Posts by aeropink161

Just wondering what muesli is and where do you get it/how do you make it? everyone keeps mentioning it and I have no idea what it is...

Your given the following ingredients what do you prepare  or eat with them:

1. Brown Rice -chicken and broccoli

2. A bowl of spring mix - ranch dressing and croutons

3. Peanut butter - Peanut butter toast =] (favorite breakfast everrrrrr)

4. Hummus - Never had it

5. Sliced Apples - maybe PB, or maybe just them alone

6. Whole wheat bread - turkey or salomi sandwich

7. Plain Yogurt - granola (vanilla or peak protein), strawberries or bananas

8. Tofu - don't really care for it

Your in the grocery store and have to purchase the following items, what flavor, brand etc do you choose:

9. A carton of icecream - Edy's Mint chocolate chip slow churned

10. A box of cereal - Special K Vanilla with Almonds

11. Bag of frozen vegetables - Green Giant-- love veggies so ANYTHING (one exception=mushrooms)

12. Box of crackers - Wheat thins or club crackers

13. Can of soup - Healthy Choice- Chicken Noodle

14. Frozen meal - Lean Cuisines or Lean Pockets Chicken, cheddar and Broccoli

15. Salad dressing - reduced fat ranch

*Indulge yourself, take out all nutritional dietary concern and select the type of the following you buy

16. Bag of salty snacks - Ruffles potato Chips

17. Bag of candy - Kit kats

18. Baked good from the bakery department: chocolate chip cookies, fruit tart, blueberry muffins, or this amazing chocolate cake from Wegmans...haha too manyyyy

19. Dip or spread (ie: Ranch dip) - Not much of a dip person lol, but I'd say Ranch

20. Kids/Sugary Cereal - Trix or Lucky Charms

1.) I went out to lunch (big achievement)

2.) I ordered a chicken pesto sandwich and ate the ntire 12 inch thing...foccacia bead and allllll ahhhhh

3.) then i came home and ate a giant chocolate chip cookie that my little baked me and i dont even know the caloie content and its sorta killing meeeeeee, but ill live!

thanks for your help...I guess im not too worried then. 

Thanks for the advice, you are so right...def. have some not so nice feelings & thoughts going through my mind.  I would love it if you could send me the adominal exercises that you do!

Im am currently suffering the same problem...any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.  I would love any correspondence as well!!

so...im back!! haha its just way too hard to keep up here.  I just wanted to come on here and boast about how amazing you all are because you have helped me to finally make it over my hump.  I have been seriously trying to increase my cals b/c i had increased to 2000 and then basically relapsed and was stuck at around 1000-1200 and couldn't get myself to take any more than that or tried to increase my walking speed/distance to make up for any extra eating.  For the past 3 days now I have had around 2000-2500 maybe even more and I feel great!! yes I admit not the healthiest choices and I do feel a bit guilty, but I feel like im finally starting to get somewhere.  But point is after reading some of the posts something hit me and I know i just need to stop listening and stop giving in and just get this weight gain over with already.  Thanks to everyone for basically making me realize that there needs to be more to life than just stressing over what to eat or how much i just binged.  Truth is it doesn't matter, personality should be what counts not how fat or skinny i am.  I have to love myself and i cant when im too busy obsessing about food. sorry just needed to put that out there.

THANK YOU ALL & GOD BLESS.

ugh i feel in such a rut.  Its like it's all or nothing.  I feel fat and super guiltyall the time now.  I either eat barely anything or binge like crazy even when Im not hungry.  I open a bag of walnuts and they're gone, same with the chips.  I take a handful and put them away and then in five minutes I can help but go back into he cabinet.  Its like som kind of oral fixation,  need to have some kind of solid or liquid in my mouth at all times.  What's with this?!I also do the swerve thing where at times i stuff my face cause i need to gain and then that vicious cycle of OMG what did I just do, why did I do that?

Aqua- I know how you feel.  I like to flirt a lot, but when it comes togetting close im horrified.  I think its just because im really unhappy with my body right now.  Maybe with theweight gain things will get better.  Good job not purging by the way!! Haa i love breakfast, its my fave meal.  You can totally eat it any time of the day

ahhh im so lost and so behind...sorry guys I haven't posted in awhile, but I can't keep up!! lol.  So busy being a Disney employee :/. 

Just want to congratulate you all for having come so far.  You all seem to be doing so well attending social gatherings, upping cals, eating full fat items, and eating on and off fixed schedules.  You are all so inspirational!! I myself  have been making some progress very slowly, but I am sooo unhappy.  I absolutely hate my stomach and I know it will probably ventually even out, but I cant get past the appearance of it, its huge compared to the rest of me.  I just want my arms and legs to look normal again and be able to eat whatever I want without fear.  I want to be like my friends and be able to eat that slice of chocolate cake even if it's three in the morning.  WHY IS THIS SOOOOOOO DIFFICULT?!! Im trying as hard as I possibly can to inore the thoughts and just keep eating, but it's way harder than I thought.  I mean milkshakes are so damn good, butI just feel too guilty to go through with ordering them.  I know what I am missing, but I cant seem to get past it. ugh im so frustrated right nowwwww

arghh what is wrong with me?! I don't sleep anymore (at most 3.5 hrs a night) & i keep aking up at weird times really really hungry.  I wake up and bunge on trail mix and basically finish the entire bag (4 servings worth!!) Mind you I am never hungry at all during the day (I force myself to eat enough calories anyway though) why is this eating extra coming back to haunt me?!

I guess I just chalk it up to a bad/stressful week.  It seems to be wreaking havoc on all board members lately lol.

& now for comments, sorry its been so long! Im pages and pages behind now

gibbit- Im glad you guys had a great time at the facial and lunch i think it is awesome that you are so close with your mom.  I wish I had that special bond with my mother, but unfortunately she doesn't really understand me & I don't think we will ver get to be that close (don't get me wrong we get along great and I love her dearly, but its just hard for her to see what Im going through) GLad you enjoyed the BBQ as well (no counting is fun right?!) ...oh and sorry about the cat poop, although your story did bring a little chuckle to my day (probably not yours though as you are the one who has to clean it up)

Agru- I know how you feel.  I hate eating when I dislike the food and all I think about is yeah this may be healthy, but my chocolate at home tastes WAYY better and is less calories. 

Xmas- Im going through a rough patch as well, its def. okay to let your feelings show, maybe it will help you as you progress and you seem to be doing okay, just take it one step and one day at a time.  You can do it!

THeo- try not to think about the number of calories and concentrate on getting yourself healthy.  Please feel better, you are a beautiful young lady & you deserve to be happy!!

toast- thanks for the snacking tips, snack jar sounds like a great idea.  I just have a hard time limiting myself to specific portions as I can't tell when I am hungry or not.

Charliebo- I kno whatcha mean, if my bones aren't protruding out from my neck and shoulders I feel ginormous! STUPID ED, don't listen to it!

Alysha- as gibbit has mentioned pay no mind to your ex, he seems to have problems of his own.  You are by far a stronger person now and should not have to put up with that.

fhchicky- mmm mint is my fave as well...sounds like you are on the right track with your eating

SLR- yup, have totally been there...every single day after every single meal.  When Im feeling bloated and fat I ask myself that very question.  Eventually as im told this eating/gaining with eventually lead to a healthier and happier lifestyle & I am choosing to believe that the recovered members who have been saying this are correct. try not to compare yourself to others as we all gro and develop differently and have vast differences in our metabolisms.

Aqua- glad you enjoyed the game, next tim you're out treat yourself to that ice cream, you deserve it girl!!

Wow I feel like it has been forever since I last posted.  I missed it here :(.  I finally started work and its been rather difficult trying to fit in all my calories.  I like some of you am having trouble making myself eat high calorie meals im so used to six small 200-300 calorie snacks and I now just don't have time for that anymore.  I need to get over these absurd fears and live my life!!

psycho- Sorry to hear you're so ill.  My mom used to make me drink coke or ginger ale when I felt sick... dk, but maybe that will work for you.

Agruskin- I'm sure the interview went even better than you think.  Our minds are playing tricks on us and esp when you are nervous you tend to think you did worse than you did.  As long as you gave it your best shot that is all that matters and if they don't higher you it is their loss.  It may even work out to your benefit and you end up finding a job you love even more.  That is actually hat happened to me.  I applied for a job at a advertising and publicity agency and then I didn't get the job I ended up applying for this Disney Internship and it was one of the best decisions ever.  Granted I'm not getting paid much, but I am having the best time here getting to go to the parks all the time (when it isn't raining due to Fay).  I just found out that the advertising job was unpaid and they were only accepting two Northeastern students, so I guess I actually lucked out!  I know about the whole schedule thing.  Lunch is always my biggest problem.  I have to plan it exact, so that it's not to close to breakfast or dinner.  I freak out if I don't hav anything in me b/w 12-1:30.  weird I know! haha.  As far as the bathroom probs., Im sure it's nothing to worry about.  Just eat as you have been and your body will work it's way through it.

relena- PLEASE keep posting.  I am very interested to hear what you have to say and I just ish the best for you as we all really want you to succeed and recover.  It is a very scary time, I am in the exact same place as you.  It is important though that even though you may be scared you need to try to get as many cals as you can in there esp. if you continue dancing.  It sounds insane that they want you to lose more weight as you look very tiny in your profile pics.

aqua- I 100%.  I don't really get happy to lose weight, just maintaining where I am now.  Gaining on the otherhand, I know I need to, but when I see the numbers rising it almost makes me feel out of control.  Like I'll eat so much it will all go right to my stomach and I will kepp gaining and never stop. stupid ED, when will it go away?!?!

aussie- Good job going out of your element and helping your mom to celebrate her birthday! 

Hope everyone is having a magical night!! (Yes, I am a park greeter and I must say that!! lol)

Finally in Florida & finally have access to the internet...wow it's gonna take me forever to catch up, ya miss so much being gone for a week and a half lol.  sounds like everything is going swimmingly. Not so much for me, feeling a bit discouraged as I haven't been able to count and am probably eating way under my calorie alotment. :(

So excited though they're having a welcoming party and for once in my life Im ctually not too worried. Yes there's going to be pizza and soda, but I have eaten so healthily that I think I will allow myself a treat of a slice or two.  You guys are so inspirational...just want to thank you all!!

THe broccoli and cheese thing souns delish, although Im not really a big fan of cheese (seriously scarred for life when walking through what I consider the smelliest aisle in the grocery store lol, just kidding).  What kind of B&J...do they have all flavors...have yet to try cheery garcia, but it'd be the perfect xcuse to get some if it comes in a small container, so if I dislike it, which I pretty much doubt will happen, I don't have to worry about wasting.

Yes, I force myself to eat as well even when Im not hungry and even then I seem to have a hard time managing to squeeze in enough cals.  I find that having one little nibble tends to lead me to being very hungry about 15 mins. later though (weird right?).

Eggs, oh yes I had a tough time conquering them as well, but you managed to surpass your fears of pancakes and eggs are wayyy more beneficial.

BTW, You guys are so right, enough is enough! I need to seriously stop worrying about numbers (both cals and scales) and just live my life.  I totally agree angeleyes, I was looking through old pics and I looked a lot better when I had some weight on my bones, why couldn't I just appreciate it when I had the chance?! and same with the whole wishing to be super skinny so I could eat whatever I wanted...not much of a priviledge if you ask me.  Well Im of to florida tomorrow with the fam and then next week I start my internship, so you might not hear from me for awhile, but I wish you all the best of luck...just keep at it and eventually you will meet your goals!

what kind of dried fruits do you guys choose?! I tried dried peaches a while back and I have to say I'm not really a fan.  I think I want to try dried bananas and apples.  I can't get past the look of dried apricots though :/.

I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to be doing down in Florida.  I got the job of role hopper which I think means I will be put wherever they need me.  A little bit of rides, some merchandising, food and bev, and maybe main entrance operations.  It'll be nice to be around people though as I seem to coup myself up here.  I actually found out about this program through my school.  I am currently attending Northeastern University which has a year long program where you just do 6 month long (or in my case only five month) internships (they call it co-op).

Aqua- I know what you mean with the peanut butter, it is a fear of mine as well as I cannot seem to stick to only a 2 tbsp portion.  It's like potato chips, you can't have just one lol. 

My family used to be the same well my mom would choose the meal the day of and that's what everyone would have to eat.  I have two sisters and we all became really picky and my mom just got frusterated and so that changed throughout middle school/High School.  My little sister is the worst she only likes like five things, chicken nuggets, fruit loops, crackers, hot dogs, chips, and fries.  Shes so damn skinny too, but the worst eater.  I mean she'll occasionally eat some carrots or celery or even a small caesar salad.  I'm really worried about her and hope she decides to change her lifestylfe, but who am I to tell her what to eat when I lost way too much weight eating healthy and am now way smaller than my little sister.  the point is we started eating out more often and I think that's when my ED started to develop as I was gaining weight and starting college def. was no help.  Anyways enough about my boring life, the point was I wish I could back to the days where my mom cooked for us and I knew what to expect for the week, maybe I wouldn't worry about my calories throughout the day as much.

wow, it sees to be getting harder and harder for me to keep up with this thread! lol.  psychoj, so glad you enjoyed your vacay.  That does seem like a very active trip.  When I go away with my fam all they do is eat and lay around.  Agru, sorry the date didn't turn out so well, but it's def the a step in the right direction and as they say there are plenty of fish in te sea.  Yes, the new kashi entrees and sandwiches are amazing!! good for if you tend to be the type who has several meals throughout the day because they are roughly 240-300 cals.  Have yet to try the pizza, waiting for someone to come split one with me as I know they are pretty large.  As for the Edys, I love mint chip and I just tried the choc. fudge...so so so good! Definitely good when rying to up those cals!  Suzyroo- just keep at it, you're doing great! Try and keep yourself distracted so that you don't overexercise, maybe watch Tv or a movie or find some kind of art project to do.  Or if your way OCD like me start to clean lol.

As for me, I seem to be driving myself insane.  I posted about this earlier, but I'm going to be working in Disneyworld for the next five months and I'm so nervous that I will gain too much weight cause I can only assume about the eating habbits of working in a theme park.  No time for food, so have to grab a hot dog or something :( ...gross (sorry to those who thoroughly enjoy them, they are one of my danger foods).  I just wish I could relax and not think about how I am going to be around the food for once!! I want to learn to eat healthy and enjoy all the goodies in moderation.  I just know that being around people eating junk all day will not be so great because I have little to no will power against it.  Overall, I am probably just getting myself worked up and it will be fine and I'll be too busy to even think about it.