Posts by bitethesun

I will do illegal things for oreos. Eating an entire box is not that strange a thing for me to do on a regular basis. I've been maintaining my current weight for about five years, but I still make sure to leave enough calories free to eat an entire box every month or two. Mmm... CSI and Oreos...

My party of shame- at a huge group gathering, I amazed and horrified friends and strangers by downing a whole pepperoni pizza, six beers, three energy drinks, a pint of ben and jerry's, a whole bowl of homemade chex mix, and an entire bottle of tabasco sauce. Oh, and of course a thing of oreos. I blame the tabasco on the beer, though. I'm five one, and I even outdid the eight foot tall german exchange student who could eat me whole, no lie. 

But I'm never doing that again. One of my friends had a video camera, and put all the footage of me cramming my face on youtube. Not only was it a horrifying glimpse at my animal self, but it took me over a month and 1,400 viewings for him to take it down.  

Wow, I'm in the exact same place.

I'm 17, 5ft 1 and 117 pounds.

This is my second year of not restriciting or purging, and to be honest it is impossible to get better from an ED while trying to loose weight. I tried over and over again, but the moment you start weighing yourself it starts crushing you. No matter how much better you get, you are never really completely free of an ED. It's been two years, but I still have to remind myself everyday to eat my full calories.

I don't feel comfortable with dieting becuase it makes me want to restrict even more. I'm trying to loose a few pounds with exercise alone.

If you want to try, and trust me it's easy to spiral out of control, make a promise to yourself to eat 1,500 calories a day. I don't know it you are a binger or a restrictor, but it is hard to eat that much food while still feeling in control. Then exercise in ways that make you happy. Take more walks. Lift some weights. Since I also used to over exercise, give yourself a limit to how much exercise you get. Mine is no more than two hours of 'exercise' exercise. I, you know, can walk more and stuff but only two hours. No more.

But, to be honest dieting and getting better just aren't compatable. I wish someone had told that to me a long time ago. It's better to just take one thing at a time, and getting well is THE MOST important thing right now. I know it doesn't seem like it, but soon you'll look back at yourself and be in shock over what you put your body through.