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| Weight Loss | NO SCALES ALLOWED! - The Official Monday Measurements Group | Nov 30 2008 23:53 (UTC) |
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I'm in! This sounds like a great idea! Thank you for making a group =] |
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| Health & Support | ED Recovery Club II (the REAL one) | Aug 12 2008 04:13 (UTC) |
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Hey everyone, I hope you're all great and healthy :) Well lately I've been eating more consistently.. not a lot yet, but often. I'm not restricting as much and I'm exercising everyday. I've had a couple of slip ups here and there where I've gone way over my calorie limit.. probably old cravings lol, but I'm not giving up just yet. I still want to be under 110 lbs because that's where I want to maintain.. it's sort of like a security blanket, but right now my weight is fluctuating so much. Like on the days I started eating normal and exercising and using the bathroom regularly (I don't usually have regular bowel movements so I have to take Miralax) I got down to 110 lbs. Then I slipped up twice last week and shot up to 117 (bloated) then 115 then 114 then 112 and now I'm 113 lbs. It's hard because I don't like seeing my weight change so much you know. The funny part is I've probably gained a lot of muscle because I'm working out everyday and I feel leaner. I look in the mirror and I feel lean but I step on the scale and I weigh more. It's really frustrating. A part of me says "obviously you're fluctuating because a) you're gaining muscle that you can actually see and b) you're eating often and getting your metabolism back.. but then there's always that ED side of me.. the one that just sees the number on the scale and nothing else. I can be super thin and look super thin but if the scale says more than it said before I automatically feel fat. It's the worse. I know it's not true but it's something I have to overcome. So now I'm maintaining between 110 and 114 lbs.. I'm telling my mom to hide the scale and I'm just gonna keep up my diet and exercise routine. I'm not gonna slip up.. no binges no restrictions, just healthy weight loss. I tell myself it's just a couple of pounds you can do it, but it's like yeah you can do it with your ED.. this is the first time you do it the healthy way. It's so ironic.. I can easily lose 40 lbs with my ED but it's sooo difficult to lose 5 lbs the healthy way. I need to though, it's all part of recovery. I need to learn how to accept myself and go by the way I feel and look in the mirror. By the way my clothes fit.. not by the numbers on the scale. I feel better now because I'm working out and don't feel skinny-fat.. it's just taking some time to adjust, but I will do it.
Anyone else going through something similar?
<33 you all |
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| Health & Support | Upping cals to LOSE | Jul 23 2008 23:19 (UTC) |
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I'm currently upping my calories while trying to lose those last 5 lbs.. I know weird. But recovering from an ED is difficult and I didn't want to shock my body to much by upping my calories a ten fold and gain weight and then risk relapse. I need to get as FAR AWAY from my ED as possible so currently I'm just eating healthy foods everyday, although still under my recommended calories, but I am exercising everyday to speed up my metabolism. I know my calories are still low but I don't feel hungry because I'm eating high fiber high protein foods to give me energy and help me tone up. I think taking it slow and always exercising is the key. I know it's gonna take me a while to get to my 1500-1600 calories a day maintenance amount but I'm in the process and I have faith that I'll get there :)
My advice for all of you: the fear of gaining weight is normal for anyone with an eating disorder, but the fear of living an unhealthy life forever is even greater. Start recovering slowly.. let your body adjust to your new habits. Eat everyday, eat when you feel hungry and don't skip meals. Even if your still on the low end of your calories eat that amount and slowly up it each week while keeping up your exercise. We will all get there.. you've already passed the most difficult part, accepting you have a problem. So now just push through the process toward recovery.. best of luck <333 |
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| Health & Support | the lowest... the highest.. the happiest | Jul 23 2008 23:03 (UTC) |
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18 yr old female about 5'3" highest : 152 current: 110 lowest: I think current happiest: current.. but I really just want to maintain around 105 lbs :) |
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| Health & Support | ED Recovery Club II (the REAL one) | Jul 22 2008 19:02 (UTC) |
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Hey everyone! Wow, I'm so glad I found this thread :) Well I thought I'd start introducing myself with a little background story... I'm currently recovering from a mild anorexic phase (about 4 months) in which I lost 42 lbs. I was overweight at 152 lbs and went on a kind of crash diet to lose the weight. I'm have a small frame (5'3") and now I weigh 110 lbs.. I just want to maintain below 110 but over 100 so I guess 105 lbs is my ugw. I never really went into long periods of fasting. Just restricting and then some days I'd binge and then fast the next day.. I never fasted for more than 2 days.. I've been self recovering for the past week or so by eating and working out everyday to get my metabolism back into gear. I'm not purposely trying to restrict but I've found that I'm not very hungry.. I guess my body just needs to get used to eating more calories so that's why I'm taking this slow. Since I still want to lose those last 5 lbs, I don't want to jump into eating 1300 cals a day and shock my body into gaining weight. Currently I'm eating about 600-700 calories a day and I feel better about it because I don't feel like I'm starving myself and I have energy. I know eventually I need to eat more but I'm upping my calories slowly: fiber cereal w/ fat free milk and strawberries red apple protein yogurt tilapia fillet w/ vegetables stir fry and spinach watermelon and grape salad protein shake - meal substitute
I know that once I reach 105 I'll just want to maintain but a part of me is in fear of gaining weight. Before I went on my crash diet I ate LOADS of junk food which is probably why I gained so much weight.. because I was never overweight before. Although I know I went through a phase of unhealthy dieting I'm glad now that I'm around the weight I want to be I make healthier food choices and live a more active life.
Anyways, I'm really happy I found this group!! I know you are all here for support :) |
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| Weight Loss | 10 or less to lose - CLOSED GROUP! | Jul 14 2008 01:47 (UTC) |
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I'm joining this group :) I'm 9 lbs away! Soo close, but it's hard! Now I need to up my cal intake to maintain at my gw. I'm scared, but I'm here for support!
cw: 109 gw: 100 |
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| Foods | Another foods survey! | Jul 13 2008 00:20 (UTC) |
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1. Favorite red vegetable/fruit - tomatos/watermelon 2. Favorite orange vegetable/fruit - carrots/oranges lol 3. Favorite yellow vegetable/fruit - corn/bananas 4. Favorite green vegetable/fruit - pickles/green apples 5. Favorite blue vegetable/fruit - hmm?/blueberries 6. Favorite purple vegetable/fruit - hmm?/grapes.. frozen :) 7. Favorite white vegetable/fruit - mushrooms/hmm? 8. Favorite nut - cashews 9. Favorite seed - sunflower 10. Favorite meat type (poultry, game, seafood, etc.) - seafood 11. Favorite food within that meat type - tilapia and tuna 12. Favorite type of bread - whole grain 13. Favorite type of cereal - ALL CEREAL! 14. Favorite type of noodle - shiritaki 15. Favorite grain in general - granola 16. Favorite source of dairy - cheeeeeese 17. Favorite type of milk (2%, skim, etc.) - lactose free and fat free 18. Favorite cheese - oooh.. that's hard. muenster and swiss :) 19. Favorite ice cream flavor - mint chocolate chip.. yummm. 20. Favorite type of oil - idk 21. Favorite fried food - french fries.. ugh. 22. Favorite condiment - mustard 23. Favorite diet drink - diet green tea 24. Favorite non-diet drink - capri sun |
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| Foods | What is your favorite type of cookie? | Jul 12 2008 07:00 (UTC) |
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Ahh I love them all lol.. but my favorite would have to be oatmeal cookies, milano milk chocolate cookies, thin mints, sugar cookie and oreos. Yummmm :) |
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| Maintaining | 5'2-5'3ers, what are your measurements? | Jul 12 2008 06:46 (UTC) |
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height: 5'3" 1/2 bust: 32 - boobless :x waist: 24 hips: 32 |
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| Maintaining | Reversing Starvation Mode | Jul 12 2008 06:35 (UTC) |
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Ahh, I'm in the same place as you! I'm 5'3" and a half but I weigh 109 lbs now.. I want to maintain at 100 lbs but I'm confused about what I should do!
Good luck <33 |
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New journal post keep weighing myself everyday... by polkastripe 22:24 |