Posts by psychoj

1) what's your favorite flavour of frosted mini-wheat?: probably bite sized plain

2) what's your favorite flavour of special k cereal?: when I was anorexic, I used to have the red berries kind almost every single day! So now they bring back awful memories and I do not eat them and haven't eaten them in forever :-)

3) what's your favorite kind of berry?: how can you choose??!! But if I HAD to, blueberries all the way!

4) what's your favorite flavour of icecream?: anything with peanut butter and chocolate...but it needs to be all natural or organic ;)

5) what's your favorite shape of pasta? why?: I love rotini, it feels so cool when you eat it :-)

6) of the four food groups, which food group is your favorite?: FRUIT

7) what food within that food group is?: probably apples, but I pretty much love them all

8) what's your favorite kind of apple?: GALA

9) what's your favorite kind of squash?: zucchini or butternut

10) what's your favorite way to cook eggs (or egg whites)?: in a pan with some salt and pepper and cheese....love them in omelets...the possibilities are endless!

11) what's your favorite snack?:either a big organic apple...or dark chocolate with PB

12) what's your favorite way to eat potatoes (mashed, french fries, etc)?:baked/roasted...

13) what are your favorite vegetables to put on sandwiches/subs?: tomato, avocado, mushrooms, celery...LOTS! ;)

14) what's your favorite flavour of yogurt?: love all kinds, esp. vanilla

15) what's your favorite thing to pair chocolate with (wine, fruit in a fondue, etc)?: PB all the way :D

Slr-Do not worry about sugar too much :D Just focus on getting enough calories. You will not die from an overdose of sugar from dried fruit. Trust me, I ate LOADS of it during weight gain and I am still here! Dried fruit+me=HAPPY JESS :D

Around 2 weeks with the pain through my leg. Before that, a few months with the "real" knee pain, but I worked through that and it recovered. I am just mad that I keep getting injured and am trying to figure out how to exercise smarter! Thanks for replying!

Aquaev-Holy smokes, CONGRATS! That sounds like an amazing night! Wish we could have all been there with you...You are right! We can eat like that and NOT gain weight. Now if we do every moment of the day then...But amazing job! I think that was a HUGE step :D This week has been sort of the same. Been taking it easy b/c of the leg, but I have been super hungry/just wanting food!!! And, I've been giving into my needs b/c it is my body talking! I am going through a "growing time." People have been commenting that I seem to be taller :] We deserve treats! Great job and congrats again!

Agruskin-I (we) will miss you!!! Best of luck xxx

Aussie-Sorry to hear about the back. Take it from someone who has had terrible back problems, I understand, but it will get better if you just REST AND RICE :] But maybe go to the doc too?

Lulu-Have fun but do not back down! Keep on eating, no matter where you are!

Lala-Great job!!! You are all doing sooo well :]

Doing really well lately! Will post in more excess tomorrow :] Bye and goodnight!

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Food update only...sorry, but I will reply later :]

Breakfast-Whole Grain Zucchini Bread w/ smart balance; organic apple

Lunch-Chicken salad sandwich (chicken breast, light mayo, worcestershire, salt and pepper, fresh basil, green apple pieces, and of course whole wheat bread!); apple; (all natural) pretzels

After lunch I cleaned up the kitchen and decided to bake something, so I made whole wheat cupcakes w/ chocolate butter cream frosting/powdered(sp?) sugar and they are AMAZING! They smell like allspice and cinnamon...

Snacks-Cupcake w/frosting (they are small and shaped like stars b/c I used star shaped tins!); apple

I cannot stay and chat...it is almost midnight, but I will post tomorrow!

I got my period!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will tell you all about it tomorrow :P

Hey girlies (and guys)!!! I am doing really well, amazing actually...I do not feel 100% today but that is ok. I cannot go to church b/c mom is sick though :( No nursery for me today. Yesterday was good, but I ate a lot in order to make up the calories I did not eat on Friday. (not really restricting just was with the BF and did not want to get up :) ) So yesterday I weighed and it said 7.7 pounds and I was still like backed up and needing to go! Today it read 110.something and guess what?! IT DID NOT EVEN BOTHER MY ONE BIT! We all fluctuate :) And I only ate an extra 800 cals yesterday so...there is no weigh (hehehe) that I could have gained 3 pounds from that! So it is all good! Feeling strong :]

Aquaev-Hey! Sounds like you are doing pretty well! Glad to hear ballet was ok :] It will redistribute..trust me! It could take some time, but it will. I too have a butt again! Although I want it to stay. My whole lower body (butt thighs hips etc) is very built and muscular so I am okay with it. You will be ok too! Stop looking at yourself in a degrading way! You hear me?! Do not do it :] You are beautiful :]

Slr-Sorry about the parents. That must be a real drag. Cinnamon aiding weight loss? Weird...I love cinnamon. But I bet you would have to eat a truckload at every meal to loose real weight! I agree with Aquaev I think you should show the post to your mom...maybe it could do some good to see a therapist too? :]

Xmas-Although you see today as a bad thing, I think it is an AWESOME THING! You ate 2500 calories! I am SO proud of you...but you still need to go to the doctors FOR SURE. You are on the verge of death basically. You have kids you need to be here for right? Use them as motivation :]

Saykyoku-Amazing job!!! Pizza is yummy and normal HEALTHY people eat it too. I had some like a week ago at my sleepover and you know what, I am still here today. I did not gain from it at all and I did not pass out. In fact, my friend(s) and I had a pizza/coke fight that was HILARIOUS :] Great job again :]

I do have to disagree with you all on the fats. My nutritionist told me NOT to go below 25% and that would be considered low fat anyways. And during recovery, EAT ALL THE FAT YOU WANT! Trust me I know I did...I still eat sometimes as much as 4-5 T of all natural/organic PB a DAY :]

You all are amazing and you are all beautiful :] Good day!

Agruskin-Glad to see that your motivated :] I love that! You want a life. A life with a boyfriend and/or a social life! Yay for salmon...that is my favorite fish!!! Amazing job making it to 2500! WOOOOHOOOO :]

Charliebo-You seem to be doing awesome! I love your yummy looking food :] I bet you are enjoying your new "not obsessed with exercise" outlook on life! That is not the way life should be at all! Great job :]

Welcome dana! Hope you find this place to be very warm and inviting. Feel free to post as much as you want and need! :]

Gibbit-Yeah I agree. It is a good thing it is not too active. We need to live our lives :D Have a great night and I hope you feel happier! Try and destress, maybe some yoga?

Got to go relax as it has been a busy, but awesome day! Hope you all are overcoming these ed and starting to live, love, and be happy again. You all are so incredibly strong and I have SO MUCH FAITH in you that you can recover. :] You all are AWESOME!

I have a sleepover tomorrow night at my house w/ almost all the girls in my class and it should be so much fun! Then on sat. I am going to my boyfriends football game. Phew! I will post as soon as I can! Luv you all...

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Aquaev-YAY for whole foods. Congrats on conquering that sample! I never ever used to eat the samples. Not even the fruit! I was worried over like 20 extra calories. How insane is that? But anyways, congrats on that and I am glad things with your fam is all good :]

Aussie-I have only tried the LIGHT activias and that was a while ago, and I was not the hugest fan of them. Tastes like chemicals in a bottle to me! :/ If you were to get some, get the real, not LIGHT kind! I bet that one tastes better... :]

xmasbaby-I have to agree w/ la. You really need some sort of outside help other than just yourself. I would suggest inpatient/outpatient. Really anything would be good though! ED are very hard to defeat w/o help from others. (Not saying that it is not possible!) Good luck and focus on your kids. I am sure they mean the world to you :]

Agruskin-That nutritionist was literally a nut! I totally think you need to go for it and eat 2500+! Come on, you need to do it for your health and happiness. No one should be gaining weight on 2000 for this long! You can do it girlie :]

Theo-I think that is funny! Great job for you and your friend to stand up for yourself :] Others comment and really do not understand what they are saying and how hurtful it is! But you handled it in a great way. Awesome job! :]

Likear-Sounds like it was awesome!!! Take me with you next time, k? I also have made list(s) about that. It is really helpful. In fact, I have a journal about it if you want to look at it maybe it will give you some ideas? Have a good night :]

Gibbit-WOOOOOHHHOOOOO!!! I know you might be feeling like crap right now, but I am SOOO proud of you. White pasta took me a while to get over. Great job! I think one of the most important aspects of recovery is learning how to just go with the flow of life. You know what I mean....You seem to be doing amazing with it though. Keep up that amazing work :]

I love putting smilies at the end of comments :] :] :] K...off to go memorize bible verses for my Religious Studies quiz tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Today:

Breakfast-Whole wheat english muffin w/ organic jam and organic peanut butter, apple

Lunch-Organic peanut butter and jelly on ww bread, organic apple, Kashi TLC crackers...

Snacks-Grapes, apple, yogurt

Dinner-organic oatmeal w/ organic peanut butter, banana, and all natural dark chocolate! (AMAZING) (oh and on Sunday night dinners I am on my own food wise. The kitchen is closed!)

Snacks-Yogurt, grapes, fruit, ice cream...

Not the most balanced day >.< Anyone have any suggestions to make on breakfast/lunch/snacks? (Dinner is usually cooked by me/mom/dad for my whole family and it is balanced. My mom keeps us healthy :] )

Slr-Great job! Eating is fun, isn't it? Indian food, hmm! Never really had it! Is it really yummy? What are the major foods of India? Like what is a typical meal like that you make? Sorry, lots of questions!

Agruskin-As hard as it is, I think that is a really good thing that you realize how badly you look. That was something that I never realized until late in my recovery! I just wanted my life back and weight gain came with that obviously. I love getting my nails done! I actually painted my nails/toenails today :] All sorts of crazy colors because they make me happy! Do not worry about the 'B' average. We should not get too caught up on that. It does not know our bodies all that well anyways. Only we do!

Theo-Great job on those eggs! I remember when I was deathly afraid of them too. Only like one at a time. But now I am just fine with eating 2, maybe even three, but that might be a bit much egg smell ;-) I think you rock too!

Dragon-Yeah, although I was not one of those people to reply about the protein, you definitely DO NOT need that much. I have heard like 1/2 your weight in protein, but that is for adults. (I do not remember how old you are sorry!) Also protein can be very filling therefore it might not be best for weight gain. Carbs are probably your best bet. Screw that whole "Low carbs and loving it" mentality. That is a pile of crud. :-) You seem to have a very positive attitude and I love that!

Aussie-Glad to hear the nutritionist went well! That seems like a very good idea. Just adding a snack or two and that can easily add like 500 calories!

Peanut_butter-Of course we missed you :-) Kit-Kat...haven't had one of those in a while! I do not remember them being my favorite anyways. Gaining and building muscle. Cool! I have been trying to do similar things with my legs. I have gained a lot more strength in them so I am happy :) You were never and are not fat, but I hope you find a new found happiness in your body by working out! Good luck!

I am doing pretty well today. I have gained around a pound and half, but 1) I probably need it since my body is growing! and 2) I had a lot of salt yesterday b/c we had like nothing here but rice cakes and regular peanut butter and pretzels, so no wonder I am retaining water/salt! But we went shopping today and I am back to my natural peanut butter and fruits and veggies, etc. so all good :) No worries. No need to get all worked up over a number on the scale. I am happy and healthy so NOTHING to worry about! You all are amazing, just to let you know! You are so positive and helpful!

Oh and I worked nursery today after my Sunday school class at church. It was so much fun! We had around 12 babies and that was not even the whole class! I have the 12-16th month olds :-) I love kids...Have an awesome night tonight you all!

Today SO FAR-

Breakfast-Two whole grain waffles w/ cream cheese and organic blueberry jam/spread...grapes and strawberries

Lunch-Broccoli cheese soup, piece of organic bread w/ BUTTER

Snacks-Organic apple, Fiberone yogurt

Dinner-Peanut butter sandwich w/ A.N. pb and WW bread, Kashi crackers, and grape

Charliebo-Thanks for asking! School is actually going really really well. I really like all my teachers and classes. I also am right next to my boyfriends locker so that makes it nice, along with 2 classes with him. The homework load is not bad at all. I mean, it is managable while having a "life." I actually am not afraid to say that I like school! Lol...And as for after school/extracuricular activites does watching the middle school guys play soccer while I play hoops count? :] But yeah, I go to games, practices sometimes when my mom has a meeting. My mom is works at the school and I have to stay late(r) sometimes. Really, I feel like I live a busy life! No shortage of excitment that is. I will start basketball in ~2 months and then soccer after that season. I also made service prefect for the eighth grade. I will work with the other grades representatives and create ideas/things to do for service stuff like community service and such.

Aquaev-Your food today sounds really yummy! You are right, it does not sound/look like a lot :| It has been kind of hard to find a set schedule for eating and the like. I mean, I need to get up earlier and bring snacks and pack a good lunch, but I feel like I just have no time! And I hate it when people use that excuse. I kind of feel like a hyprocrite LOL! But just forget about the 1/2 pound flunctuation. That is like..just what Agruskin said..a little blurp. Not as a mistake blurp but just like nothing! Not even a pound. Maybe try a blind weigh in next time? Really, there is nothing to worry about! You are probably not going to be 10_? whatever you are now. You should NOT be that weight forever. That would be unhealthy! Have a great night and feel better girlie :]

Gibbit-I love love LOVE lemon bars. Would you mind giving me the recipe? Pretty please with peanut butter on top? :D Oh and about the gaining weight and never stopping, it really is not that hard. I mean is it easy, certainly NOT! But you really do not have anything to worry about. You will be able to maintain just fine. :] Do not worry about the future though. Worry about yourself, right there, right now! Have a great night/morning/whatever it is there!

Will post again later :] You all are awesome!

Fhchicky-Congrats on the soccer! I love sports so I completely understand. That breakfast sounds really good too!

Toasttoasttoast-About the Ensure. I have never actually had them, and gained all twenty of my pounds without any supplement foods/drinks. I have heard mixed feelings towards them. The positive is that once you are done gaining, you can simply cut them out of your diet and you will barely notice. Also, it is an easy way to get cals in. BUT the negative is that they are often nasty tasting and not appetizing. Everyone is different, so you may like them...I would personally suggest eating real, whole foods. But that is just me :]

Likear-Yay for friends at gyms :] Glad to hear that you are doing so well. It sounds like you are really enjoying yourself there. I almost wish I could too!

Peanut_butter-Aw! I hate to hear that you are doing badly :[ *HUGS* I hope you feel better soon though...life is worth so much more than this. Life should not be dictated by how much we weigh/eat/exercise. You make life what it is. If you choose to let yourself just let go and throw away everything you have worked through during recovery, that is your choice. No one can make you do anything. Life is just...so worth it girl! You want to be out there and living it right? Then fight that freaking ED! Tell it to honestly go to heck. Be the strong girl I know you are. You have already gone through and overcome so many things. Do NOT stop now. You can do this :] *HUGS AGAIN*

Dragon-Welcome to the weight gain forum! Hope you find this place very helpful and feel free to post whenever you would like! Oh and do not worry about being long at all. Ready set, BEGIN POSTING! :]

Will post later the food. It has been a very good day so far though... ;) :] :D

Agruskin-Sorry to hear about the salad issue. Although I bet you do have some portion size problems, that it truly was too much. But good job anyways! I really need to try that salad...I hate it when they call it "grilled" when it really isn't! Try and have some though. Just think about how far you have come. You are not going to let some chicken get in the way! You can do it girl. Cannot wait to hear how about how good it was :] Go go go! Oh and I always feel better after showering! Always...

Charliebo-I do not either! But great job having some juice! Listening to your body is always BEST. So proud of you!

Gibbit-Sorry to hear about the stomach :[ Black bean soup? Sounds good, but I guess that sound can be deceiving!

Aussie-It really does make me feel that way! I never ever EVER want to go back :] Seems like you are doing really well! Great to hear about college. Keep on gaining and you can join those teams!

Slr-Sorry about the parents. *HUGS* It is not your fault and I love what Gibbit said (at least I think it was her!) about separating parental issues and food. They really should not connect. Just take it one day at a time and you will get through this. Keep on truckin'

Well, this day has been loads of fun! My friends came over and swam and played basketball. I have had a TON of activity today and I am pooped. Between all the basketball, swimming, biking, and whatever else I did I am completely wiped. But I am going to eat a lot tonight while trying to listen and blah blah blah :] I have a N app. on Wed and I need to have at least maintained and probably gained a bit!

Will try and post later!

Agruskin-Agreed 10000%! I have PB sometimes three times a day and I could definitely manage more. Oh and you are so welcome. Anytime :] Have a great night!

Likear-Congrats on a great time and the two BIG triumphs. Nothing small about them. I actually used to fear eggs too! I talked to my N about it and she said that they are actually great for you and full of magnesium/iron...do not remember which or it may have been both. But anyways, ever since I have been eating them. Just like tonight I had TWO! Whoops got off talking about you, sorry about that! Well, welcome back and it will be fun getting to talk to you again :]

Snacks-Organic apple, kashi cookie spread w/ organic PB and all natural dark chocolate square

Snacks-Grapes and blueberries, cut up apple w/ cinnamon sprinkled over it!

Have had a great, yummy food day today. I love it! Managed to get ~2800 cals in. Between the basketball and BABYSITTING four kids, I deserve it. Off to get some much needed rest. You all rock. Goodnight!

XOXOXO

Agruskin-I definitely get your wanting to get a job and move out. I am sure they are nice people, but they really should help you out a bit! As for dinner, what do you have? Maybe go out by yourself or go to the grocery store! Treat yourself. You deserve it. It would drive me bonkers, so I bet you are one of the most patient people! And I have not had my snack yet. I am at ~2000....although I am just going to listen to myself and have what I want :] But it needs to equal at least 2500-2800!(hopefully the latter) I have a nutritionist app. and I cannot weigh less! That would be really bad....Anyways, I am so eating again, I love my night snacking :] Try and hang it there. *HUGS*