Posts by penniepie

these are wonderful suggestions - i do find it is much harder to put them into play.

I find i get extra needy at times when we dont seem so be ultra affectionate or together much....eeks i need to do something - im going to be living with him next year

For those of you that have it at home - do i need alot of space?

I am in a basement apartment and not much space

wow! All of your post have truely touched me.  Alot of what i read made me feel truely great about myself :) I want to thank you for that. 

One thing i did not mention that i think has been contributing to my insecurity is that we have gone from seeing eachother a few times a week to once a week - and this is because of work shedules - we have both taken on a second job to save money for our new house (furnishing, paying debts, taxes etc) we did not streach ourselves beyond our means financially we just want to make our future comfortable.  I miss him terribly and i think i feel so alone and upset when i think why doesnt he look sad without me, why does it seem so easy for him - he just looks at it as "whatever" we do what we have to do and we see eachother when we can - dont worry when we live toegther it will all be great - im doing this for us. I totally get that - but it looks so damn easy for him it makes me think - maybe he is ok with out me, maybe he will forget what its like to "be" with me and in the end he may just choose to be single again...."why doesnt he miss me!!" I drive myself in sane.  He is a very independant guy, not one to be a gushy and mushy, but does express his love for me - i guess i just expect that he would tell me more, or talk to me more or whatnot now that we dont see much of eachother - but not the case.  It the same amount of calls (two a day) and same amount of verbal affection.  Maybe i ask alot or maybe i need that but all i know is its causeign fights :S

wow belly daning that sounds great!!!

i wish i had thick long hair!

I have medium length, fine fine hair - that i have done quite a number on blow drying and dying - so needless to say its a bit damaged :( 

ok guys thanks so much

Im eating an oatmeal and it seems to be helping...

Its a brown sugar one - i think the poster that mentioned not enough sugar nailed it on the head - i find at times i get dizzy and need a shot of suagr

Essh i need to smarten up!

im eating an apple im hoping the vitamins will help me feel a bit better so i can eat something else

I know i need to eat more - sometimes i watch what i eat so much and then not realise i wont be able to eat much the rest of the day cause of work so therefore i never make it to 1200 cals

i know what you mean!!

like here i am all scared he will hurt me :( and all because of the dumb dream! - its so real when you are in it eh

I would like to Join as well!

Im 25 years old - 5'8''

current weight - 139 lbs

By end date goal - 130-131

Im excited! when do we weigh in?

Thanks Beena!!!

We are sooo very excited :) - the wait is sooooo long!

but lots of time to save up :)

Thanks Ahsa :)

What types of bikini styles do you think is good for someone who has a smaller chest and larger hips?

Hey SusieKitten,

Thanks for the support! - i bet you look amazing!!

Im not a huge fan of being 5'8'' i wish i was more 5'5'' or 5'6''.

Its hard and I by nature am extremely hard on myself EVERYONE tells me that.  I just bought a house with my bf that is beign built and so i am working 2 jobs trying to save as well as find time to eat properly and i just dont have time to exercise so i feel quite guilty about that and feel that that contributes to my non weight loss.

I do come home around 11 pm and do medicine ball conditioning as best i can im just so exhausted!!