Posts by darkerthanblue

So things aren't going great.  I knew the weekend would be hard and I broke I mean I really broke all weekend.  Over here the weekend is a Friday and Saturday.  I find it incredibly hard at the moment and cant find a way out of my spiral. Am so good in the week and focused but hit Thursday things spiral fast.  Its so frustrating because my workouts are really disciplined and  when I am not messing up I can  see real improvement quickly. Anyway dont wanna bring you all down, just got to work out how to fix the problem.  Oh well heres to day 1 tomorrow. I would love to be at a level that I could conquer the whole of may but right now to get through a whole week would be amazing

On the other hand congratulations to wazza07 10th day thats excellent.  Good luck with your exams. You've should be soooo proud of how far youve come I hope some of that will rub off on me....

Wow! I found this forum after hitting a real low in what has started out to be a very good week for a normal human being.  As many of you can connect with my life is consumed with thoughts of food etc.  I am very focused on what I eat and when i eat well feel great but i really do have bad problems with binging. To cut a long story short I thought this would be a great place to get a helping lift.  I go back to England in 8 weeks times. I have been working hard to get myself into shape and for 3wks i didnt binge once and had a great level of motivation but then i weighted myself and although i knew it was a bad idea i did it anyway and then then i opened the trap door that was my mouth and everything feel in.  I always feel bad afterwards and have big regrets by the monday.  Thats right its always on weekends, so I am hoping that this is day one of something special and a new record for me.  With you guyz in my corner I think well I know I have a good chance.