Posts by luai_lashire

I'm 16.  I found this site through a health class ("Wellness", it was an overview of several health topics), and since I'd been looking for a good way to improve my diet for a long time, I kept coming back.  It's helped me hugely.

I am not diagnosed with anything, but I do have a bizarre eating disorder where I cannot eat when I am stressed out- anything I put in my mouth causes me to vomit, and even smelling or thinking of some foods can cause me to gag.  I am not anorexic.  I have never wanted to be skinnier, and in fact I want desperately to gain weight.  I get very panicked when I don't manage to eat enough.

To make matters worse, I also have trouble eating because I have Executive Dysfunction.  I literally cannot remember to eat lunch a lot of the time.  I have gone whole days on less than 500 calories because somewhere between my room and the kitchen, I forgot what I was doing and got distracted.  This is hard to explain to people who haven't experienced it.  I have various coping mechanisms in place now that help me, and I rarely get less than 1600 cals a day now, but it still isn't easy.  Thanks to this problem I haven't managed to gain any weight at all since I joined, although I have maintained my 110 lbs, which is good.  I want to get to 120 and then stay that weight.  I'll be proud of myself if I even manage 115, though.

I'm also a vegetarian, partly by choice but mainly because meat makes me vomit (as you can tell, I have an over-active gag reflex).  The only meat I ate before becoming a veggie was bacon.  I never gave up fish though, since I'm an extremely picky eater and have ridiculously sensitive taste buds, I eat very few things and my diet would be too unhealthy if I gave up fish.

(Seriously, though, I can taste the difference between milk kept in glass and milk kept in plastic.  I can taste it when a brand changes their recipe and I don't like it most of the time.)

So, yeah, it's a struggle.  CC has really helped me do better though, I feel a lot healthier and stronger now and less panicked since I am no longer losing weight.  The worst time for me was last year, when I was losing weight even while I actively tried to gain weight- and several times then, doctors congratulated me on having lost weight, completely failing to notice that I was unhealthy!  It made me feel sick.