Posts by kellyjess

*from a two year old* shucky darn!!!!

i was in the hospital 3 months inpatient, 3 months partial...i suffered, and am recovering from (3 years later) post traumatic stress disorder....this scarred my life. you dont know what i'd give to have it back.

i've got the same situation and question, so i wana see what people say!!

i'm glad to hear how that turned out for you! that's what this start's been like for me, and i only plan on trying this out-its great having  an insurance of being able to go back on it-but i'm afraid of feeling all that crudiness of starting again =(  what a delema...i dont know what's going to help and hurt me most, last or work the best...!

i'm starting to have some weight gain too! what's going on? does it last? you'd think the "weight gain" from going ON the pill would be coming off....pleeeasse tell me theres an end to this...lol but dont lie. and if this is what happens coming off the pill and i decided to go back on (for other reasons) would i gain MORE weight AGAIN?

i'm SOOOO excited you approached that advice with enthusiasm!!! you have no idea how important that is! honestly you're in an anorexic wt range easily. when i was 5 foot 4 and 90 pounds, they said i was off the charts and put me in a hospital that wasn't accepting anyone because  they were full. please, i want so bad to see you get out of this....but having gone through this, i need to pass this info on too:

eating more is NOT as easy as it seems. first roadblock: thats a **** ton of food! it's hard to get that much in if you're not used to it, but use your head in condensing it and it wont be that hard. your body's starving so much micronutrients arent you're biggest concern. so yeah. PB'll be your friend lol.

second roadblock: if you're okay with gaining some weight, that's so awesome. that takes courage. that makes you strong. but that weight does NOT go where you want it to...AT FIRST...and at first means months; yes months, but it really doesnt last as long as you think. but you will keep your itty bitty arms and legs...and grow a baby lol. no im jk, it feels like that, you'll feel enourmous, but let me ASSURE YOU people will NOT be able to see it.

tell me if you have any questions...i'm so proud of you!!!!!

sounds like your body's trying to tell you something!!!

my one stick through piece of advice:

no matter how difficult this conflict with your body gets, ALWAYS take care of yourself <3

this is advice coming from someone who suffered from anorexia for 2 1/2 years and is now in the binge binge purge cycle. DO NOT DO THIS. do NOT fall into this cycle. you become a slave. your life dissolves. if you thought annorexia had a hold on you, this is much, much worse. i learned hard and fast when i first started purging- BEING ABLE TO DO IT DOES NOT MAKE YOU STRONGER. YOU'RE NOT A STRONGER MORE IN CONTROL PERSON BECAUSE YOU MADE YOUR BODY DO WHAT YOU WANTED. trust me. i could go on but i dont want this to seem like i'm screaming at you lol. look- this message isnt angry, or upset, or disappointed, it's seeing myself 6 months ago and wishing you were me then so i could stop it early....be proud of yourself!@ love yourself!!! =))) and tell me if you ever want help or advice! i'm so here for you!!! got my hands reached out!!! ps no matter how much you purge you absorb almost all the calories you put in-i looked it up tons of times because...it sucks so much. ha.

hey! i'm kinda in the same boat where i exercise more than i care to and watch my calories like crazy but see nothing happen...had any experiences with it? results with upping the anty?

i go through this alot too...it is soooooooo damn hard...i give you all my strength! lol. it sucks. but theres nothing we can do to change them. im always here to talk, vent to, give support <3

ahhh, that gives me a better idea...but how much and how long will i initially gain? this is obviously a rut to get out of, but i want the least "side effects" so i'm not tempted to bail out and restrict. its complicated stuff!! wish i could just snap my fingers and make everything simple. but i know my metabolism is in the reserve mode, and i wana put it back into normal so i feel safe adding the calories i need...but im scared because if i've been maintaining on this, i feel like i'd explode growing if i upped it to where i need it! just lookin for advice and everything. i know all the basic information, been into nutrition, health and dietetics wayy too long

that really helps! and that's great advice i want to try and take. i'm kind of testing it out now, actually, it's just a scary proccess, thats all! but hey man, i'm strong =) so how soon did the urges stop? did you have to change your eating patterns at all?

thanks for the advice!!

that sounds like a great idea and great advice! thanks so much! i think it'll really help me!

so happy to find some other people out there with the same problem! i vote this shouldnt be a forum, but a group...i'm joining the band wagon. i need help. i hope someone contacts me back, too...i'm a recovering anorexic and am falling down the bullimic hole. anyone out there or have any advice!!?!?

thanks for the advice, i think you're right...maybe it's that my body's clinging onto the calories, and once i break out of this restriction it'll go into overdrive and a normal routine, but it's hard trusting it'll do that, it's a scary risk. but i'll try and be brave =) i'm really struggling with hunger cues and whatnot, do you have any advice for that?