Posts by clairebaj

Hey all,

I was glad to see this post as I've always wondered what other women my height weigh! I currently weigh 147 lbs. I've spent most of my 20s changing between 150 and 157 I'd say, and I'd love, love, LOVE to be 140lbs, as I've never been that low before and I think I'd look fantastic (although people see me at my current weight and think I look great, it's a compliment for sure but it's really how you feel inside, isn't it?). I can't pitcure myself at 135 like a lot of you are saying is your goal.... but maybe I should work towards it? My sisters are all a bit shorter than me, and they're all super thin, it's almost like I don't believe 135 is a possibility because then I'd be a similar size to them, and I've never been think like they are, like an unattainable goal.... anyhow, see how it goes!

Any of you ever wish that you could walk behind yourself walking down the street, just to see how big/jiggly/fat/thin you actually are? I do! Hahaha

Hope you're all having a good day :)

I just spent the weekend baking for a charity bake sale, but ended up eating everything i made. then i did more baking yesterday and it sickens me to think about how much raw dough i ate, just chomping away at the giant ball of dough. i've been so good for weeks, i'm so upset at myself. i'm too afraid to step on the scale to see what damage i've done - and it's even worse because my weight had been going down :( i'm devastated and so mad at myself. it's like i knew i should stop, but couldn't, and so i just kept on going.  i said to myself that i wouldn't eat today until i was really REALLY hungry, but i've already managed to eat a banana, apple and cookie and drink a coffee. i don't think it's due to emotions, but it's like i'm trying to sabotage any progress i've made so far.

i do put a lot of pressure on myself to be more active, and i haven't managed to physically do anything about it yet (i'm on antibiotics and have been so run down because i've been ill), but i'm pissed at myself for literally coming home from work and going to bed. i'm basically going to turn into a blob of cookie dough soon, and i'm supposed to be getting fit for a holiday in a month. why do i do this to myself?? sorry, i had to vent.