Posts by kat0386

Thanks so so much for all of your supportive replies. Gaining weight has been a very confusing experience, on one hand I've been so happy about it, but there's always the dark side of it, where I remember being thin and loving it, but also remember the pain I went through, it's a messy situation to be in!

I need to remember that I am still not over weight, and am healthy again, which is the most important thing! :)

I've been on a very low dose of anti depressants (citalopram) since just before christmas because of my eating disorder, and they have helped me so much.

Before I was a wreck, I was constantly on edge, my fists were always clenched and couldn't stop beating myself up about food. My head was a bit of a mess. After taking anti depressants I feel way more in control of my own thoughts and feelings, and am back to the calm fun person I used to be. They have simply restored what was. Don't be scared to give them a try if you really are struggling. If your doctor is good like mine, I get checked up on every 4 weeks.

Original Post by gi-jane:

It's not illegal to eat meat and it's really unfair and unsupportive to try to guilt-trip the OP back into her ED.  Your choice is your choice...  but if the OP is struggling to get back to health, what's more important?  Her life or a chicken's?

 Thank you for your support. I had the exact feelings that you have mentioned. I am starting to think of my OWN health and nutritional needs whilst trying to overcome my disordered eating, and not that of the chickens'. It's hard for me because I do have a strong opinion on animal rights, however I feel as though right now my body needs the protein gained from eating meat again. I am very grateful to the chicken though for supplying me with these nutritional benefits!

I had the chicken and it was yummy with no bowel misbehavior! I may buy some more tomorrow! :)

If your going to the doctors because of your weight, I'm pretty sure he/she will ask you to take your shoes off. If it is just general they may not, unless you're wearing Doc Martins or something!

During a pub quiz recently there was a question asking how many ribs human beings have. All my friends looked straight at me and said 'Kat can check, she's the one who will be able to feel all of her ribs'. I didn't think ANY of my friends thought I was skinny enough for that, made me very very embaressed and upset, but I'm sure my friends wouldn't have purposefully made me want to feel like that. Lots of people have no idea how that type of comment can effect you, you just have to let them know nicely.

I had a struggle thinking of things for lunch at work. I've settled on a basic salad of romaine lettuce, cucumber, red pepper, tomatoes, carrot and then add different things each day like sweetcorn, sala, tinned mixed beans or chick peas or tinned tuna. You could add boiled eggs or some kind of sandwich meat. I also take a container of cut up fruit like melon or apple, it seems more appealing when it's all cut and ready to eat :). I cover it in lime juice to stop it going bad, and also because I love limes! hehe. I some times take tinned fruit.

Other good ones are rye bread or cracker bread and take laughing cow low fat mini cheese triangles to spread on them. Cereal bars are also good! And wraps instead of a sandwich. In the UK you can also buy mini individual lots of hummus which are good with cut carrot and cucumber!

Hope I've helped! x

this thread makes me sad :(

I don't think it's cool :s

Just sounds like you're pushing yourself a bit too hard

wow were pretty identical when it comes to eating choices and likes and dislikes, I'd also love to know of any savoury snacks instead of yogurt, toast and tea with 2 sugars! They're my weakness!

I sometimes eat Ryvita with marmite and cucumber? That's scrummy!

I just noticed that I could feel it one day when I put my hands on my stomache, I don't do it for entertainment!

I'm happiest now at 5'3 and 105lbs, could be happier though...

Sorry to butt in, but that resedential sounds awful. I've just studied psychology the last 3 years and those type of resedentials should have all been shut down! Old Freudian theories like that are known to be a load of bull. From experience of having eating disorders on and off my whole life and knowing I have NEVER experienced any big trauma, I know that can't be the case. I really really feel for you, and stay strong. Focus on your health in the future, you deserve to be healthy and happy x

I've heard that chewing gum is actually bad if you are dieting. It tricks your stomache to think there is food in your mouth, and gets dissapointed when nothing goes in it, so you end up feeling more hungry because of it. One theory of many!

Original Post by jonathan_ptrp:

that would be good.. if you enjoy that.. but you should be always conscious about your health.. if you want fun exercise you can do sports.. ;) swimming would be best for you..

Way to ruin the moment!

I'm really happy you're comfortable and happy about the person you realy are. The satisfaction and sense of relief is worth cherishing! Hope you're still feeling the way you felt when you wrote this thread. You neeeeeed to be happy! :D