Posts by trigirl333

Chirpp- Yeah, it's great that someone else on the forum has the same passions as I do!

All the time. Usually people don't say anything, but I get funny looks. I bet that your team mates just don't realize that they eat about the same amount. Most people don't really count calories after they exercise because they go home ravenous. Plus, active teenagers eat a lot without even noticing it. 3000 calories may sound like a big number, but if you want to be a successful athlete, then that's pretty much what you need to take in. We are really similar. I constantly challenge myself and get so frustrated when I don't do well. I work my butt off. I care what other people think of me. I worry that I'm eating too much and won't do well. I'm struggling through it, but the thing that you have to remember is that you can't compare your needs to someone else's (I should really listen to my own advice sometimes). Plus, you're eating more because you still need to gain. As long as you are doing well and not passing out, then you should feel confident and accept that it is where you should be right now. Every day at swimming, I compare myself to the other girls, but it ends up making me feel so much worse. I am endeavoring to stop doing this, but it is a process. I empathize with you. You just need to focus on getting healthy and doing the best YOU possibly can. I sincerely hope this helps! Feel free to message me any time!

Lala- Thanks again. I just am always beating myself up over little things and it drives my parents crazy. They can't understand why I do it. Every day is a battle in my mind. Oh well, I guess it'll just take some time. 

lala- Thanks. I've never really wanted to recover for myself. I just do it so my parents and younger siblings don't have to worry about it. I realize that if I want to get better, then I need to do it for myself, but if it didn't let people down, I would be starving myself again. My mom takes me to the appointments every week, and she has met the therapist. She does not like her any better than I do, but as we moved here a few months ago, we don't really know anywhere to look. We are trying to find a new therapist, but until we do I am stuck with the one I have now.

Hey everyone-

Well, my nutritionist said that I still need to gain more weight. She said that my goal weight before was the lowest weight that would keep me out of inpatient. I'm still a little freaked out because I'm relatively comfortable where I am right now. I see the adolescent medicine doctor on Tues. I really hope she will let me do sports becuase I really want to do a fall sport for school. I am moving to a new state in a week, and I have been going to a lot of going-away parties. They really stress me out becuase I usually have no idea what we are going to be eating. I have another one today and I can infer that we will be having pizza or hot dogs!!! :(

So far I have eaten...

Breakfast- 1/4 cup egg whites, 2 T Mozzarella cheese, W.W. mini bagel, 1 T blackberry jam

Snack- Strawberry Crumble Luna bar, granola bar

Lunch- W.W. pita, 1 oz turkey, 1 slice reduced fat provolone cheese, plum, peach

Hi-

I am so scared today. I have already been forced to eat at parties all week, but tonight I have to go to dinner at Cracker Barrel with my grandma! I really want to restrict all day, but I know I shouldn't. I hate being put in positions like this!!!

I'm new at this! I'm a 13 year old girl.

Height- 5'4

LW- During ED probably 88

CW-94

GW-102 (Bare Minimum)

Thanks! I am focusing on gaining right now,  but it is difficult with all the ED thoughts. It's really difficult because I stunted my growth through starvation and I've never got my period. I'm going through a rough time. Thanks again!