Posts by ynnep

Hey everybody!

I'm back too.  I joined a gym last week and have paid for a personal trainer for 6 sessions.  I've been to the gym for the last 5 days straight.  I now have a journal with all my routines that target different areas.  I will also be walking on the treadmill at least 30 minutes a day.  I am sore all over but in a good way.  I have 3 sessions with the trainer left and he will add to my routine as I go along.  I was desperate to get going and do something.  My weight went up again and I wasn't moving at all.  I think this was the push I needed. 

Wish me luck  - and its good to see the sheep coming back to the flock.  I know I always do better when I count calories and touch base with you guys.

Penny

Hey everyone,

I applaud your courage to continue.  We all fall done but we get up, dust ourselves off and start again.  It's all we can do.  I too have been here for over a year and spent most of it pretending to buckle down.  See I've ratted myself out.   But most important and very very new to me.  I've forgiven myself.  I have always had negative feelings about who I am.  I'm trying working very hard to change that.  I am working to forgive myself, and to love myself.  and the funny thing is I find examples of 'how tos"  all over the place.  I'm reading two books right now eat, pray love and Happy for No Reason.  I have started journaling again (on paper) to help me complete the exercises and to focus my attention on the change I want.  We all know happiness comes from within but that also means the work is ours and ours alone.  I know that bad and sad things will always happen in the world, but if I find a sense of peace and calm within myself, I can deal with what comes along and not internalize it as if it is my fault or my job to fix it. 

One goofy but very affective thing that I have started doing, is I am wearing a rubber band around my wrist.  I call it my Bitter Band.  Every time I say or think a negative thought I move the band to the other wrist.  The first few days I was moving that puppy all the time.  It didn't take long to really see the difference in the reduction of negative talk in my head and out my mouth.  I think for me, I need to love who I am now and then the weight will come off.  I am not the enemy.  And neither are you. 

I am grateful to be a part of this community.  Take care of yourselves today.

Penny

Hi All,

Sorry I haven't dropped in for a while.  I'm nursing a crummy cold.  But that is the least of my worries.  My oldest daughter had her third miscarriage on Tuesday.  She is a very brave and positive person.  She has PCOS and is very lucky to have had my only grandchild six years ago.  She and her husband would so love to have one more.  Finally after this miscarriage, her insurance will pay for chromosomal testing and try to get to the bottom of her problem.  She doesn't have any problems getting pregnant but she can't carry a baby past 12 weeks.  She is also going to go to a specialist to see if having another is feasible.  I am just heart sick over the whole thing.  My younger daughter also has PCOS and she is afraid to even try to get pregnant. 

Both girls and their hubbies will be up to see us this weekend.  It was a visit that we had planned already.  I'm glad we will have this time together.  Something positive and fun for a change. 

Needless to say, I am not sticking to a strict eating regiment.  However I am trying to stay busy and not binge.  Emotional eating is my downfall.  Hopefully after this weekend we will be in better spirits. 

Take care

Penny

Hi All,

I had a rocky weekend foodwise but am back at it today.  One day at a time for me and today will be a great one!  Cat emergency is over and all is well.  It's a wonder what a bottle of Resolve can do.  Geez wouldn't it be great to have a bottle of resolve for weight loss? 

What I have done is planned my day to the minute with no down time to mope and eat.  I also have the day's food planned.  I seem to need structure.  Too much down time is a bad thing for me.  I tend to graze.  This time of year I eat more and do less.  Today I have errands after school and I will get that Christmas tree down tonight.    Does anyone else procrastinate like me?

Marie - too bad about the lamps.  You said they were for a client.  Are you an interior designer?

Stay healthy and strong today folks,

Penny

What a difference a day makes!  Yesterday was pretty good all around.  I ate healthy within the 1550 limit.  I didn't come home from school and mope.  I did some very needed housework and made a yummy dinner.  I haven't been sleeping well so I went to bed early.  This morning I've had a good breakfast and only watched TV to see the weather.  Now it's peaceful and quiet and I'm getting ready for work.  I find that an endless drone of bad news on the TV just gets me down.  I'm appalled at the amount of air time poor John Travolta's son's death is getting.  How is this national news? 

I'm planning on having a good day today not just hoping it will be better. It sounds like we are all in the same leaky boat.  Let's start bailing and plugging the holes!!

Penny

I've been following this thread with interest.  I have decided to join in the fun but I am only doing one goal a month.  I'm focusing on getting 5 servings of veggies and fruit a day for January.  Hopefully that will be a habit by February and then I will add a new one. 

good luck!

Penny

Hi to all my CC friends,

I'm back with my tail between my legs.  I've gained back all the weight that I had lost and now I am sore all over  - Knees, feet and elbows all ache.  My body is yelling at me to lose some weight. 

So I'd like to start over with you all again.  We're in this together right?  Positive thoughts for a great new year.

Penny

A.  One of those goofy half hats that someone with ADHD wears to golf.

Q.  What is a hopeful wish?

Hi All,

Just a note to let you all know I am alive and kicking.  I am also back at square one diet and exercise wise.  Starting over is better than doing nothing at all and just giving up.  I haven't read old posts so forgive me if I take a while to get up to speed on what everyone has been doing since last I looked in. 

take care

Penny

A.  very level landform, also known as a flateau

Q.  Who has the right answers?

Hi All,

I'm back from Alabama.  I'm glad we went.  My parents celebrated their anniversary and were very happy to have their kids there.  We had a talk about what the future holds.  They are not ready to move but are both afraid of what's to come.  They agreed to ask about counseling and possible couples therapy where one party has cancer and the other is the primary caregiver.  We all live too far away to be any real day to day help.  I plan to call often and encourage them to seek help. 

A slight lull before more company comes in this weekend and school starts for me on Monday.  Then more company for my daughter's recital on Labor Day weekend.  Whew!

Donna - I'm glad to hear you are on the mend.  It sounds like you really got worn down.  Take care of yourself.  We all seem to over extend don't we.  Your scooter sounds like a lot of fun. 

Marie - How are you doing?  Keep positive.  You have made great progress and this is just a bump in the road.

Hope everyone is doing well - We'd love to hear an update.

Penny

Hi Everyone,

I have been AWOL and apologize.  We are back and forth between town and the lake.  I also had to "work" yesterday and went to a meeting on autism all day.  I also went into the office to do some things.  School starts back the week of August 25 and I have everyday that week filled with meetings already.  Hey good news!  I'm down to 199  !!!!  Finally broke the barrier.  It's been slow going but I think the daily walks are paying off.  The next week or so will be a challenge.  We have more company coming in today and they will be here right up until hubby and I leave for Alabama to see my mom and dad again.  Things aren't going well there so it may not be the most pleasant of visits.  My siblings and I are going to try and have the "Is this the safest setting for you " talk. 

On a lighter note - check out my daughter's website - www.rachaelcrim.comShe is going to perform a benefit here in town for VSA Arts, a cause near and dear to my heart.  We are very proud of her.

Marie - We are all in this together and it is a life long commitment to good health.  hang in there and you will find the strength to turn it around!  You have been such a positive influence and are so upbeat.  This shall pass too!

Donna - I'm so glad to hear about Marvin's progress.  BTW did I tell you already that my hubby put a small Subaru engine on his bike and now he rides it to work on good weather days?  It gets 200 miles to the gallon.  It doesn't have to have a light or a license plate because it is still considered a bike.

Have a great weekend !

Penny

sonini'

Thanks!!  When you post the new list , remind people to only post in their original post so the new list stays in last position.  Thanks again for doing this.

Penny

Hi all,

I met half my goal yesterday.  The important half though - I walked for an hour.  I had alot of errands to run yesterday and just didn't feel like cleaning.  So that is my goal today to eat healthy (it's Friday) and to start on the hot tub room.  I would have added my walk but I've already done it for today.  Met a friend at 7 this morning and we walked for an hour and a half.  We walked on the waterfront and looked at the big sailboats.  I think there was a regatta this week and they all end up and party here for the weekend.   They have fun races  on the bay.  Their racing sails are beautiful. 

One of my weight challenges is on Friday's and I'm still at 200.  My next weigh in is on Monday.  I hope to break the 200 barrier soon, maybe by then.

have a great weekend!

Penny

Hi All

Congrats Dess!!  I have to focus all my grandma love on my only grandson.  Lucky , Lucky you!  Now , both of your sons are in the US right?  How often do you get to see them and their families?  You must be on cloud nine.

Donna I hope Marvin is well soon.  I hope the spinal shots work.  My mom and hubby both have had back surgery.  It's no picnic. 

I have a question for all of you.  How much activity do you log in each day?  I set my original settings at sedentary and have only been logging exercise like walks and bowling.  but you can log just about everything - housework, gardening, even sex.  (don't ask why I checked on that one!)  Anyway I've  only used formal exercise to help determine my deficit.  What do you all use?

There is a thread on motivation that each morning you set a goal, log it in and then log in the next day to report if you accomplished your goal and then set a new goal for that day.  I think I would do better with daily mini goals that hold me accountable each and every day.  I was thinking of starting this in my journal but maybe we might try it in this thread for a week and see how it goes. Let me know what you think.

Today I will walk for at least 1 hour and I will do yard work.

Penny