomatoes, lettuce/cilantro, 2 tbsp greek yoghurt

Snack- 1/3c homemade trail mix (peanuts/almonds/pretzels/dried fruit/choc chips)

Dinner- 4oz chicken breast marinated in yoghurt, 1 large red potato, 2 cauliflower florets, 3 baby carrots (all roasted)

Snack- 1 slice zucchini bread, 1/2c strawberry dreyers frozen yoghurt, 1/2c berrie