Posts by twiggy_1960

I realise that what I bought her last year was a little old. Alot of her friends are into clothes etc, but I guess Claire is more interested in having fun outdoors and getting mucky lol.

She already got alot of high school musical merchandise last year, and has basically everything hanah montana! However, doesnt really seem to be as excited about all of that recently.

Last year my mum bought the whole family tickets to go and see a pantomime.. whcih thanks to my ED stopped me from going - and she was really upset. And I was also devastated as acting is a passion of mine. To go and see a show with her would have been great..

I don't know if my mums got the tickets in this year and is just leaving it a surprise... so im afraid to go ahead and buy them!

This is my biggest overall problem!!
I have been eating the same foods everyday for almost a year.
I am scared of a wide rang of - most - foods.
The majority of my diet consists of baked potatoes with tuna, wholegrain toast, salads, cereal and lowfat yoghurts. Being a Brit, I can face drinking tea with milk and two sugars. Which is strange because if anyone offers me sugar in or on anything else i'd think of them as insane?

We really should start a group where we challenge ourselves to try and introduce a new food every week and report how we coped up on CC etc,.. :)

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So what I should do is eat a few hundered calories more than maintainance, mainly in protien, on the days I do weight training and exercise?

How many cals should I eat if Im 17,  did Body Pump twice a week (one hour sessions), swimming once a week (maybe for say two hours?), go to school -  also have a cleaning job on a wednesday? And how effective would it be?

I forogt the majority of people on CC were american! When I read size six I automatically assumed a british size six - US size 1? By the end of your post I thought you ment you were a size 00.. and got a bit of a fright lol.

Is the average size of an american woman, the same as a british woman. Here apparently the average size is a 14-16, a US size 10 I think?

I've always believed in the saying; "if you look good, you feel good." And it's the absolute truth, if you feel pretty, healthy and fresh - you'll act like someone who is pretty, healthy and fresh. However, on the other hand, if you feel fat, ugly and unhappy - you're not going to want to leave the house or do anything remotely fufilling at all.
And even though I was a healthy teenage girl with a BMI of 20. I felt like fat, ugly and unhappy. I hated myself, and wanted ever so much to be that pretty, healthy girl with the fresh personality. Unblatant to me, I already was her. My key to be perfect turned into a thin obsession, and I now battle anorexia.
Im moving off subject, but to conclude my point - what I mean is: if you dont think you look good on the outside and youre not happy on the inside, where is your confidence? Nowhere but through the floor.

We always look at these images of the rich and the popular; the beautiful people. At the end of the day, looks do have something to do with confidence - we all want to look AND feel good. But it all starts with loving yourself first. Otherwise it could end up out of control. Take it from somebody with that first hand experience. Work on the inside and THEN the out.

Thanks for the advice everyone, it makes alot of sence!

I dont think im eating more than I think Iam?
I split my meals into 300 calories each (Bfast, Lunch, Dinner)
and then leave another 300 for snacking.
I gained all of my weight at once when I started to eat again in my recovery,
so im guessing that my motabolism is slow. However, I had lots of blood tests recently, on a numerous amount of things, my metabolic rate being one of them. No results were positive, so who knows whats going on.

I go to school and walk alot. Im in my last year, so there are lots of activites to take part in. After school on a wednesday I work as a home help with my aunt - usually cleaning vigorously. Thursdays I help out at the local primary school until 5pm with the kids teaching study support. At the weekends I go out and dont come back until sunday lol. I used to excercise most days of the week for one and half hours - but as Ive been so busy lately I havnt for a few weeks.
So Iam active. I dont really know whats going on with my motabolism.

I do have a nutritionist, but I hardly see her.
I dont get many apointments with my pshycologist because Im nearer a healthier BMI she obviously has people that need more support than I to talk to. My parents havn't got a clue about anorexia. So Im kind of stuck guessing what to do most of the time. A reason why I joined CC.

I was thinking of starting aerobics twice a week for two hour sessions.
If I upped the calories and did this form of exercise, would I benefit?
because im still too afarid to up them for no reason (ie. being more active etc).

5''4 (I GREW, I was 5''3!)

LW: 83lbs

CW: 104lbs

GW: I think I should be allowed to maintain now?
Whadda ya think? :)

I definetely got more attention when I was fit and healthy, than I do now. Even though im near maintainance now - weighing 103lbs, guys paid more attention to me when I weighed 120lbs. I had boobs, and an ass - and a nice waist.
Guys dont "dig" fat, or thin. They like fit and healthy. And girls like fit, healthy guys.

Thats why we're all here aiming for that level, arent we?
Because we know it definetely looks best. ;)

Breakfast: Toast (whole grain, wheat germ bread). A pear, and a fat free yog.

Mid Morning Snack: Wholegrain "apple slices" from Tesco.

Lunch: Cucumber sandwich, on same bread as above, with scraping of fat free cottage cheese. Fat free yog.

Dinner: Small baked potato and tuna (no mayo!)
An apple.

Bed Time Snack: Whole grain toast.

Ive been obsessed with bread today? AND Fat free yogs?

Whats that all about lol! :P

Slept over breakfast, again!

Lunch: Jacket potato and baked beans.

Snack: Low fat yoghurt, "wholegrain apple bites"

Dinner: Tomato and basil soup - two slices wholegrain bread.

Snacks: Apple, and a Banana.

Wow, do we have so much in common.
I was in your exact position not so long ago.
Ive been battling with this horrible disease since I was thirteen.
I am now nearly fully recovered, even though - I know the ghosts of an eating disorder will haunt me for the rest of my life. You are always going to think negative thoughts about food, weight and appearence. It's a nasty place to be - but being ready to recover, or recovering and fighting an eating disorder means that you're ready to face anything that it throws at you. And you've come so far - it takes a really strong person to do what you've done - congrats! :)

Before Anorexia in school - I was an A student, and didnt study in the slightest!
Anorexia, took me out of school for my most important year, and iam now being kept behind! And repeating.. everything!

Remember - intelligence isnt a grade on a paper, and intelligence isnt passing exams, coming first or getting 100%. It may take someone who is able to do those things, but I believe everybody has the same level of ability..
An ED took that some ability away from you, because you put all of your efforts, intelligence if you like - into being ''food smart'' ie. you only focused on that.
Youre still the bright person you always were - and so what if it takes you a little while to back up to scratch. This time youll come back out on top, and possibly even better than before - because fighting this disease doesnt only give you the courage to face food again, but it gives you courage and determination in all the aspects of your life. You'll get there!
Just stick in there, and keep working at it. I think you just need some reassurance. :)

My best friend is four sizes bigger than me in clothes. I TRY her clothes on, and watch in complete awe as they fall to my feet. You will always see yourself as bigger. I don't feel very elegant either. I do, on most days, feel like a big blob!
But youve just got to keep reminding yourself what you have been through.
I had anorexia.. anorexics are UNDERWEIGHT. I have faced this illness - and yes I have gained - but why would anybody want to put somebody with an eating disorder in the position of being overweight, or fat. If your therapist made you gain weight until you were flabby, they wouldnt be tackling the illness properly now would they? Because you need to be at a weight your body is happy at. And being over or underweight isnt going to make it happy. You sound like you have a very nice figure now because of all the sports that you play. You know that you are the smallest of your friends, so keep saying that in your head. Heck - write facts about your body down on paper if it helps!

I lost all of my friends because they didnt understand the eating disorder and I was always quite a popular student. I had lots of friends, and the ones who I lost due to the illness - I realised they werent true.

Most people who have never been in your shoes will never understand. Its hard to hear that your best friends will never be able to truly give you the most accurate advice. At the end of the day, most people are never going to understand.

All you need to do is get your confidence back. And this will take longer than gaining weight. Why dont you try talking to new people and meeting new friends and see what happens when you are faced with people who cant judge you, who dont know you - and dont tell them about your ED. Maybe having one new friend is the way to go, start a complete fresh. You might feel better with people who you can be YOU all over again with!