Posts by silver26

Hey everyone it's my fourth day eating this way, and it's going great. I make very healthy sandwiches when i go to subway. Wheat or oat bread, no dressings only oil and vinegar. I usually get turkey, chicken or the veggie patty sandwiches. And I pile on the vegis. Hopefully I will be ready for vacation, im going on the 18th. Thanks for all the replys.

thanks for the advice everyone. I do plan out my meals, but this gets me thinking about them too much. And then i get paranoid and anxious that I won't be able to stick to my plan. A couple of weeks ago I was doing really well eating 3 healthy meals a day and having fruit as snacks. I would include a treat every couple of days also. But this past week all I wanted to do was eat something bad every day and keep eating and eating. Im going to go back to eating 3 healthy meals a day and have fruit as snacks, but I am going to buy something that is not that healthy and have a portion of it at the end of the day. Maybe this way my body will get used to this and know that after this snack at the end of the day that it is time to stop eating. I am starting to accept my legs and butt which are muscular and will never be slim. I am starting to see that there is only a certain amount i can lose and tone for my body type and that i need to start being happy with what i have.  

Thank you everyone for the kind words and sympathy and advice. Yeah I am at a healthy weight, although I could use some toning up. But like some of you said, use my mom's critiscism about my weight as motivation to lose weight. Good Idea. Right now i don't have anyone to really talk to about my problems except you guys. One thing about this whole thing that really bothers me is that from being put down by my parents the last couple of years, my self-esteem has really decreased. I feel like I am not liked by people or I feel that people are always judging me, even though they probably aren't. It's hard for me to make friends and I don't have a boyfriend either. My mom kind of discourages friends. She hates when I do stuff with the few friends that I have and then I have an even harder time spending time with them. Hopefully I will be moving out soon, Im 19, going to a community college where i live. One thing that will really suck for me is not being able to spend time with my siblings once I move out. I have 4 younger sibling who i get along with great and i would definitely miss them! But hey I guess it's time for me to grow up and move on from the damaging evironment that my mom causes. Thanks again for all the advice.

thanks for the feedback. Yeah i am kinda happy with myself, but my legs and butt are a little too out of proportion with my upper body. I just want to feel confident  and comfortable in my own body. Does anybody think power walking will reduce the lower body?

Even though i haven't really binged for 10 days, i still have the same thoughts running through my head when i am eating trigger foods, like the chocolate chip cookies yesterday. First i think that a little cookie dough won't hurt but i have more than a little. Then i start thinking that maybe i shouldnt have any baked chocolate chip cookies because i already had the cookie dough. I end up eating the cookies and my control goes out the window. It all happens so fast (about 1/2 an hour) that it seems like i don't really have time to make a stop to my unhealthy habit in that short amount of time.And i am always left with the worrying about whether i will gain weight from eating the cookies. I really need to get rid of this negative thinking if i want to stop binging because this is the thinking that leads me to binging.

hey guys

today im at day 9. Im feeling pretty good about my body, although i do need to work out a little more. I am going to need some tips for all that chocolate tomorrow. I want to not make this easter a binge so badly. I am going to try to have to control myself, because it seems that every holiday i have a binge because of all the food. Yyonah how did you go 90 days? I need some tips from you! Also how is your weight? Did it change at all after not binging so long? 90 days is so awesome!!!!!!!!! Well today i am going to try and stay positive and eat when im hungry and stop when im full.

Hey guys, thanks for your answers, especially to sharonclaire, You made me feel less foolish asking all these questions. I know im new, but I really want to get over this disorder and you guys can be the help that i have long needed. I understand that therapy is the way to go but not everybody, including me, has the money for it. Is it a bad thing if i post so much? I actually find the forum topics about peoples day to day struggles and successes axtremely helpful and it lets me know that i am not the only one in the world who binges. Thanks again