Posts by ilovechai

all i can say is you're not alone.

some mornings i wake up and i feel like a robot programmed to go to the kitchen and shove food down my throat. then the guilt hits. then the whole day is centered around where i will get more food.

i'm really ashamed, and i know completely how you feel. i'll be watching this post- you know, incase someone has all the answers to our bingeing problems.

oh delightful. for my two test i had to do two things

1) eat a meal of eggs and toast enhanced with barium and drink two cups of water. easy easy. no worried

2) i stood for part and layed down for part of the next test. simultaneously drinking liquid barium through a straw. hopefully you have a strong stomach. it isn't pleasant but it's bareable, really. just suck it up and drink it slowly. it will be like a thick chalky cardboard tasting milkshake. i drooled alot.

STORY OF MY LIFE.

i went from 95 pounds to 135 pounds in a matter of a summer. sadly, my three years of the binge-starve cycle has returned and has suddenly taken a dangerous turn down the road of bulimia as well. it's the worst relapse i've ever had.

stay strong.

peanut butter + yogurt +corn flakes + craisins.

nuff said.

After refusing treatment time and time again...i think i'm in it for good this time?

B: Light N' Fit Lemon Yogurt, Better N' Peanut Butter, Apple, Cornflakes, Egg

L: Salad w/ chick peas, veggies, and tuna. Light dressing

S: Honeycrisp, Nonfat latte

D: Taco Salad, Light N' Fit White Choc. Cherry Yogurt

S: Orange

1) last thing you ate: portillos' chop salad

2) last thing you drank: diet DP

3) the next thing you're going to eat: probably a salad, becuase i'm going out to dinner for homecoming

4) the next thing you're going to drink: water

5) are you craving anything right now?: starbucks peppermint mocha

6) what's your favorite pie flavour?: i'm allergic to gluten, so i can't eat it. but i LOVE french silk

7) name a food you're tired of: jello

8) name a food you hate: ginger and ketchup

9) what's your favorite meal of the day?: breakfast

10) what's your favorite vegetable?: steamed brussel sprouts, broccoli, onions and carrots. can't choose

i order starbucks hot chocolate for 150 CALORIES

short, no whip, soy, regular hot chocolate

short is smaller than a tall. and the regular hot chocolate is better for you than the signature.

im the master, girl.

breakfast 1: 1 cup dry quaker oats (cook in 1 3/4 boiling water), a mashed up banana, 2 tbsp peanut butter, 2 tsp brownsugar. glass of milk

breakfast 2: ezekiel grain cinnamon raisin english muffin, 1 tbsp butter, 2 tsp brown sugar, sprinkle of cinnamon. medium apple. 1 egg white. glass of milk.

lunch 1: 3 oz cajun turkey (deli) and cheese on whole grain hamburger bun. milk. side salad with full fat dressing.

lunch 2: sub turkey sandwich for tuna salad sandwich

i am so ashamed, but i was addicted to c/s for over a year and am pretty much over it now. i think i've done it like once or twice in the past 3 months?

i tried multiple times to stop, but it's so damn addicting. it got to the point where i'd steal money and food from anywhere just to have a chewspit session. My mouth bled, I was bloated, and i had no friends. i got caught a lot, but nobody could stop me. that's what you have to realize-it is your decision to stop, and you have the power to say no.

i take it day by day.

1) TELL WHOEVER YOU LIVE WITH. After telling my parents, I felt ashamed, but i was held accountable. they also hid the peanutbutter and other various binge foods from me. they didn't buy things in bulk, and they checked for missing food.

2)THROW OUT ALL TRIGGER FOODS until you're ready

3) mark the days you go without c/s on your calendar. It motivates you

4) Eat enough. I was eating like 500-800 cals. a day and chewspitting to get the tastes of the foods i wouldn't allow myself. in truth, chewspitting takes in a lot of cals, and you will bloat and gain weight until you stop.

After a few weeks, the urge really does go away. Actually, I did it today, and after one bowl of cereal (i used to go through 10+ bowls when no one was home) i was disgusted with myself. I notice I c/s when i'm anxious about something, or when im bored. realize that it doesn't make anything better.

I have so much empathy for you, and i hope you can kick the habit before it gets any worse

yeah, i made it two months last thursday, then blew it last saturday. (pack of oreos, chips, peanut butter, granola bars, cereal...all after a regular 2000 cal. day)

so i'm back to week one. hopefully week two will go as planned, and i can get past the 2 month mark next time.

stay strong everyone. and remember, eat enough during the day and you won't binge at night!

it's a must-see! all my friends are obsessed with it

whoa whoa whoa savory french toast? i make mine with cinnamon, vanilla, and brown sugar!

how do you make yours? i'm so curious!

my lunch every day:

-ezekiel grain sesame seed hamburger bun with 3 oz. cajun turkey & 1 slice soy cheese

-chocolate milk

-small plain salad with low fat italian dressing

It's so easy! I buy enough buns/meat/milk for the week, and have a drawer in the fridge for my stuff. then i make a huge salad that will last all week and so i can just spoon it out into my tupperware in the morning. This meal gives you your grains, fats, proteins, veggies, and dairy!

eerica: congrats, really. doesn't life without bingeing feel so good? today is two months for me, and i can still remember the weeks where i could barely make it through 2 days without a binge. i'm so proud of you, you are such an inspiration to so many people on CC, including me!

whoa baby, my brekkies are like 5x the size! mmm today i had a "bowl of goodness," which is all my food exchanges in ONE BOWL.

1 cup (dry) quaker mulit-grain oat meal made with water&salt

mix ins: 1/2 banana, 2 TBSP chunky pb, 2 tsp. brown sugar, 1 packet splenda

oh, and a glass of silk chocolate.