Posts by thyme828

i understand what you're going through..

I am 5'2 and 112 now and I have a very tiny bone structure and feel terrible at this weight. I don't know when I will stop gaining...what is the right amount of calories vs exercise? what is my body's set point? everyone is different as you noted in the original post. as much as this makes me absolutly miserable to say-we both have no idea what our bodies will decide to do from here :/ but i believe you've been maintaining at 112 for a while right? maybe try and build a bit of muscle mass to burn extra cals.  i am thinking about getting my rmr checked so i have a better guess what to do-but thats down the road as I am a bit broke...

if you can figure out how to make this terrible gaining stop please let me know too :)

some advice on the bloodwork-request a copy of it and either do research on your own or show the results to that doctor you trusted 30 mins away. i went to a terrible doctor and was suffering from refeeding syndrome after an ED. he told me to deal with it, keep eating and dont stop gaining. i went to someone who knew what they were talking about and they helped me get healthy again. the original doc said i was fine-bloodwork came back clean. however i requested a copy and i was anemic with all sorts of different issues another doctor helped me deal with.

you paid for the bloodwork, the results are yours and its routine to get a copy faxed to you, or you can swing by and pick it up. i can understand how difficult it must be for you...those situations are tough.

i agree to add weight training if you dont already do it. it has worked wonders for me in terms of toning and keeping me feeling fit and healthy. good luck!

hi spek,

i dont think thats too much soy. i have a lot of soy in my diet (soy strips, packaged soy, soy milk) and it doesnt make me break out-but everyone is different.

when i started recovery my skin broke out a lot too-the more food i was taking in the more my body had to work to expel toxins consumed. even fruits and veggies give off a certain amount of toxins. when your body starts functioning better, which it will as long as you continually give it the nutrients it needs, less toxins will be excreted from your skin.

in short, tofu is good and 200 g is fine. keep eating and your skin will clear up when your body is healthier. :) gaining weight is good! :)

dear body,

hair: i hated you as a child and always wanted to change you. yet, you taught me that youre sexy and now im so happy you are the way you are. dont change-i do my best to care for you

eyes: things were scary for a while...didnt know if youd stay strong for me. but with a little help you did and i am very grateful

nose: youre simple, and stay in your place. i never want you to change

lips:youre perfect. and thanks for never chapping

fingers: cute thin, limber and sensitive-i apologize for taking away some of your beauty with nervous habits but I am working on that.

belly:im sorry i made you bit and then made you too small. thank you for putting up with the fluctuations and always letting my abs show

thighs-you drive me crazy but i know that youre a good size. just let mew tone you up some and well be doing great

arms: i love you. thank you for staying toned but not bulking up. and thank you for being so strong

butt: where did you go? with the lost weight you went away for a while...but i see you coming back. thank you for not forgetting me

skin: weve had plenty of issues but i think weve worked them out for the most part. finally youre clearing up and staying that way. the stretch marks i caused you years ago are finally fading. and youre such a quick healer-cuts and bruises are gone quickly.  so just help me out with the elasticity issue and well be good to go,

youre truly,

your partner in crime

i agree with peaches...

i was an underweight bulimic/anorexic...at 5'2 i was down to 80 lbs, or at least i think that was my lowest. i started eating how i should be, totally stopped purging, and gained 32 lbs in 6 weeks. i was pretty uncomfortable...but then suddenly my metabolism picked up and i dropped back down to around 100 lbs. now i go between 97-105, depending the day and im fine with it usually...i eat what i want but also eat for health. i chose foods and meals because i know my body will thank me for it. but then again i make a mean banana bread that isnt very healthy...heh...and i have a small piece with tea or coffee and am satisfied.

for suggestions-make sure you get enough of all the nutrients in, as well as ample protein. i alswo took up yoga and weight training. id do weights 3 times a week, job for maybe 10-15 mins a few times a week, and do yoga whenever i had time. i found it eased my concerns and helped my body adjust to more food. the weight work is to help speed your metabolism and keep your body healthy. the cardio was because i didnt want to be sedentary and i wanted to stay physically fit.

its a tough road. i found myself feeling huge the other day, but i did a 20 min tae bo workout last night (which i think are fun) and i feel amazing today. hang in there...you may gain a bit at first but eventually itll even out as your body learns to trust you again. try not to weight in for a bit if you can :)

im recovering from an ED as well...I struggle with it daily but I am doing a lot better. my hubby is generally very supportive-he knows everything about the situation-but sometimes he makes comments about my still being too skinny. to me, that says "i'm fat". now rationally, you and i know that "youre so skinny" doesnt mean the same thing as "youre too fat" but the little pesky ED voice tells me otherwise.

i sat down with him after he made one of the comments so the situation would be fresh in his mind and told him how much i struggle with everything, and that even a very innocent comment like "youre too skinny" could be construed as something negative. he, at the time, was trying to reassure me that even since i have gained a lot i am still thin. he thought he was helping...lol...silly man...but now he understands and curtails the commentary.

my father, on the other hand, whom i have been staying with for a few weeks, doesnt understand how i eat so much and stay small. he is only partially aware of the situation im in, and while hes supportive, cant understand how i constantly eat and dont weight 300 lbs. yes, hes actually said that. he tends to comment a lot when i eat late at night or snack throughout the day. i like having fruit at night-lets say i grab an apple-he tends to really get on my case about it. why...? its only an apple. but to him, night snacking means weight gain.

i did try to talk to my father but he doesnt understand how that could bother me. some men understand and some dont. its really us where the problem is, since our minds take things personally-the people who are saying the comments are not meant to be hurtful.

id suggest sitting down and talking with him and explaining how hard it is for you. ask him to help you stay at a healthy caloric intake so you can beat this once and for all :) good luck! (sorry for the essay lol)

a suggestion to help with your tongue-

when ive had too many salty things i switch to blander things or creamier foods. like maybe have mashed potatos with dinner. make yourself a nice smoothie or milk shake and have ice cream/frozen yogurt. protein shakes can be so yummy and filling (choc or vanilla prot powder, banana, milk or soy milk and peanut butter for instance) theyll give you the protein boost and things you need plus give your poor tongue a break!

id suggest staying away from things like chips and crackers till it gets better. that feeling is terrible, hope it gets better!

sorry about the binging but i also think your metab might have sped up quite a bit. many people in recovery need high amounts of calories. just try and aim, as much as possible, for healthier calories. and you know what? when your body realizes you wont starve it anymore it will naturally regulate your eating. eat when your hungry also-take snacks on the road with you to help waiting long amounts in between meal

i got night sweats after about a month of recovery and they lasted for about 6 weeks. not every night but most, and i wasnt drenched either, but def sweating...

i love green tea so i drink regularly. eat frequently. lemon water is also wonderful and refreshing.

i keep a bottle of water by my bed so i am constantly drinking even if i wake up so i stay hydrated.

i eat withing 20-30 min of waking up, always something high protein like greek yogurt, honey and granola.

i always eat within 20-30 mins of any workout-even just an intense walk. and again, i try for high protein to help with muscle recovery

over all...just takes time :)

ive been on Yaz a while now (2 years?) and certainly didnt gain weight from it. It did help keep my skin clear. I never felt lathargic either. Get on it asap-it will help regulate TTOM so that you can avoid it on your wedding/honeymoon!

my ob-gyn told me that I could take the active pills  and when youre supposed to go off just start another pack right away. this skips your period that month, and if its during your honeymoon that might be a plus. its only recommended to do for one month though-and as always ask your gyn before doing that.

everyone i know on yaz loves it :) yes, there can be side effects but i dont know anyone who has them. oh, one girl i know grew a cup size after starting :p thats the only side effect i heard of!

have an amazing wedding, congrats and a wonderful honeymoon :)

i maintain wonderfully at 1600-1700, sometimes more with more exercise. i am your height Carmen and about 98 lbs right now. i feel very healthy eating this many calories and get clean blood work results :)

and trust me...youre not the problem. everyone going through recovery knows EXACTLY what youre going through. its tough. and reading what you post and the responses sometimes helps me in my journey to health

20 lbs in 3 days=totally possible. 20 lbs of fat in 3 days=not likely

i have gained 15 lbs in one day. it is not fun. sounds like youve gained a LOT of water weight. for much of that to be fat youd have to seriously have overeaten

was a lot of food processed? it probably had a LOT of sodium. let your body level out a bit, slowly ease back to the diet and try and aim for low sodium foods.

im working on resetting my digestion now.

itll take a while and you have to eat things that wont make it worse-finding the right balance of fiber is important.  honestly i try and get a lot of calories from liquid sources-sometimes ill have a huge protein shake or a big smoothie. these things are easily digested, and wont upset your belly as much.

if you dont want to go to the doctor then just eat 'easy' for your belly :) its re-learning digestion. it does get better with time :)

you definitely get used to it. i was chubby as a kid and had extra padding. then i got this-too thin for a while. one thing to do is to tone/workout your butt-gives extra padding :)

::cheer:: thats the kind of thinking we need around here :) congrats girl

my favs are pina colada smoothies-protein powder (vanilla) canned or fresh pineapple, tropical fruit juice, canned coconut milk blend with ice YUM

also choc pb or vanilla pb-i use choc or vanilla protein powder, plenty of pb-i chose real natural pb over pb2 cause i need the good fats :) -a frozen banana, soy or regular milk, a dash of cinnamon and a dash of vanilla extract with ice and its so amazing