Posts by dee1220

I don't know how you meant that but that was hurtful the way i took it...i'm in starvation mode so i need to eat more calories to regulate my metabolism....i apologize if that was not meant as hurtful but i'm having a hard time with my ed currenlty and am just extra sensitive right now...i decreased my calorie intake and increased my workouts and lost weight initially but now i kept decreasing the calories to too low and increased working out and went into starvation mode and i'm trying to get out without gaining and i feel pathetic about it because i'm scared...i hope that makes more sense...

thank you everyone so much!!! the advice is greatly appreciated and fidget i am so sorry if i gave you the idea that i don't want to be free...i despearately want to be free...i'm just scared as i'm sure you can understand...its hard for me to accept that this ed is out of control and that i need to give up controlling myself this way...i hope that made some sense....i had a lot of trouble admitting that i had an ed and that i needed help and it toook a long long time so when i say i doubt i can to more than 1400 i just meant that it was a struggle to feel ok with getting there...i'm trying to slowly add them in so that i don't reverse and relapse more...i am trying smwhipple's advice of adding a bit of calories and reducing my exercise at the same time...its a big struggle and as of now i'm not making huge progress but i am trying...its a battle everyday and i really thank you for your support i do want to be free i'm just scared...

I know i do i've been trying to convince myself but with the increased calorie take, it seems (to me and ed) crazy to stop exercising and just to exercise more...yes i burn 1000-1200 on top of my bmr...my total calorie burn daily is about 2400...thank you so much for all your information and support...i know the dangers and am monitored by my primary MD to make sure i can recover...

thanks so much everyone for the support...i'm about 5'6 and i think my BMI is 23 which is in normal range but i feel awful...i've been a long distance runner all my life so i exercise pretty intensely for about 1 1/2 to 2 hours 6-7 days a week, i'm medium framed and everyone i see keeps telling me i look "healthy" which i don't like....i only started upping my calories this week and have been terrified to get on the scale...i was 134 and stayed away from the scale for a few months then i got back on and i was 139 and now i'm up to 144, i feel so disgusting and am afraid to get on the scale and afraid to stay away from the scale...i'm terrified that upping my calories even more will make me gain more and then i'll just relapse worse...i appreciate everyone's support so much and don't want to sound like i'm not taking your advice i am just having a difficult time keeping my ed quiet

thanks so much for all the advice!! i'm just scared of gaining more and what it will do ti me mentally, i've been working out and burning about 1000-1200 calories about 6 or 7 days a week and haven't lost any inches either, i mostly do cardio.  my burn meter says i should eat about 2000 calories but i don't know if i can do that...i'm so afraid to get bigger that i guess everything you're saying makes sense i'm just not sure i can handle gaining anymore...i do appreciate everything i just am so disgusted that i've gained so much and i have been eating less and working out more and i feel like now i'm back to before i started so i hate myself....

i know i will get responses saying i need to eat more but i'm terrified to eat more and gain even more and be hopeless then i'm practically a hopeless mess already!! :(  :(

haven't weighed myself yet still scared...i'm between 5.6 and 5.7 not entirely sure...and i'm a medium build with very atheletic legs which causes me to weigh a lot more...at least that's the excuse i use

hey are weigh ins on wednesdays or fridays?  also i weighed myself yesterday but i don't know if it can possible be right...138?

I've been eating 1100 calories a day and burning 1000 every day and have been at a pretty steady 134 for a while...could it be that i was wearing sweat pants instead of shorts?  i'm very discouraged and afraid to weigh in again!

i'm in too!! i just started last week but its been rough so i wanna start fresh!!

how do i add you as a friend?

i am on weight watchers i don't go to meetings either lol...you can pay per month online to log...i just don't know how late night eating factors into weight watchers points...i'm on the flex plan and fluctuate so much day to day some days 20 or less points and some as many as 27 i don't use my weekly points though...do you know anything about the late night eating and stuff for weightwatchers?