Posts by cbussiere

START     April 16-18:  145 lbs
Week 1.   April 23-25:  145 lbs
Week 2.   Ap30/May2:  141 lbs
Week 3.   May  7 - 9  :  142 lbs
Week 4.   May 14-16 :  140 lbs
Week 5.   May 21-23 :  142 lbs
Week 6.   May 28-30 :  145 lbs
Week 7.   June 4 - 6  :  145 lbs
Week 8.  June 11-13 :  141 lbs
Week 9.  June 18-20 :  139 lbs

Wow.. I'm in the thirties!  I'm so not surprised... since I've been working like crazy again this week.  Sorry if I haven't been much of a Schmoozer lately!  I worked a lot this week (82 hours to be exact) and had some personal problems with my family and boyfriend about the amount of time I spend at work.  Everybody seems concerned but I feel just fine.  Can't get much sleep though, but that'll be over in about a week or so.

Mini-Challenge no 9 : Snacks

I'm trying to remember what were my snacks when I was fully committed to this process.  A lot of the snacks I used to eat have been mentioned already (hummus, peanut butter, low cal granola bars, apple) so it's hard to come up with something else.  I loved to snack on cereals (without milk) because they feel like chips to me.  I also love Fiber One peanut butter bars because they stop my craving for something sweet.  I also like to eat tomatoes with pepper. 

I don't have quite the time to complete today's challenge just yet because.. guess what?... I have to go to work, but I'll try to complete it as soon as I have some time, which won't be before thursday. 

START     April 16-18:  145 lbs
Week 1.   April 23-25:  145 lbs
Week 2.   Ap30/May2:  141 lbs
Week 3.   May  7 - 9  :  142 lbs
Week 4.   May 14-16 :  140 lbs
Week 5.   May 21-23 :  142 lbs
Week 6.   May 28-30 :  145 lbs
Week 7.   June 4 - 6  : 145 lbs

Again.  It's TOM though, so I wasn't really expecting anything else.  I've been ok this week, not as bad as last week.  I'll post some more tonight or tomorrow, I'm off to work.  Have a great day y'all! =)

START     April 16-18:  145 lbs
Week 1.   April 23-25:  145 lbs
Week 2.   Ap30/May2:  141 lbs
Week 3.   May  7 - 9  :  142 lbs
Week 4.   May 14-16 :  140 lbs
Week 5.   May 21-23 :  142 lbs
Week 6.   May 28-30 :  145 lbs

Uh... where do I begin?  I'm definitely not surprised.  Disgusted with myself?  Yeah, a lot.  I just feel like I'm living at this weight on borrowed time.  Time bomb is ticking.  I've lost all kinds of motivation lately.  I don't count, I don't log, I don't exercise and I eat lots and lots of take out food.  I also started doing the activity that led me to this point : watching TV series.  I'm a huge TV series addict.  I don't have cable so I tend to buy DVDs and watch them while I eat at dinner.  And lately the combo has been Subway + tv series three to four times a week.  No wonder I've been gaining weight and retaining water. 

And the worst of it all?  I don't care enough to turn it all around.  I don't want to stop eating Subway and I don't want to stop watching TV while eating dinner.  I just don't.  It's like I'm in this phase where I just don't want to restrict myself because I want to have fun and do what I like.  Even if ultimately that leads to something I DON'T like. 

The only thing I can see right now to take control of my life is probably trying to exercise more.  Because I feel like making a compromise with my diet is impossible right now.  So I'll try to at least maintain my weight that way and wait until the motivation for better eating habits come. 

Sorry for the rant.  :|

Hi everyone.  Long time no see, I know.  It's been a rough week.  I've been bad with eating, exercising and motivation overall.  I come home from work exhausted and go to sleep at 7pm or so and wake up several times during the night only to get up at 7am to go to work. 

I feel extremely lazy these days.  That feeling has been enhanced by my tootache, as one of my wisdom teeth decided it wasn't big enough and started to grow in the span of a day and a half.  I've been taking aspirin every three or four hours to numb the pain but even that isn't enough.  Now the tooth has stopped growing but the skin around it is all swollen and often bleeds.  This makes it hard for me to eat healthy foods such as vegetables, because they're harder to chew than say... yogourt? eggs? ice cream?. 

Also, I've been craving Subway like crazy the past two weeks and I don't eat the good subs with no cheese, no dressing and no bread.  So that's been hard as well.  Still haven't been exercising consistently for about a month so even I'm still maintaining or losing a little even, I feel fat physically, which is never a good thing.

START     April 16-18:  145 lbs
Week 1.   April 23-25:  145 lbs
Week 2.   Ap30/May2:  141 lbs
Week 3.   May  7 - 9  :  142 lbs
Week 4.   May 14-16 :  140 lbs
Week 5.   May 21-23 :  142 lbs

Yeah so up 2 lbs... that's no surprise.  I ordered some nutrition books online and I hope they will help me get my motivation back when I read them.  I really need to continue counting my calories too.  I tend to overestimate what's maintenance for me when I'm not.  And exercising, that's a big one.  I still walk around 30 minutes a day, but that's obviously not enough to make me help lose weight or to remove the ''I feel fat'' syndrome.

As for this week's challenge, I'll post later today.  I'm at my mom's house and she has plenty of summer sports stuff in the garage so that leaves me with more options overall. 

I really hope I can get out of this downward spiral rut and be selfless and good motivation for this group again. 

START     April 16-18:  145 lbs
Week 1.   April 23-25:  145 lbs
Week 2.   Ap30/May2:  141 lbs
Week 3.   May  7 - 9  :  142 lbs
Week 4.   May 14-16 :  140 lbs

I'M SO HAPPY!  140 lbs was my last mini-goal before reaching my goal weight, so I can set my final goal now!  And this amazes me because I've been bad all week.  I mean no exercise except walking, almost always eating maintenance. 

Sorry for answering the challenge so late.  This week has been crazy.  I had my finals for which I've been really stressed out.  And I also had 25 job interviews to conduct at work and the new computer system is being launched on tuesday which scares the hell out of everyone.  Crazy, crazy, crazy!

Mini-Challenge #4 :

Wow, you guys have named good changes!  I especially liked when ~pocahontas mentioned the way she walks.  That's a big one for me too.  I walk with my head up and when people look at me, I know it's for the good reasons. 

I feel prettier at work.  I'm surrounded by girls at work that are a size 0 or 2.  Two of them can't even fit into normal jeans and they have to buy them in special shops.  Nobody has an ED though.  Anyways, because I'm the tallest and I was the heaviest, I often didn't feel pretty and feminine because of it.  But now, since I'm at a healthier weight, I feel just as sexy and feminine as I should have back then.  And because I feel better, I buy new clothes way more often and they always comment on how great I look or on how this new piece of clothing is really pretty.  So it's wonderful.  Because I do notice the change, but it's always nice to have people telling you.

But the best part of it is definitely shopping.  I love clothes, I love shoes, I love accessories.  When I was younger I used to draw clothing lines because I loved clothing so much.  And now I can actually buy pretty much everything I want.  I fit into smaller sizes which feels fabulous and makes me want to buy everything I try on, because I feel like everything fits me. 

When I was at my highest weight and I would go shopping and I would automatically buy the clothes that fit me.  Not anymore.  Now, when I try clothes on I ask myself: ''Is this really worth the price?''.  Because since it always fits, I've got to do something to make sure I don't buy EVERYTHING. 

I've also been rekindling with my sense of style.  I bought lots of jewelry and shoes to make sure I'm not bland anymore.  My body feels fantastic so my style should be too. 

Anyways, before you all think I'm some superficial witch, let me say that I'm only 20 years old, that I have no obligations whatsoever except my apartment, electricity and food bills and that I do not have to support anyone except myself with the money I make.  I'm not in debt either.  It's just... my money was accumulating because I didn't spent it on anything except restaurants and TV shows.  Now that I look good, I had a lot of catching up to do to update my wardrobe. 

Last thing, last good change.  I know it's bad to think this because I know my personality was worthy enough, but it's good to know that I'm physically worthy of my boyfriend now.  I didn't like it when he was 170-175 lbs and I was 167 lbs.  Now it's more balanced and I feel much more comfortable (and actually proud of myself) when he sees me naked.    

May 12th : 3089 / 10 500.

Eeek. I got to get movin'.

As for this week's challenge...

This was inspired by reading ~bubbles556's journal a while back! 

I hope this doesn't sound braggy!  All things considered, I think I'm a creative person.  I have studied art history a lot and french literature in college and absolutely LOVED it.  I also write a lot on my own (short stories and such) and I find that it's very important to be creative and to have an outlet for that creativity. 

I hope this doesn't sound too New Agey.  Before Christmas I had been working on writing a short novel.  The inspiration came from something that I discovered a while ago which is lucid dreaming.  You know how sometimes you dream and you realize you're dreaming while you're still in the dream?  That's called lucid dreaming.  Most of us wake up right after we acknowledge the fact that we're dreaming but some of us can persevere and stay in the dream.  If you do, the possibilites are endless because after all, you're in your dream, you can choose what to do next!  You can control what happens, who you see and what activity you want to do.  That's the goal I wanted to reach. 

To reach this goal, you need to keep a dream journal.  Because the first step is actually remembering your dreams.  Because if you can't remember them, even if you're aware you won't remember it when you wake up.  So I did.  I kept a dream journal.  And it was the greatest thing ever because I kept seeing these magnificent images and symbols that were great inspiration for my story. 

When I got into this weight loss journey, I stopped my dream journal and therefore my creativity suffered.  I know I can't focus on dreaming for the upcoming week (my finals are next week) but as soon as friday is there, I'll try it again. 

I even bought a notepad to put by my bedside to take notes when I wake up in the morning. 

So that is something special, close to my heart and soul for this week!

Hi guys.. I haven't been doing really well lately.  I have been super bad with my diet, it's been ages since I've exercised... and I don't want to get out of that rut.  I don't want to go back to exercising and I feel like I could eat a pig, soaked in butter, fried or in ice cream.

It's just been one of these weeks.  I'm struggling not to go over maintenance, been craving lots of foods and not having any deficits.  I eat ''clean'' stuff though, just lots of oils, fats (peanut and almond butter) and sugary nuts. 

It's like every day I tell myself I'm going to do better and each day I find myself being super hungry in the evening and eating around 600-700 calories from 5:30 to 8:00. 

My weight has gone up also.  At the beginning of the week I was 3 lbs up.  Now I've lost one pound but the other 2 lbs just don't seem to want to get off.  But most importantly, it's not about the number on the scale, it's about how I feel.  I feel fat and ugly and it's really getting to me. 

I've been drinking plenty of water today to make sure I'm doing everything to lose the gained pounds, but all the water I drink can't erase the lack of exercise and overeating I do.  I hope this lack of motivation will go away soon enough so I can go back to make the most of this process.

On the bright side everything at school and work is going great.   Well at least there's that!

I've been really bad today.

It's official, I have a peanut butter addiction.  Still managed to do a deficit, but is was hard.  I just wanted to eat peanut butter ALL THE TIME.  Let's hope tomorrow goes differently.

Ouhh I'm excited with this week's challenge.  I want to pick something special so I'll wait 'til I find something that really means a lot to me.

~kacka  It's so sad about your daughter and the kitten.  Sometimes people make decisions without thinking them through.  I hate it when it happens.  What's the point of buying a cat just to please someone if you can't take proper care of it?  Anyways, I hope you're going to find some success with your new diet changes!

~anastase  Wow, I really hope you can go and see your husband in June!  I'm crossing my fingers so that it works out for you! 

~mackenziewilms  3500 cals deficit for a week is 1 lb, which is good!  It really depends on your expectations and how much you have to lose, but 1 lb a week is a pretty steady, healthy and realistic loss.  So if you're doing that, I'd say keep at it, it's good as it is.

~jigglethehandle  That's great! You've become an inspiration to others.  That's extra motivation to keep you going because obviously what you're doing is working.  I'm so proud of you, keep it up!  Hitting the 260s is also pretty big, congrats on doing that! =)

Yeah.. my coworkers probably talked amongst each other about my weight loss before telling me to my face.  They probably wanted to make sure I was really losing weight before telling me so that I wouldn't scream at their face for commenting on my weight.  People usually think women may react badly if you say something about their weight - even if it's about a weight loss. 

Haha you're having the last laugh along with your friend Veronica.  All these people that didn't listen to her advice back then are probably green with envy with you now.  Because you're succeeding, changing for the better and getting healthier overall.  Congrats to you, you knew when to listen to good advice when it hit you! 

~pocahontas  It doesn't matter that you're not doing all the moves, the fact that you're trying says it all.  Keep trying and I'm sure you'll be able to do them all in no time!  You've reached the 230s, wow you're doing great! =)

~windra06  I know you've been having some pain in your abdomen and feeling bloated but try to see the bright side... you haven't gained this week, you still lost!  I'm sure the bloating will go away and you'll drop a lb or two afterwards.  Stay positive and strong!

~bubbles556  I so know what you mean about the pounds you've lost.  It feels like something we shed them so quickly we're not sure if it'll stay that way.  But in your case it did and I'm pretty sure you'll weigh in at 190.5 again soon enough!  Keep drinking water like you said!

~trcyh  I'm the same way.  My weight fluctuates during the week.  My lower weight is usually wednesday morning too and then I go up thursday through sunday, then back down on monday.  Try not to worry too much about it, because you know your body will go back down to where it was.  Congrats on reaching the 260s you too, huge accomplishement! =)

~agdotto63  The fact that you're handling stress better this time (not running off to eat fast food whenever you've got the chance) means that your healthier eating habits are really within you now.  You know that these quick foods are only a quick fix and that eating better will give you more energy to fight stress in the long run.  And you lost weight too, that's amazing, you're doing great!

I'm kinda bored.   I'm a bit bummed because I thought today was going to be super sunny and I could do some homework outside while enjoying the sun and maybe tan these Snow Whitesque legs.  But it's cloudy, cold and windy outside and I'd rather stay home and watch a movie.  I even baked some muffins because I wanted to avoid doing my homework.  Which is bad because boredom + muffins = who knows what?    

Congratulations ~dovelette and ~augette!  Fantastic weight loss for you guys this week!  Keep it up! =)

Oops, forgot to post my weight.

START     April 16-18:  145 lbs
Week 1.   April 23-25:  145 lbs
Week 2.   Ap30/May2:  141 lbs

Finally droppin' some P' in this challenge. =)

17 515 / 17 500.

Bareeeely made it... but I'm glad I did!

SW : 149 lbs

CW : 141 lbs

Yay, I dropped 8 lbs this month.  That's much better than last month (only 3 lbs).  8 lbs seems huge at that point! 

Congrats on everyone who made their goal, who lost weight or are still checking in with us! =)

Looks like I might make it after all... O_O

17 115 / 17 500.