Posts by ghanja

hey dorks are funny ;). I am about to get my lazy ass up from the computer and go dance to some music and burn off some calories ;)...so good day malady

Your in the same boat as me aswell Im 168 and I need to get down to 145. Although its not that I have no motivation its just one or two bad days really mess you up where as being super heavy you could slack and still lose. I HAVE to exercise and eat right almost 2 weeks in a row to maintain even a 5 pound weightloss, If I mess up for more than 1 or 2 days at most all the weight is back. The margin of error has dramatically decreased...With that said. Im determined to be 145 by my Birthday in March God willing

congrats you have done very well, your very pretty ;)

Great Group, Ive been doing this throughout my weightloss, and well I will try to be as pc as possible...nvm If I try to be pc then Ill just have to suger code everything and nothing will make sense. So I will just say that as my sexy has come back, lol Ive been using it to my advantage to make the same men that ignored my behind beg me for time now and I get what I want out of it so its all good. It really is like Ive died and was reborn with all the knowledge of the fat girl I once was, but now in a hot girls body...if that makes sense.

Oh I didnt lose my father lol, if you were talking to me. Yeah the military thing is a trip were at Ft Stewart and I feel like a hippie trapped in a world of uptight a**'s. Although, as a military brat Im used to it so its like home, but I also rebeled at home so Im an even bigger rebel than I was before, the weight loss just made the final thing I was self conscious about go away. Now when I do bad things no one can say shiz ;). Yeah I should of reached 145 this year but I completely slacked off these past few months. I stayed at the same wait for the most part. Ive lost say 10 pounds in the last 3-4 months so Im 168 now. tsk tsk. Although I think it was better in a sense cause I dont have that whole saggy skin issue that I was terrified about at the beginning of my weight loss journey. So I dont type anything too "out there" Ill stop now, Im always accused of being naughty when Im just being honest and that is getting old so peace and merry xmas too

My Family, my Afro, My Tats & my Corsets. & most of all God & then Mary Jane ;)

Well I've had the exact opposite problem. I never judged myself on physical beauty so I let myself go. When I was thinner and younger...I dressed so shabby. When I was over weight I only changed because of health. I always knew that judging oneself solely on physical beauty is a losing cause. Because no matter what your stock is always going down. Trying to slow the clock and getting plastic surgery may do just that...slow the clock but its always ticking. Im average weight now but I have a tummy. Sure I wish it was flat but Im not about to get cut up to achieve that. While on the other hand if you grow through education or life experiences then that stock only rises. You may be a 40 yr old woman but a doctor say, or a 20 yr old model. Who would you rather have when push comes to shove. Its hard to change your opinions until it hits you in the face.

  Also, your surroundings play to your worth. I have a friend whose a guy and is overweight. Hes a former marine and is now a paramedic. Hes the sweetest person in the world. His value is far more important than some celebrity or some shallow person. There is sooo much more to life than physical beauty. One day youll figure that out :) Just by posting this it shows that your starting to see it. What a wonderful boyfriend you must have.

Yes attractive people are treated better. When I was 260 while only for a few months I was invisible. I would be right behind someone and they wouldnt even push a door open. People would look down at the floor when I entered. Or even would excuse my weight for other people by saying she just had a baby or something. Now that I am 169 people are tripping over themselves to kiss my a**. For example Ive had a few guys want me to be their Domme. The other day at the gym I was holding a door open for a group of soldiers ( I go to the gym on base) and then one of em held on to my hand and wouldnt let go. I had to tell him I was married and I was just being nice.

About the woman being stand off ish. Ive noticed Ive become that way too. It honest to God is because if I smile at a male then they think I am hitting on them. If I smiled while heavier it was seen as what it was, just being friendly. I dont want to give off the wrong attention so I give off none. It happened yesterday at the mall. I was walking past the food court and the guys that worked at the pizza shoppe beckoned me with free pizza, the mall was about to close so I thought they were giving it away to everyone. So when I walked over they said it was free for me, but when another women came into the line they told her it was regular price. I was heavier so I know what its like to be treated like that. I called them on it and rather than admit they were being rude they offered to charge me a dollar for the pizza, then when I glared at them they just said they wanted me to come over and talk...the pizza wasnt really free. So I wasted about 5 min of my life while I should of just ignored them and walked out the mall. I understand both sides now...

CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS!!!! young man :) very good job. Now you make me look forward to my march 1 year anniversary :) Your pics are crazy lol. You look like your 15 or so not 20, weight loss will do that though. Anyhow, stay safe and again congrats, hope you stay around and give some advice to the newbies :)

(I think I may have the cardio disease lol, I weight train in for what I think is enough but its definately not enough...Im worried that Ill look too muscular which does easily happen for my body type....squats are great though)

Im in too :)

not sure if I can lose 20 but Ill bust my butt for the highest number possible. I just bought my Halloween costume so that's even more motivation (edit) just bought my second Halloween costume lol...what can I say its my favorite holiday and this is the first year ill be in decent shape since I was 17

sw: 260

cw: 174

  (edit) 09/12/08- 176...+2lb (I stayed under my cal deficit, so the 2lb gain ill chalk up to that time of the month)

(edit) 9/20/08- 171.5...-4.5lb

Halloween goal weight: *160*

gw: 145ish

ever since I started cc earlier this year ive kept the 160  (all hallows eve) goal in the back of my mind. I have had about 2 1/2 months of platueing in my journey though so Im really down to the wire in order to make it

Im not sure if I am reading too into this because I dont know if you guys have significant others but I sense something there. :) Any chance this is your exes way to stay in your life :) or yours :). If you guys do have other people in your lives though disregard my statement lol

especially since he's talking about how good you look

I forget the exact quote but its something like thinking lead to actions, and actions lead to habit, and habit leads to true change. I completely agree with that. I also have read the secret and its helped "me" out a lot. Thinking thin doesnt drop the lbs for you as some people like to attack, but more if you think of yourself thin, even if you may not be that way yet then you wont do obviously none thin things. Such as would a thin person eat an entire pizza by themselves. I did when I thought negatively about myself. I thought Im fat so if I get fatter so what, ima enjoy this pizza...It was negative thinking that continued the cycle. Now I may have a slice here or there but Im aware that my actions have repercussions.

:) Im so tempted to write something dirty but I wont :)

Name: Ghanja
Age: 22
Favourite Hair Dye/product: Henna, if I dyed but I dont anymore
Best Hair colour/style: My Afro :) I havent chemically processed my hair since jan 08, Ill put in extensions like in my photo when I get bored...but I love my natural hair
Biggest hair fiasco: I permed my hair and I colored it on the same day. I had patches missing :( but in January I used my husbands razor and shaved it all off! One of my best decisions...no more chemicals for me
Current Hairstyle: Afro!!!
Next Hair style: Hmm, I want to start dreadlocks but I change my mind a lot and I fear that ill get bored and I'm over cutting off my hair, so I will probably just let it grow out

My husband and I dont owe the irs, so now that I think about it I do remember them being able to throw you in jail, but thats only if you have the money and refuse to pay. No one can throw you in jail if you truly dont have the money. My husband and I are in sooo much debt I too am well versed in stupid debt collection agencies. We use to get calls all the time but since its going on the 2nd year or so of non payment they've given up...they still send letters in the mail, but I never read em cause I dont have the money to pay so its pointless. In fact theyve all threatened to take me to court...I tell em on the phone to go ahead. I know that even if a judgement is made against me I have no assets so its more money wasted by them which brings me a little bit of joy.

  Were planning on filing for bankruptcy but were waiting to see if the laws change with the next administration because Bush ruined bankruptcy now if you file you still have to pay back everything...which defeats the whole purpose. Our debt started when we were in college. I got preggers and everything went downhill from there. Although, now things are getting way better. Our debt is truly the last thing on our mind, we'll get to it when we get to it