Posts by lesm32

I haven't been counting, but for the past few days I've probably been having around 1000 calories. I know I know this is bad (I know all about starvation mode and stuff and I'm not really trying to lose/gain/do anything with my weight), but I just haven't been hungry/haven't had time/haven't had money recently, and this isn't a regular thing. From a health/science/nutrition point of view, though, I just think it's odd that I've been pooping A LOT still.

Hey,

I can totally relate. Though I feel the same way about my weight gain (not too much but suddenly I feel SOOO much bigger/uglier), if I look at it objectively I think I can say pretty confidently that it's in my head. I wish I could share ways to get over this distorted mental image, but I'm struggling with that as well. All I can say is I wish you the best of luck, and I'm glad you at least recognize that you are developing bullimic tendencies and are seeking help to avoid them :)

Best wishes.

this isn't going well. i've managed to lose two pounds despite telling myself i want to recover. i just can't bring myself to eat, and i can't help but feel like i'm lying to everyone on here, and lying to myself. and i've had a really bad day too. as in, the reasons why my ED started in the first place (nothing related to food or weight, incidentally) were just all over the place today.

ugh, i'm really starting to feel like there's no way out. i would appreciate any words of encouragement. =/

hey guys. just checking in. i haven't really gained much these past two weeks. i went up from 99 to 102, but i've been now going from between 101-102. my doctor's goal for me is 108. (i'm 5'4'')

i think i'm going to try something new and start not weighing myself. i actually managed to go a day yesterday without doing it, which i'm quite proud of! haha. maybe now i'll just say that my first goal will be to be able to fit back into these size zero jeans--it's now starting to disturb me that they're loose on me. i'll go by pant size then, instead of weight, or else im not sure if i'll ever stop being controlled by the scale.

Nope, no past medical conditions. Just a product of bad self-esteem coupled with some stressful times, I suppose, though who really knows.

Thanks for the advice! It's helpful for me to hear some specifics about what and when to eat, since a lot of times I just get so confused about eating the right thing or the right way that I end up not eating at all. I will try to get some of these things next time I go shopping.

get a new scale

Hi everyone. I just got back from seeing my OB/GYN and she told me I have stopped ovulating, and essentially my body is going through menopause. It was interesting because my mom was with me and she actually is going through menopause.

Anyway, the official diagnosis of anorexia nervosa was comforting in a way, because previously a part of me always wanted to deny that I had a problem. But now I'm convinced, and ready to change.

i agree with eveliina. this sounds like you could have bdd (body dysmorphic disorder). man, i just saw a documentary on bbc about it.. made me cry. what they did to treat people like that in the documentary was to just gradually wean themselves off of the things they were constantly turning to, for ex, wearing less and less makeup or trading sunglasses for see-through glasses and eventually nothing at all. i'm not sure if this applies to you, but maybe... just gradually carry fewer mirrors? make it a goal to look at yourself in the mirror less frequently?

also in the documentary, they sorta tried less to convince the (very normal-looking and in fact quite attractive!) sufferers that they weren't ugly, but just that appearances didn't matter as much as they thought.

iono what to say though. i'm sorry to hear about this and i wish you all the best :)

hm, i don't see why it would be awkward (maybe i'm missing something?). i'd just tell them you want to get more in shape and healthier. i'm sure they'd appreciate that.

i definitely agree planning is a good idea. and if not planning out your meals exactly, then i think tracking what you eat, but with a healthy amount of calories as the goal, is good. that's basically what i've been doing. it gives me that similar impression of control i had when i was really bad into my ED and desperately trying not to go above 200 a day. but at least now i'm getting healthy.

Well this isn't that weird, but when I crave stuff, it's almost always warm fluffy carb-y things. The weird part I guess is that I often crave... watching people eat warm fluffy carb-y things. (Yay for youtube + pancake eating contests). Is that really that weird? Yeah I guess it is.

Hello! New here.

Age: 17

Weight: 105 lbs

Height: 5 foot 4 inches

Goal Weight: I just want to maintain.

I'm recovering from an ED and am trying to walk the fine line (for me) between food paranoia and uncontrollable bingeing.