Posts by renaer14

Hello Hello,

I have been away for far to long and here I am again marching on. I admittedly had to come in and see where Sun was at on weigh in, you've always been my push. I hit 224 this morning (sad since my lowest was 213, but happy because my highest the last couple of months has been 232) I have been good for an entire 7 days I had my planned free day yesterday, have been under my calorie goal and exercised by butt off all the other days. I have set a new goal of 190 by July 1, 2009 and made it a point to start journaling to keep myself focused. I really haven't had time lately to keep up on the forum, but I really have been producing a craving to talk to you guys:) Hope all is well I'm glad to see some of the old faces still around and so many new ones. Here's to 2009!

-Ang

SW:315

CW:224

Short term goal:190:)

GW:140

Sounds like you guys are doing great over the holidays. I've been told numerous times that the holidays are times to maintain not lose, but of course they don't understand the drive we have to lose weight and the unhealthy state we have come from at one point or another. So I haven't been beating myself up over a holiday cookie here and there, but I am def keeping myself focused and controlled. I was thrilled this morning I hit 214 the lowest yet and my 100lbs completely lost. It feels good. I'm a little behind on my Jan 1st goal, but I'm hoping with a big push I'll make it and I'm ecstatic to think I may be under 200 for my birthday Jan 14th. It's just a dream at the moment to have a 1 in front of my weight number even if it's 199 I just won't know what to do with myself.

Good Luck and a Happy Holidays Everyone.

-Angie

YAH PAM!!! Every pain and muscle ache is making it worth it. I've been there the bad knees the back aches and the breathing omg the fact of feeling like you will never breathe right again is not fun AT ALL, but it really is worth it. As the weight goes down things will start to feel better. My back has never felt better. My knees, I won't lie, are having some issues. Is it possible to lose cartilage when you lose weight? Seems a little impossible, but that's what it feels like.

You guys are doing so great! I can so relate to the weird body shape going on with this process. Every time I look in the mirror I'm like where in the world did my butt and boobs go. I'm starting to not have much of a curve to me at all I don't even know what you would call my body type at the moment. I have fallen in love, to a certain point, with under wire bras. I never used to wear them and now I wear them all the time they're the only thing that keep what I do have up and looking "normal."  I do still have a huge issue with my stomach I'm actually noticing it becoming more extra skin than fat in that area. Not sure what to do about that, I do what I can with weights and my core ball, but still allot of skin, surgery may be an option in the future. What I love about CC is that it has taught me how to eat everything I love and still lose weight. I can have ice cream, bread, pasta and even steak and still lose weight. I don't know how you guys go without carbs even for 8 days. Korali, don't feel bad about caving you def went further than I ever could, good luck on the next step.

Life has been insane lately going into finals so crazy busy with school and the next couple months are packed with events work is hosting, so just nuts. I was doing really good, but again got tempted when we had our holiday party for work, even though I was trying to stay busy working the event I still couldn't stay away from all the bad bad food. I just really ate way to much. That was on Thursday, which turned into another 4 day binge I don't know why I keep doing this I binge, get back on track, lose a good amount of weight and than binge again. I've been good this week and if I can stick with past Thursday I may be good for the rest of the week. Thursday may be my downfall for some reason. I hit 227 after this last binge, but this morning I got down to 219. I am really really happy to see the teens again. I'm hoping to stick with this and hit my 214 goal very soon.

-Ang

wow, danielle, you are an incredible inspiration! I'm so glad you posted I needed to see that. I always try to stay positive and keep pushing, but after my recent binge it's been hard. Good luck with the new goal you can do it!!

sun, I have some new holiday photos just have to get them uploaded might be able to put them up tonight. I can't wait to see yours. I'm a bit of a wimp I can't wear heels all day I have a few pairs of those little ballet shows that I wear at work all day, but I like my heels for events. The Wii sounds like fun have to let us know how it is after you try it I'm not much into game systems, but that sounds interesting. It's nice you got a surprise visit from your family, sounds like you had an enjoyable time.

topeze, drop those hints and I bet hubby will get it for you, a Wii would be a nice change of pace for exercise I would think. I am so with you on the bad food DAYS Thanksgiving wasn't enough I just kept going and when I thought I was good after 3 days of cheats i added even more to it, we'll both bounce back we always do! It's Monday and it's the first of the month that's gotta be an omend for something good.

wobbly,awesome awesome awesome!! You have come so far. I am so excited for you, can you believe not to long ago you were worried about staying on track and putting in exercise and here you are out of the 300's down 56lbs and only 4lbs till your out of the 290's. Good luck continuing with the journey, you can do it!

I'm loving the free stationary bike! I looked up the calories you can burn and it's 700 in an hour. Holly freakin cow, I started flippin out when I read that. I get about half that walking for an hour. I am really excited about this new way of burning even more calories and saving more time than if I was trying to burn off that many calories walking. So much fun discovering new things and I love how convenient it is. I don't have to freeze, I can do it in my apt and even naked if I want:) lol. I've continued to be bad and went to 223 this morning, but I'm dealing with that and making myself stay on track this entire month it's Monday and it's the first of the month, that has to be a sign to get your butt in gear. I think I'm going to stick with 215 for weigh in for Dec 1st and pray for 205 by Jan 1st. I'm hoping allot of this is water from sodium ridden food and PMS, so should be pretty easy to get that off and than start on the real weight again. I'm hoping to have Thanksgiving pictures up tonight, will keep you guys posted on those.

-Angie  

wobbly, wow that sounds cool. Def explains the drop in temp. I hope your having fun that sounds exciting in and of itself. What a perfect time of year to do that to. I bet it's freezing back in the UK.

sun, You would think with all the veggies in Chinese food that it would be healthy for you, but you are right it's the sauce it's very salty which leads to sodium build up and bloating and stinking weight gain:) I love pizza, but I'm with you on the donuts thing, yucky. Peanut butter cookies are not my fav and especially non homemade cookies in general, yucky, but the g/f was having a craving for that and made them out of some Betty Crocker cookie packet, so there they were in my face. They were pretty gross though, but still couldn't keep them away from my mouth. Darn cravings.

I'm noticing a pattern. I had incredible cravings last night. I was so good all day, the plan was to walk and drink plenty of fluids to flush my system out and stay really low on my calories. Walked an hr, drank 4 liters of water and had about 500 calories up to 6pm. Than the cravings hit hard. I had subway for dinner with mom, only about 300 calories so not bad stayed in my calorie range. Than had a work meeting late that had snacks had 2 crackers and not even a tablespoon of bacon something cheese ball, still not to bad. Than i get done with that and hit McDonald's bad bad bad. Chicken nugget meal, regular soda, double cheese burger AND McFlurry. THAN, little ice cream snacks I had at the house AND a big bowl of cheerios. WHAT THE HECK!!! I'm realizing though that I had this issue the exact same time last month. It's PMS cravings starting already. I hit my low of 219 this time last month and than messed it all up, and I hit my low of 215 and messed it all up again this month, hit 224 this morning, again almost 10 pounds up from my lowest. Grrr so stinkin frustrating, but I'm hoping that my realization of this fact will help me stay focused. I have 5 days and I can push weigh in till about the 3rd so technically I have 8 days to get back down. Little bit of a concern with Thanksgiving, but I have to focus on the fact that it's one meal and it will be ok if I just control myself, very small portions and only one plate. *BIG BREATH* ok I feel better. That was a good venting session lol.

I hope everyone else is doing good. Can't believe this month is almost over already. We can do it. Keeping fingures crossed.

-Angie 

Hey you guys I found some inspirations. I am all about inspiring quotes and I found one from another forum I had to share.

"It's a lot harder to be fat than it is to work so hard at being fit. Fit feels so good."

The woman who stated this was Karen Daniel, she started out weighing 375 and has now gotten down to 200, 175lbs lost in two years!! She was eating her emotions and her life away.

Her story was very inspirational to me as I know my life and so many others of us have the same story. Life is painful and frustrating when your weight effects your life so much.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/HEALTH/diet.fitness/1 1/21/weightloss.karen.daniel/index.html

I don't know about you guys but I would rather exercise, count calories and eat to live instead of live to eat. I like the idea of going to a carnival or an amusement park, with my friends and in the future my children, and ride the rides, fly on a plane without worrying about getting a seat belt extender, going to see a movie without the fear of the seats being to small to watch the movie comfortably, sitting in an armed chair in general and not worrying about the arms digging into my sides, not worrying about getting in and out of little cars (my friend has a tiny sports car 50lbs ago it was a nightmare to get in and out of), going out and not always feeling like the fattest girl there, walking up a flight of stairs without huffing and puffing and most of all I love the idea of being comfortable in my own skin!

When we get down, when we get frustraighted and we just want to give up remember:

IT IS HARDER TO BE FAT THAN IT IS TO BE FIT!   

We've had an incredible November keep up the good work and I think we're all going to be in shock of our own progress by January 1, 2009.

By the way, I hit 215:)

-Angie

sun, I have the same problem with the bottoms off my feet even wearing sneakers. I think it happens to be just how I walk I'm a bit of a heavy foot walker. I didn't realize you got a new job I must of missed that somewhere. Hope that goes good for you. How fun a new job at the same time as you being so successful with your weight. I know that always helps me feel more confident, comfortable and successful.

korali, I'm thinking about making your cupcakes for the family Thanksgiving or Christmas get together. I'd love to take something healthy. My grandparents are very health conscious, so I think they would really enjoy those. Congrats on the new low!! I am soooo happy for you. It sounds like you are really back on track.

mnic, YAH!!! How exciting to be so close I' was in your shoes just a week or two ago. You can do it and when you hit that hundred pound mark you'll realize how much counting everything and exercise was worth it. I can completely relate to if someone had told me I would be this close to losing 100lbs I would of laughed and now I'm so close and even making goals that are going to put me into the 100's. Rock climbing is one of my goals and I found a sports shop that has in doors rock climbing I was so excited when I found that out, as I will to reach my goal when it is freezing. Sometimes looking outside the box helps with those rewards and makes it even more fun.

liza, Hope everything is ok. Everyone has those moments of just needing to give up everything for a moment, but it's what you do to revert from it becoming a consistant event in your life is what makes you stronger and keeps you from becoming that person you dislike. We've all fallin off and gotten back on and you can do the same. Good luck the months not over and your doing great already. I feel the same way I don't think I could of gotten this far without this group, I really don't know how others do it without everyone here.

I am so excited this morning I hit 216!! My lowest yet. I honestly don't remember the last time I ever was this weight. It feels awesome! Just 2 pounds away from my 100lb. loss. I went to lunch with my mom and a friend of ours, first free meal for awhile now, and we did the salad bar, it wasn't to bad till I got soup and second plate of salad and a cookie for dessert. I feel so bloated and kind of blah at the moment. I think I'm going to go walk around the office to get rid of the bloated feeling. I'm praying this didn't hurt my weight loss. We'll see in the morning. I'm right on track though so I can't complain to much. I've done awesome so far this month already I'm excited to see what the month end brings and we still have 10 days to go before weigh in:)

Every challenge brings strength.    

-Ang

Sun, last weekend is not even a blimp on my radar. I went walking this morning first thing and it felt so good. I kept thinking this time last weekend I was just getting out of bed and heading to McDonald's, I was actually heading out to get TWO sausage egg and cheese biscuits. EWWW, I just can't believe those bad habits that just slip in there, but it's all in the past I am really sticking to this. I have my goals and I want them bad. You can so get that 230 and than the 100's I got both our spots reserved. Can you believe we are talking about the 100's the 200's have always been my focus in some way or another and I actually have a goal and focus that involves the 100's it's insane. I feel like I am floating on a cloud. I can't believe the prices at places like Catherines and Lane Bryant's it's just outrageous. I try to say that they have better quality than Walmart, but sometimes that's not even true. Yah, for comfy goal dresses for Christmas. Mom has this black dress that has read and white flower print on the top, makes it look like a two piece, that is really cute that she can't wear. I'm kind of hoping to take it off her hands as soon as I can wear it. I am really close to fitting in it. The kind of fabric that the dress is made of might be best with a shaper under it. Good luck. I think we def need new pictures  posted on Jan 1.

denise, YAH! your so close to finishing that all important education. Have fun on your trip. I am so scared of flying commercially, that alone stresses me out, but you are doing it and th takes courage I def don't have at the moment. Sounds like your already staying on track with a loss for this month anything is better than a gain. Good luck you can do it.

This mornings results :) 220 I am so thrilled. My efforts of being so strict have really paid off. I have exercised and watched my calories and here I am 1 pound away from my weekend goal and than after that 5 pounds till my 100lb loss and 5 more pounds will put me at my Dec. 1st weight goal of 209. YAH! gotta love motivation goals. I'm all excited.

Good luck everyone.

-Ang

Wow, so much is going on....Sun, you are awesome look at you 246!! I'm glad you found the dresses and I like that you bought a size that was snug. I do that same thing I don't buy anything in my exact size, little hard right now I'm technically in between a 16 and 18, it keeps me focused and makes me want to keep pushing forward. I have a really cute pair of jeans in my closet right now that are a real 16 not stretchy or big girl section jeans, but a real size 16 pair of jeans that I am so focused on right now. You're so good about having a focus this new adventure sounds like something fun and excited to keep you motivated. Can you believe it at that point you'll be 200lbs. It just amazes me how far we have all come to think that so many of us are so close to crossing over into the 100's, and a big congrats to those that already have!!!

wobbly, hit the grocery stores. I've heard from other vacationers and from my personal experience, It is best to just enjoy the sights and forget about the food. Go to supermarkets where things are prepackaged get veggies and fruit. It's the easiest route sometimes. I always hate going long periods of time without weighing my anxiety actually kicks in from it. Staying focused and aware will help you come back with some good numbers.

liza, YAH!! I'm so happy for you. Getting out of the 300's is such a big change physically and mentally. I still have a hard time realizing I'm so far from even the 250 range. The seasons changing makes a difference in your realization that your a difference size than the last winter, spring, fall, summer, etc. This winter I'm noticing I can't handle the cold like I could last yr. I love winter and snow it's always been my favorite season, but of course Its not that bad when you have over 300lbs. of body fat to keep you warm, now almost 100lbs. less fat I don't know how much I'm going to like this winter. Anyway the point:) you will notice changes and the small changes like I can sit comfortably on a love seat with another person or in a specific style of chair or I'll be doing something that I couldn't do before without feeling like I was going to die, like stairs, those are the changes that will be the most significant and that will get you out of the mind frame of being over 300lbs and those same significant changes will help you have the mind set of someone under 200lbs to. I still have a horrible time being comfortable around work, and some other acquaintances, that is apart of my 300lbs mind set I still have to get away from.

korali, it's so nice when partners or just close family and friends jump on board. My partner is a pretty healthy eater, except for her dove chocolate fix, so I don't end up blowing my diet to much around her, but it also helps me allot living on my own. I don't think I could do this living with someone. I def applaud those that do this with other family members in the house with them( partners and/or kids). I will need to eventually find out ways to watch my calories when I'm living with someone. Wouldn't be good to live with someone and wreck all my hard work. Tell hubby good luck:)

I to have had a couple rounds of playing seamstress. My old pants have just about had it I finally broke down and bought one pair of nice black pants about a week ago to wear to work. I really like them, but still hate that their a size 18 I really didn't want to buy anything for work till I was officially a size 16, but that's on starting out at a 26/28 I really can't complain about an 18 I was just trying to make my old clothes last as long as they could before I got to many new things. I have had to get a few other things. It's nice to have clothes that fit sometimes. Well I'm all over the scale lately I got down to 221 than shot back up to 227 after a bad weekend and Monday and now I'm back down to 224 this morning I'm bound and determined to stay on track the next 2 weeks so I can have a good weigh in on Dec. 1st. I was so good yesterday, we had a seminar on an air force base, which was cool I got to ride in one of the C150 Hercules planes, but they had no fridge and no microwave available so I had a good breakfast and pack an apple, grapes, raisins, nuts, and 100 calorie pack or teddy grahams and just snacked all day.  I was tempted with a ton of cookies home made cinnamon rolls Jimmy Johns box lunches with another cookie the size of your head, which I rejected it all. I was so proud of myself. I think I have my mind set back and am taking this head on again. I have been teasing myself it feels like. I'll get back on board and than let myself get tempted by so many different things, but yesterday has really shown me I can do this and I am really focused. I am focusing on 209 for Dec. 1st, which means I really have to stay on myself to watch my calories and walk. So anyway I'm done with my book, just wanted to put my goals out there so I can stay accountable that really seems to help. I haven't been holding myself accountable latly.

Good luck for Dec. 1st weigh in half way there already.

-Ang

OMG you guys are awesome! Happy dance for everyone....I'm so happy for you sun all time low how exciting, sticking with it and being as supportive as you are is what makes you an incredible leader and motivator, and Wobbly that is incredible you made it to the 200's it's such a milestone to reach and look at your numbers that's a total loss of 50lbs :) How sweet. korali, just last week I was in the same position I hit 219 and than my body and mind decided to blow up on me. I couldn't stay away from junk and I had no interest in exercising and I gained 10lbs in a week, by Sat. I actually hit 231. I've been good Mon. and Tue. at least getting a little walk in and watching my calories and I got back down to 223 this morning. You'll be amazed at how fast the gained weight comes off if you focus and go through the motions of exercising and counting everything. You can do it don't get frustrated, we've all been there:) Before you know it even the 280's will be a thing of the past.

-Ang

sun, how cool is that. Gotta love the unexpected encouragement, you def deserve it. LOL. to funny about the sprinkler. My mom does that, I hate getting wet with my clothes on I feel like I'm being strangled, but she has a thing for walking right into the sprinklers where ever she can find one when we walk on those ridiculously hot days. So glad it is cooling down.

liza, I'm the same way, night can be so boring, I'm def a people and object watcher. I tend to just space out on my night walks. I'm with you on the bikini I think I can't wait to be able to fit into a really cute bikini, but I don't think I could actually wear one in public even if I did look good in it. I'm so excited for you, you're so close to the 200's. It's such a great energy booster when you get down into the next hundredth. I tend to get that way with 50's to 250,150, etc. I bet you'll make your 299lb goal. Good luck. LOL, YAH for the 1000 post!

laurabow, YAH!!!! *jumps up and down* I'm so ecstatic for you that is just to awesome. I'm so happy to hear you hit your 100lb loss. I knew you could do it. Our numbers are so close it's nice to have someone I can so closely relate to.  I hope to hit that 100lb. mark in the next week. I'm really glad you posted, that just energized me and def gave me some good motivation to keep pushing myself.  

sunnyone, Awesome numbers!! So glad to see things are going so great for you and good for you getting to the gym. It really takes some strength and courage to push yourself to go to the gym. I personally have pushed myself to the gym in the past and decided it just wasn't for me. I can't handle the whole environment of nothing but skinny people, but you are very right everyone has to start some where.

I'm just shooting myself in the foot at this point. I was doing really good yesterday and even did a really good hour walk with my partner and than hunger pains set in and it was all over. I hit Taco Bell on the way home at like 10pm and than ate even more food that I had at the house. I have to be PMSing I have no control. It's really early though. I am being really good today whether I like it or not. I def am going to have to use 219 for my Nov. 1st weigh in. The scale isn't going to be to nice to me for at least another week probably.

Good luck everyone.

-Ang

denise, my "flab" is all in the same spots to, but my arms I can deal with my stomach and thighs really bother me, mostly because they are really bad as that's where I've always carried most my weight and I really want to be comfortable in a swim suit during summer. I love to swim, but have avoided it like the plague the last few years. Good luck and great to hear your pushing yourself to the gym. Can't wait to see your numbers for the 1st I'm sure you did great.

sun, good luck with the surgery option. Let me if you find out any info about that. I'm a bit afraid to even really research it right now. I only have 150 to lose total and have only lost 90ish so far. I wouldn't think my skin would be that stretched out and I've always had pretty good muscle tone. I have looked at the girdle option, but I hate clothes as it is and to add extra layers no thanks. I do have quite a few work events going on next month that I might consider wearing something like that for, but I would die trying to wear that on a regular basis.

I'm so annoyed with myself. I got on the scale this morning it was not pretty 229 I about had a stroke 10lbs in like 3 days. I feel horribly bloated today though so I'm assuming some kind of water retention is going on. I shouldn't be PMSing yet though. 219 may be the number to use for weigh in on the first. Really wanted my 10lb loss, but thats ok. I saw 219 and I am still thrilled about that. I just gotta keep myself on the wagon better.

Good luck to everyone for weigh in. We can do it:)

I feel like I need the serenity prayer for this journey.....

-Ang  

OMG, Denise what an incredible undertaking. I love to walk and hike, but I couldn't even imagine doing all that, and to have plans to hike in the Sierras on top of it. That is just awesome. I'm wanting to do that same thing kind of with my rock climbing starting off a bit slower by climbing a man made wall under super vision and than make a trip out of it, climbing a real rock. Good luck with your goal you can do it. I completely understand about school. I get so stressed out by school. My school term just started and I'm already feeling the ill effects of it, but my goodness a PhD that is just incredible.

 Sun, your awesome with your control. I had a free weekend and am craving anything and everything (resisting at the moment, but i'm a bit afraid to leave work).

I went shopping this weekend at fashion bug with a friend of mine, it was so much fun. OMG, Saturday morning I hit 219:) I am in the teens how incredible is that, and than on top of that I got 2 pairs of jeans that were a size 16 and I got a few really cute shirts that were from the misses section. I have never shopped in any other section than plus. I didn't even know there was a difference till this weekend. Fashion Bug actually has three sections Plus, Misses and Juniors, who knew :) I am so happy I feel really good and I have had so much energy. Even with the stress of school I still feel really good. I had a horrible leg cramp in my thigh I think Friday night. I had never had a cramp in my thigh before always in my calf or in the arch of my foot. Anyone having this issue? I could kind of feel it coming on Saturday when I was walking through a store to. My extra skin is also becoming more and more promenate anyone hear of anything to help with that besides surgery?

 I think I just might hit my 10lb goal this month after all. Even with a slow start at the beginning of the month.

Good luck everyone:)

P.S. Added some new pictures.

-Ang

Hey everyone, what a crazy week already. School has started and work is becoming busier and busier, but here I am still plugging away.

I'm a little confused whats the food meter? Do you mean the food log? I don't personally use this I log everything in a small notebook that I carry with me all day. If you are eating only 1200 calories a day and you're burn meter is saying 2410 you have a deficit of 1210, which is great and the weight should be coming off. Of course, you always have to consider a plateau. It doesn't matter what you do a plateau has a mind of its own, but after a while of consistent good behaviour it gives up and you're free falling from there, very nice feeling by the way. I agree with everyone else stay strong and keep at it Wobbly you can do it. Also, be honest with yourself if you're not falling the plan exactly be aware of it and change those things that may be holding you back. A few small bad things can make a big difference.  =)

i'm so happy for you sun you consistently remain a person of great motivation. You have come so far with the weight loss, but also with your ability to become active. You keep me going.

I am so happy, I am officially back on the wagon. I have been walking to work and walking the neighborhood, being more active again and eating much better. I have been sticking to my higher calories and I def have more energy and feel better. This morning I hit 222, lowest yet and just 8lbs from my 100lb mark I am so excited to have all the extra weight I gained off and on my way to losing more of my original weight.   

Good luck everyone!

-Ang

sun- I can so relate to the weight handicap, in a bit of a different way. I love fairs, carnivals and places like six flags, but was and still am horrified to go with friends in the fear of being to fat to fit on a ride that everyone wants to go on. I avoid those things right now saying I have plans, am broke, have school, need to do some work, etc. One of my life goals is to go to all types of fairs, carnivals and places like six flags and ride EVERYTHING. I do hope to make next yr my goal fulfilling year:) I'm so happy for you and your loss. You really are incredible.

I vote no change to the name I agree that I would not of had interest in this forum if I did not realize it was a 300+ room up front. I really feel it's important to express that this is a 300+ room for those that feel lost on here with so many people only needing to lose a small amount of weight or dealing with anorexia.

Ok, so I have been starving the last 10 days. I had a free day last Thursday and than ended up having a free weekend that lasted till about Wednesday. I have decided to up my calories. For one so I don't binge and two so I'm not so hungry. I think my calories have just been to low. I have actually been feeling like I am starving no particular cravings of any sorts, just been making whatever I have to throw together at the house, but just simply starving...I gained 5lbs., but as of this morning am back down 2lbs. Very happy to see that, but have been worried about my weight steadily climbing if I can't re-evaluate whats going on. I do feel a bit more active than I used to be so I know that I am burning more calories which in turn means I need more fuel, so time to up the calories I think.

Thanks for your continued support and encouragement. You guys are great!!

Good Luck Everyone!!

-Ang