Posts by liveyourlife101

Wonderful advice, thank you tessa1223 and merylwhite1!

Tessa 1223 gives great advice, listen to her! But congats man!

Seriously, fidget? Wow, i thought they wouldnt take me at such a 'high' bmi as compared to other anorexics. I thought they'd push me aside to make room for the 12-13 bmi category.

Is my life at risk by throwing up so much?

Reguardless, i am going to the hospital tomorrow ASAP.

Oh, im so sorry to hear all of this!

You need to have more respect for yourself though. A man should always treat a woman like gold - and this clearly isn't whats happening in your life right now.

I need to point out a major red flag - this is where eatng diorders start. Yes, you are overweight but i can see the beginnings of bulimia at work. I am so very concerned for you and your mental health - please i urge you to seek out the help of your doctor and/or psychologist!!!

Best of luck, mommy of 2. Be strong for your children.

good thought...except i dont work out that much...

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Definately talk to your doctor. Try taking beano and lactobacillipylarus (i think its called) which are good - gut - bacteria pills!

Also, try to stay away from more fiberous fruits/ veggies and stick with more starchy ones, it should also help.

Youre definately not at a healthy weight, at all so i suggest you pack in those calories more than what youve been getting. 2500 calories at least sedentary, and dont do any strenuous exercises. You are only 15, so we hope youll just fill out more since you have lots of time to grow but really, you need to be eating alot more.

Try trail mix, nuts are so good with a little chocolate bits put in... really healthy and high calorie, they will not make you look bloated since they are very dense.

Hope that helps!

I didnt mean to act "pro-ana/mia" at all as i am so against it, its just how i feel. Im certrainly in NO WAY asking for help lowering my weight.. i should have phrased it differently, im just in need of support from people who have lived through this.

In my opinion, this website in itself is a lifesaver with everyone being so wonderful and understanding, so thank you all!

You bet i will! I fought a long and hard battle with my parents getting her for a reason! :-) Thanks!

Ive had so many blood tests recently and everything came back fine. Im sure it was a palpitation though, i just think i need to try and fuel up on the go more.

It was on top of my errands, yes. My bmi is 19.8 now, so i choose to exercise alot more. (Mind you, i eat 2500 cals to maintain my weight with this exercise by the end of the day-always.)

Although, im not sure im burning that much because ive heard the calorie counts on the gym machines are way off as much as 50%? So i may be just burning 300, i dont really know, even though i input my weight/age.

thx lala

hi- thanks to both. 

i know what i think is going on here. I used to be 114, and now im 129 i feel like i have lost control, agru, that i let my weight balloon up. (even tho i did it on purpose.) i know this is so wrong, but i cant help but think that ive failed and i so desparately want to regain that (false) sense of control again. 

Thanks for the replys!

Im 5'10, 127 lbs at the moment. Im so desparately good at counting calories that i know how much approxiamtely is in everything i eat! Rice, chicken, added calories in for the oils cooked with it... im way too technically skilled for my own good i wish i didnt even start in the first place!

Im trying to count food groups lately but its not working too well... :(

Thanks lala - you really are great, you do know that dont you?

Its just that, i have been averaging 2500cals/day with an average (intentional) binge of 7000 cals/week. Every week, for the past 6 months. Although i have gained a little weight, it by no means adds up to the whole 3500cal/lb thing. 

I used to be 114lbs, now im 119.8 lbs... small, but an improvment. I love the way i look and feel- i really do! (I never would have thought that of myself 6 months ago, weird how we can surprise ourselves in wonderful ways hey?) 

I want to honestly gain more weight, it just does not add up. I think that if this was in the beginning of my recovery, id agree with you 100% about the metabolism revving, but its been this way for months on end. Shouldn't my body realize by now that its never going to be starved again?

Hey thanks for the reply!

your suggestions were really great, but most of the stuff you mentioned i have a few issues with hahha...

i dont have girlfriends unfortunately anymore. (the big problem i ran into last year.  Depression and an ED were the results of that.) Travel? i hate it! (i know weird right?!) i dont have time for a job because im studying so hard this year... i need to get into a good university and become a dermatologist. I have a horse which i really love, but i unfortunately cant see him much because im studying so freaking hard...

But i will write a list like you said of things i want to do... and i WILL do them because thats the person ive always been- (get-up-and-just-do-it!) :-)

And i just wanted to say...

*tear* Thank you so much. Your comment just made my day so much brighter.. it really turned it around.

God Bless