Posts by helphelpskinny

what are you guys talking about "fear foods"....... i'm not fearful of cakes, thats just silly. i would eat them at parties and stuff to be polite, but why cant a person just not LIKE something thats too sweet for them?

most of these cakes in america are MUCH too sweet for me. i'm used to the lighter sweet cakes i get from asia............ i dont get why liking "junk food" is a normal thing....... its UNNORMAL to say your fearful of something that you dont like.........

and i'm NOT avoiding high cal food.......  is it WRONG not to like eggs/ cheese/ cake/ chocolate?..... am i WEIRD BECAUSE I HAVE DIFFERENT TASTE PERFERANCE THAN OTHERS ever since i was a CHILD?! yeah, that must be it. i'm that weirdo that doesnt like normal pleasure foods...... ch

and i dont want to START getting used to "junkfood" i never liked before....... why would ANYBODY want to LIKE to eat junkfood that they never liked before? its like saying, " ew, i hate eating poop, but should just eat ti because i wanna gain weight" YUCKK

sorry, but it just ticks me off when people assume something about me thats nto true. the number 1 thing i cant stand are likes + not the truths.

i understand the 2nd part

but "Because there are detrimental effects to health from hyperthyroidism as much there is hypo. "??
so we have to go through detrimental effects to our health to get healthy?

no no no i've had a bodypart fallen asleep alot of times... this was different. and shakey

w/e..

can we FEEL oru muscles losing? how does it feel like?

please i need replies on this...

what if i get these days more than once... should i eat or no?

Oh, and how can i make my thigh muscles come back? leg muscles come back? arm muscles come back?

i lsot alot of muscles..... thats why i'm afraid of gaining weight without exercise b/c i've never been weighted alot without muscles..... i'm scared of flabby ;9

woa...... thanks guys.

i think i'm doing much better than before though. and likei said, i got my period a few days ago (Thous is still real light)......
and exercise..... i just LIKE doing SOMETHING active/../.... i hardly get exausted atall after my lifting and i always eat loads+ more back.

i do eat healthy meals. i DO eat healthy fats (salmon, almond, today, i had pork) i added cheese in my meals and i HONESTLY am trying.
the only setbacks i get are the ones when people force food on me  which for some strange reason makes me want to restrict again............ and my whole "control" problem....... b/c control, effort, stress= 3 big parts of my life, even before "food problems" AND I'M A HUGE WORRY WORT. THE BIGGEST ONE YOU'LL EVER MEET IN YOUR WHOLE LIFE..... everyone says :). i just care too much about EVERYTHING. so i'm considering this meditation class...... maum?..... dunno though

the dr. didnt really consider anorexia/ ED b/c besides the weight, i was perfectly healthy.



and i feel myself getting better @ least i think ihope............ 

sorry fidge if i get to you....... i know i create my own stress and worries.... but thats just the way i've been raised i guess?.... he he.

"she is still working out then.. Right now nothing we say will help her.. She sees something in the mirror we don't see. Like a fold of skin, and they pick themselves apart. I know, because I did it too.. I didn't like this lump here, and I didn't like the hanging skin there. It's a battle a mind battle, and then the ED starts to "Mind F" you as well."------ not true...... i KNOW how i look. and its pretty bad.... and i HATE it when people poitn it out.... i just feel like rebelling and being contridicting when people say EAT MORE YOUR TOO SKINNY b/c i KNOW i do...... why do i want to go against these words though? dunno....
i even LIKE MY OLD SELF BETTER..... and i honestly am trying to eat so much more. and i am. the scale jsut doesnt go up the way i want it too.... and sometimes i get scared of soemthing i desperatly want

and i succeeded in one of my goals: I GOT THE FITNESS AWARD @ school
... (i ran the mile in 7min 22 sec..... YESSSSS :).

sorry for somewhat ranting...... its a good stress reliever?... haha XD so sorry. but its better than running half a marathon like i used to to get rid of stress, right?

wait..

(haha, sorry lala, you've been real supportive, patient, nice)

so.... you want me to count calories AND eat more than 3k cal @ same time??
how do you know i WILL be able to reduce later?...... someppl do become overweight after anorexia b/c of this.....

NEW QUESTION: i want to run. its a stress reliever :*(>... but as for WEIGHT LIFTING... how much should i lift? all i have is a 5 pounder, so i do like 3-4 sets of 15 reps of 4-8 exercizes... that okay?

i do see a dr. 1ce a month.... but we dont communicate well together :/

i honestly have no idea...

i';ve been "estimating" around 2500-3000+.........
but i'm pretty sure tis alot over/under the truth.

i;be been trying to"listen to my bodY" but i STILL cant listen (thus i'll be overweight in the future) ! i keep on eating after i'm soo full, or i dont eat until dinners ready so i can eat yummy dinner.

i'm sickkk of this.

p.s. sorry if i sound really SPAZZY when i type.... tis just the way i type. i may sound over reacting but..... just dont take it THATTT seriously. i just want answers >: [
hm.... and about calories, i dont want to start coundting again.... i just estimate and a whole bunch now, but it ry to eat that 2-3 meat a day, 6-9 whole grain, 3+ fruits(b/ci love fruit), and stuff......... w/e...
i just FEEL fat+ bloated, but my sscale went DOWn. so ANNOYING

dont know what group i'm in..... b/c i'm in the ASAIN group.. we're like completely seperated ......

too bad i'm not a "smart" asain... just the "white-washed" twinkie thats a bit ditsy and stupid?... yeah, i know i'm a stupid- idiot or soemone who pretends to be but stresses over every single little thing in life.... nobody knows what i go through except my family and my closest frieds.

What group did you think i belong to KanKan??? "by the way this paragraph was written"........ b/c the way a person types determins their genius?
you assume i'm in the stupid people group like everyone else thinks...
I dont know what i am though honestly....... I take all the honors courses and managed straight A"s and was accepted into all AP  classes for the next somophore year, but i still think i'm stupid. weird huh? ......... must be low selfesteem issue...... or maybe everyones been calling me stupid or ditsy enough for me to believe them..

i feel like ranting. just hate me. i dont care anymore

oh and i hope i didnt SERIOUSLY offend anyone with my stereotypical coment..... i know its not true, but a part of me felt likei needed to say somethign to get people talking..

i just felt stupid :P (dont we all sometiems)

okay, so i will exercize 2-3 hours a day,

eat more or atleast try

and studyy. and dont be sendentary (move around as i study).....

helphelpskinny writes:

hheeh... sorry, i was comparing ppl to the SMARTEST of our classes..... you know, the ones that are like super genius top 10 students.... they're all friends with eachother in our HS , and NONE of them (even that 1 girl that does run b/c ............. shes underweight constant 6-8mile a day + more runner-problemed than me) is physicially healthy......... they're super unhealthy to the extreme... and very bad at sports........ the people who are good at sports and moderatly smart are not assssss smart as the above harvard-going people......

^^^i'm  glad i wrote that b/c people wrote what i wanted to see :)........ youall motivated me to keep up with exercize everyday for 1-2+ hours..... b/c i can still get good grades or even better this way. yayayayay!!!! XD

WOOOOOO i ate 2000-2500 calories yeseterday, and today, i felt like i had SO MUCH ENERGY. (adn i ate an extra egg for breakfast)

good thing cause today was SUCH A NICE WEATHER. best weather of summer so far......... so i went to run X( couldnt help it. it was nesscessary..... i love running. i honestly do. its not a disorder or anything. i've loved running since 7th grade.

ehh carmenxox: i dont avoid eating more. i do want to eat more, but i used to be overweight (like alot of "ed" sufferers) and i'm scared of gaining more than what i'm suppsoed to or getting a bad eating habit. my dad especially scares me b/c that hypocrite forces me to eat 700 cal+ dinner every day @ 9:oo pm so i cant help it but to measure out my food so i dont feel BLOATED by then. the feeling of bloat scares me... (he';s a hypocrite b/c he's on a starvation diet himself) and it makes it so hard listening to him. he takes 2 spoons of rice for dinner and gives me the rest plus my bowl of rice. he forces me to eat scraps of fat on plates of others..... it gets abusive soemtiesm too.... its like he wants me to be overweight so he can look skinnier. w/e though.

I will give myself the food when i want whenever i want (feel hungry) if it wernt for the dinner thing maybe...... and i DOOOO get more food= more energy for athletes.... its just that i'm a scardy?




"Mile time"= i'm on this athlete list thing @ school..... i get tested and junk.... i NEED to get a mile in under 7min 45 sec..... i'm scared of being lazy and stop being active.... i want to be athletic healthy.... i dont think i am healthy right now, but i try my best to be again... so hard ... i'm rambling i should shut up.

i may have excersize bulemia/ anorexia atheletica, but i'm like this with everything..... i get sooo involved + STRESSED over the littlest things in life. i go nuts over studies more than exercize. all this stress= me not healthy. that makes me quite upset...... i need to try to belike my care-free happy healthy grandpa. he's my role model..s o is my mom except shes not that healthy physicially b/c she doesnt sleep :*(.....

SHUT UP X: hehe. sorry

but those are veggies. they DO ahve calcium, but wont i have to eat like a bagfull just to get lik 5% of calcium?

YAY thanks :)

oh...

could i be weaker in my legs b/c i TRIED to do squats every day?
could that be my real problem?

ohhh i feel stuck. ALL I WANT IS A GOOD MILETIME OVERALL (under 7min 30sec) howw/!?!!
i would also like more ENERGY