Posts by britt10

Taleah and Bryannon. My daughters.

That's pronounced Ta Leah and Bree Awe non

Oh, it feels so good to know there are other people suffering just like me. jk  Reading about everyones experience has encouraged me to try it again. I quit cold turkey and that lasted about 2 weeks. I felt so good and I was proud of myself for doing it. Then I got depressed. I really didn't know what was depressing me. I just felt hopeless and so, you know, the cure all was light it up. How do I get past that? and how long does the depression last?

That was a great lesson for me, teacher. It hit hard but it's just what I needed. Please, don't take me wrong. I'm not offended. I just learned something about myself. See, I don't have any physical disabilities. The difficulties that I do have are "all in my head." Therefore, I'm not aware of my limitations until something like this comes up. For instance; Memory. So they say I lost my memory. Well, I'm not aware of that because I can't remember what I forget. It's when something happens that I realize it. Then there are times that I do know I can't remember something.

The Day I Couldn't Remember

I went to work one morning just like any other day. My assistant handed me a paper and said, Corporate wants this by 10. Ok, that seemed normal. I looked at the paper and I thought to myself, Is this new? Have I ever seen this before? Do I know how to do this? I was scared but I didn't want my assistant to know. So, I looked at my desk and picked up some files that had my handwriting on them. Again though, I didn't know what it was. That was the first time I ever cried. I knew my whole life had just changed. I couldn't remember how to do the only thing I had ever done.

Short term memory and written instruction is also a problem for me. So, I wrote SMART down and what it stood for and laid it out the only way I could.

This was a great lesson for me. I was thinking about going back to work. I know I can't do what I used to do. I was just looking for something to get me out of the house. I see now though, I can't.

Although tears stream down my face I'm glad you were there to teach me a lesson.

The Prize goes to ann0303 - Ms. cameltoe

Good Gawd, that must hurt.

Well this group is large already. Can you fit one more in?

I'm 46, Divorced. 2 Grown daughters and 3 grandkids.

I lost it all 4 years ago. The weight and the husband (in that order) I weighed 205 and got down to 117 (too skinny) 130 is good for me. I'm at 152 right now and  I want to get control of it before it gets control of me.

 So, tell me, please;  how does your support system work? Do you have weekly weigh-ins? Does anyone monitor exercise?  Is there anyone that will say, " Get off your butt and go take a hike?"

I actually eat less when I'm around other people.    I love backyard bbq's with family and friends but everyone knows; just pass me the jalapenos.

Having a boyfriend is great. I lose weight. I'm a cheap date.

Then I go home and eat when no one's looking. 

Here's my diet plan: Find a Boyfriend.. jk

Thank You! All of you. I do appreciate your comments.

  Dating: I have dated since this happened. I also became single, again after 24 years, in the same month that they found it. My daughter told me not to live for dying and put me on a dating site. I've met a few good men and I have my rules; keep it as friends. If they start to get emotionally involved, I'm gone.  I begin to think its not fair of me to let someone care about me, knowing I might die.  For me, it is just a "might"  but  I have a hard time letting anyone get close to me.

 Working: Once upon a time... I was a Property Manager. I don't know if I could do it again but I wonder if Walmart's hiring. I could be a Walmart greeter. jk I feel like I've been living in a box. Not Jack in the Box! But Hey there's an idea :)  I like to meet people. To laugh and joke around. I'm not getting that because I'm shut out from the rest of the world. To me going back to work isn't about money its about living.

Smoking: I really do want to quit.  I think I just get depressed and use "the death sentence" as an excuse. Maybe "Jack" would help.

It is true, you do gain some weight. Before and during. I forget sometimes and think I'm fatter than I really am. But it ends, it goes away and then I feel much better. Hopefully, I'll drop a couple pounds in a day or two.

I hope that made sense. Cause I don't know what those other people were talking about :)

Hi, I'm Britt

I'm new here also. I posted a forum to tell everyone about me and why I'm here.  Although, I'm not sure if it should have been done in a forum or in a journal. In any case. It's done. 

I lost 70lbs 4yrs ago and its still a struggle keeping it off. I've gained back about 20 of so pounds and I'm trying to get control of it before it gets control of me.  There are a few things I did when I lost the weight that helped me. Maybe, they will help   you too. But I better practice what I preach before I gain it all back.