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| Weight Gain | Time taken for weight loss affects weight gain? | Dec 16 2008 14:30 (UTC) |
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Dolly, I've been reading your posts for a couple of months now and am growing increasingly concerned. There always seems to be an excuse as to why you are not able to take action and I don't think you realize how serious this disease is. The matter as to whether or not there is a local IP clinic is irrelevant. You may simply need to be hospitalized in order to save your life. There is also the possibility of going elsewhere for treatment. I relocated to another state to undergo residential. The symptoms you are presently describing mirror my own just before I went into multiple organ failure and was placed in intensive care in a semi-coma, not expected to make it through the night. Christmas happens every year, but the world would at a loss without Maria. |
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| Foods | fave not so normal fruit? | Dec 13 2008 14:17 (UTC) |
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In the winter I like kumquats. No preparation necessary, just pop the whole thing in your mouth. Very refreshing. Pomegranates are another yummy winter fruit. A terrific combination is a spinach salad with satsuma wedges and pomegranate seeds. Or make a salsa by combining the seeds with orange segments, diced red onions, lime juice, and a bit of chili powder, serve over fish or a grain. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Dec 06 2008 23:11 (UTC) |
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It certainly seems as though there is a trend here, myself included! When I first stumbled upon this site there was a tremendous forward shift in my recovery. Over the past couple of months however, I have wavered between been helped and being triggered. The logical conclusion then is that it has more to do with my state of mind than the content of this site. I care very deeply about all of you, cheer you on in your victories, worry over the struggles. Although I'm not certain what the best course of action is for me to take I do recognize that the possibility of feeling triggered by comparing is too great a risk for me to take. I'm not committing to no contact, rather than set up an ultimatum I've decided to step back, especially from perusing the blogs as I fret over the differences in my portion sizes versus those shown. I pray all of us will reach a healthy frame of both mind and body, shedding the ties that bind, the obsessions and compulsions that keep us fixated on trivial matters. Best of luck to everyone and thank you for all the support and encouragement you have provided! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Dec 02 2008 23:25 (UTC) |
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aqua: Well done at lunch! It sounds delish, I love that type of food. Have you ever tried Persian? It's pretty similar. There's a Persian restaurant here, primarily vegan, that makes this awesome soup with beans, wheat, greens, and pomegranate juice. I'm headed to check out your blog... mashed: Glad you got over your "blip." It seems as though I tend to have those after a couple of up days. But since you got back on track those blips will be further and further apart. dolly: Thanks for answering my question. I know how much those comments hurt but Mashed is right, they will continue until you're at a much higher weight. How did the pre-lim go? lala: What's perry? I'll try to think of a gift item. How's school? mel: Thanks for posting your food. It is helpful to see what your calorie level breaks down to. In the spirit of things, I had a bit of a blip myself today. Not so much in actions but the feelings were definitely not as positive as the past couple of days. In large part this is because I have felt so full all day. But I am eating despite that because, "no pain, no gain" right? Anyway, I am flying home three weeks from today and I really want this to be a successful visit. Plan to enjoy my family and friends as opposed to this summer when I was a nut! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Dec 02 2008 02:59 (UTC) |
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aqua: Love Kasha Kiki! I spent a good part of today trying to come up with something related to gingerbread for you but that is so much better! clay: Pan-clay-ke totally trumps Mr. Pancake. Loving my daily dose of Clay-isms. mashed: Your blog is rather impressive! The food looks yummy and super healthy but, unless you're drowning stuff in oil (and it doesn't appear to be glistening) I doubt it totals 2500. The foods that you eat are pretty low-cal. Nonetheless, I do not want to take away from all the progress you've been making, just wanted to voice my concern. My therapist weighed me today, as she does once a week. Normally she gives no indication of the direction my weight is going (terrific poker face, that one) but today she said I haven't made progress in several weeks so up in calories I shall go! Honestly, calories and fat grams don't really bother me so much anymore. My biggest fear is feeling full. I hate that feeling, scares me. However, I hate the misery of ed more so I just need to suck it up (literally!) On the subject of Advent calendars, are the ones in the UK always chocolate? Growing up we got one every year but they just had a picture or saying inside. It wasn't until I was older and visiting a friend that I saw a candy one. My mom used to send me a picture one but not this year, boo! |
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| Weight Gain | Still not gaining! >x( | Dec 02 2008 02:45 (UTC) |
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I know supposedly "a calorie is a calorie" but I read about a study a while back (cannot recall the source) that women who ate healthy foods were able to consume, on average, 400 calories more than women eating less healthy foods. I know you eat uber-healthy so even if you weren't trying to gain weight that study would indicate you have higher intake needs. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Dec 01 2008 03:01 (UTC) |
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oc aka ukjane: Congrats on the visit from Aunt Flo! Couldn't have come at a better time. Why are there thin women in Siberia? They must be so cold! Screw that, health is so much better! aqua: World Market is so much fun, they have great stocking stuffers. You are right, going out to eat is a good idea. Unfortunately, financially, circumstances are such that I am barely scraping by as it is. However, my mom said we are going out to dinner my first night home, probably at my favorite Thai place, so I shall get a bit of a "shake up" then. gibbit: The party sounds like fun. Now you've got me in the mood for a pomegranate martini... California's probably only cold to me. But it definitely is a good motivator to keep chowing down. I'm doing much better, really chipper today. Excited about going home and seeing family and friends and actually being able to enjoy people and food. Thanks for asking! clay: Mr. Pancake, way to go with the food! How about a chocolate banana fro-you? Oh, yes, I frequently tell ed to F off, in Italian even! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 30 2008 23:39 (UTC) |
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Will respond to more later but must say, Mashed, I am so happy you are having such an awesome day! You know why it is going so well? Because you started today out with a terrific attitude, determined to make this a good day! Ironic, just turned the tele on and there's a Garfield movie. Glad your mum's feeling better.
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 29 2008 23:20 (UTC) |
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mashed: You're not pathetic. I'd think something was wrong with you if you weren't scared in regards to the interview and staying alone. I think you'll be pleasantly surprised though, it is exciting and liberating to be alone for the first time (especially if you truly are alone, no Ed!) Congrats with the muffins! dolly: I don't know how you do it. I live in freaking California and I'm freezing. Hope all goes well at your dad's. slr: I'd say a 90% is better than okay! It's good to hear from you. aqua: Yay for no regrets! Hope the shopping expedition was successful. Wish I had something new to report but my life is sort of ho-hum right now, which is infinitely better than before but still dull and doesn't make for good copy. The food has been a little easier lately. It really is true that negative breeds negative and positive, positive. I mean, when I'm doing poorly, it is difficult to get "unstuck." Fortunately, when I'm doing well it keeps getting easier so, guess the trick is to stay out of the gutter!
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 28 2008 23:43 (UTC) |
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Good morning, good afternoon, good evening, or good night based on your whereabouts in the world! Well, my Thanksgiving officially sucketh. But, it will be the last holiday I'll spend alone as a pathetic loser so it's all uphill from here. On the plus side, I did talk to the fam so that was nice. I am really excited for Christmas to see my family and friends and actually NOT make my poor mum cry when she sees me. mashed: No way! You are MUCH better looking than Aunt Jemima and, with some poundage, you just may silence her once and for all (Yay!) I love your sense of humour and accent. Also, thanks for creating the survey, it's cool to get to know people a bit better. Maybe if you eat the crumble you can create new memories. Just as an ironic, sort of funny, note, during my first impatient stint one of the other girls and I were the only two with a bedtime snack. We would eat it at the nurse's desk and, every night without fail, a Karen Carpenter song would come on the radio. Creepy! Anyway, bran flakes shall forever remind me of that.. clay: Thanks for always making me laugh. A pumpkin isn't such a bad thing to turn into. Were it a blueberry you'd have to be "juiced" like Violet Beauregarde! aqua: Congrats on the fantastic job yesterday! Thanks for the rumbledee definition. gibbit: Thanks. I'm really glad you were able to enjoy your friends. dolly: Psychology is pretty interesting even though I think some of it is bogus. What sort of music interests you? Keep up with the chocolate! lala: Congrats on completing your UCAS app! How's the sis?
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| Recipes | any ideas for fun christmassy treats for kids :P | Nov 28 2008 14:27 (UTC) |
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My mom used to make Christmas wreaths. Have you ever had rice krispy squares? (Not sure if you have those down under.) Anyway, I do not know actual amounts but you melt butter and marshmallows, mix in cornflakes and green food colouring. Form into wreaths, top with cinnamon red hots (for berries) and refrigerate until they are set. Very festive and kids love them! If you want a peanut butter flavour, you could add a few spoonfuls to the butter mix. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 27 2008 16:49 (UTC) |
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Happy Thanksgiving! Hope all is well with everyone. Love how there seems to be a much more positive tone to this thread again. clay: You make me giggle with your corny (meant in the best possible way) analogies. Hope you do spend the day with friends. aqua: Have fun today! What are rumbledethumps? dolly: Glad the exam went well. Do you know what you want to study at uni? lady danger: Drawing a blank here so I'll just say, "G'day mate!" okgo: Hi right back at you. I'm happy to hear you're happy. mashed: Did you know you are immortalized in the form of pancake syrup? Don't know if it is available on the other side of the pond but here in the U.S. there is a brand called Aunt Jemima, "thick, and rich, and buttery" but the commercials are ultra-annoying so I like the UK Jemima MUCH better! Real name: Sarah
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 26 2008 23:19 (UTC) |
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Hello all! I have been switching things up in an attempt to break out of my rut so I joined the hiatus bandwagon. I have kept up reading everyone's messages and I'm so pleased that so many of you are making progress! Awesome! I'm doing better, eating well, living more. I signed up to volunteer for a literacy program. I'll be going into hospital and waiting room clinics and reading books of my choosing to the kids there. I love reading aloud, I'm not afraid of making a fool of myself by really hamming it up. I think I've gained enough weight that I no longer look like a patient. I've never liked the changing of my body before but now I feel some what proud of my gain. I think it is because this is the first time I've put on any weight on my own, not in-patient. Anyway, enough about moi... mashed: You have come so far! Reading your posts over the past few days has really encouraged me. You do such a good job of wording the inner struggle as well as adding in those all important elements of humor. Don't let the ed voices influence you. Remember how the other day you wrote that years with the ed go by in the blink of an eye? Don't lose any more years on regrets! Congratulations on the interview! Oxford would be blessed to have you! dolly: If it's not too late, good luck on your exams! You, too have continued to make such progress. Keep moving forward! lala: Glad to hear Claire is home even if she's being a bugger. You are so amazing! I thought you were going to take a step back and here you go posting an araay of helpful hints. Thanks for being such a tremendous resource! lady danger: Welcome! I'm so glad you have found solace and support here. gibbit: I wish things were easier for you. But I think it makes sense that ed is rearing his ugly head right now. It is perfectly normal to be afraid when school ends and "real life" begins. Myself, I am realizing how often I have retreated to the narrow world of food and exercise as an "out" when life seemed overwhelming. Although this meant the expectations and pressures on me reduced (when it boils down to life and death everything else falls by the wayside) it also meant the good parts of life disappeared too. You can get past this bump in the road, hang on tight! Happy Thanksgiving Eve to all of those in the states! |
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| Weight Gain | Just a food idea for someone who wants to eat something luscious | Nov 26 2008 22:51 (UTC) |
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Mashed, you beat me too it! I was planning to post the exact same thing. The disordered desire to "feed" other people aside, I don't understand the point of your post. People aren't able to think of different pancake toppings on their own? |
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| Health & Support | What do you think of the Stockholm Solution? | Nov 21 2008 23:31 (UTC) |
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I think their approach holds a lot of merit. If you read about the Ancel Keys starvation experiments during WW II many of the previously healthy men experienced many of the behaviors typically associated with anorexics. There is an American clinic using this approach not far from me that I looked into earlier this year. Would have loved to have tried it but, unfortunately, the fee is astronomical. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 20 2008 14:28 (UTC) |
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clay: Way to go with the intuitive eating and the burger! Also, awesome with putting recovery before the play. Do you want me to come pull that stupid girl's hair? Thanks for the kind words about my trip. I'm looking forward to seeing friends and family, especially my nephew. As I am unemployed I can barely afford a seat on the plane for me, let alone Ed. Plus they charge for extra baggage now so won't be taking that either. lala: I'm praying for your sister! dolly: I saw your reply regarding the blood work. All the more reason to up those calories, no excuses! You CAN do it! aqua: Aw, you didn't disappoint me. Wish your therapist was someone you could trust. I am glad you ate the ice cream. It's a very positive step.
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| Weight Gain | Yes Yes Yes Metabolism again ahahahahaha | Nov 19 2008 23:28 (UTC) |
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Theo: You're kidding yourself about having been the "healthiest" anorexic. It is very common for blood work to appear normal. In actuality, this is a sign that you were very sick. Our bodies go into overdrive to stay alive, often they'll do most anything to avoid infection because it could result in death. When I was at my lowest weight I rarely got sick. As soon as I began to put on weight I became ill because it was as though my body could finally "afford" to fight infection rather than fight simply to stay alive. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 19 2008 14:19 (UTC) |
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Hi guys! I've kept up reading everyone's posts but decided to just observe for awhile, be accountable to myself with the food. It is encouraging to read about the progress so many of you are making. It seemed for a time things were on a downward trend but has picked back up again. Anyway, things are going a bit better for me. I'm slightly more flexible, more involved in life, less time on the computer. Gearing up for the holidays, I'll be going home for Christmas and I endeavor to make this trip a good one. okgo: Congrats are in order! How wonderful that you were able to eat without counting calories, hope today is even better! zebulancherry: You can do it! mashed: Brie? Yippee! Glad to hear you were able to give yourself something you enjoy. You do such a good job articulating the inner conflict with ed, but soon your determination will pay off. I do at least 2500 come join me! lala: You sister is so forunate to have you. Thanks for explaining the drama module. aqua: I'm anxious to hear the details about operation billy goat, you made me LAUGH! coffee bean and lady danger: Welcome! clay: A man who can cook and kicks kung fu panda style? I'm impressed. theo: Your free porridge references never fail to put a smile on my face. Why no crumpets at tea time? And marmalade, Paddington Bear likes marmalade. (Though come to think of it, I've never had marmalade...) dana: High five!
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 15 2008 23:28 (UTC) |
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lala: First of all, a huge congratulations on your exciting school news! What is a drama module! I am sorry to hear about your sister, I will definitely add her to my prayers. A while back you were concerned about your mother's health, how is she doing? zebulancherry: Way to go with the exercise! I know what a huge accomplishment that is, hope it gets easier each day. I made blueberry bran muffins using your recipe today. Yum! Thanks. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 14 2008 14:06 (UTC) |
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gibbit: Thanks for the reply. How many languages do you speak? I understand freaking out in regards to the bod (obviously) but please be very careful not to confuse feelings with facts. What you see and feel is probably less than objective. I am sure you have heard of the set point theory. I think you will stop gaining weight when your body finds the place it is most comfortable. It may be more than your weight prior to the ED, it may not. Also, it does take time for some people's weight to redistribute so it will all even out eventually. I have gotten to a healthy weight via treatment numerous times and never stayed there long enough to allow the weight to settle in the right places (boobs please!) because I freaked about the size of my tummy. I do know several people who experienced gain beyond there "goal weight" but after a while the weight went back down although they continued eating the same amount of food and activity level. dolly: It looks as though you have increased the size of your breakfast, that's awesome! Yesterday: breakfast: shredded wheat n' bran w/ almonds, raisins, and milk |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 14 2008 02:56 (UTC) |
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zeb: Awesome, awesome, awesome! That's terrific news! Your decision about the exercise will really catapult your recovery. Also, I make smoothies most days. I generally use soy milk (I like it better than dairy in smoothies), yogurt, fruit (fresh or frozen), ground flax, peanut butter, ginger, cinnamon, nutmeg, etc. For some reason, I don't like the protein powder in smoothies. It's kind of fun to experiment and vary the ingredients. slr: I'm so sorry, sweetie. Wish I could offer some comfort but words don't really do justice to the situation. Keep eating, losing your life won't bring your friend back or make you feel better in the long run. gibbit: What kind of job do you have now? I like your new picture! aqua: Yippee! Those other group members are going to be so fortunate to have your expertise! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 13 2008 14:20 (UTC) |
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zebulancherry: Your new muffin idea sounds yummy. Judging from your menus we like a lot of the same foods though I have had to tone down my fiber intake for this gaining phase. In regards to the exercise, I have a similar pattern of overdoing it several times a day. For a long time I tried to gradually reduce but, each time I shaved off a little time it would eventually creep back up. I found it worked far, far better to just take the plunge and eliminate a walk altogether or cut out a larger chunk of time (at least 15 minutes.) I actually had to write down my commitment and plan my exercise just like with the meals. I've also noticed once I start to exercise something happens to my brain and it becomes very difficult to stop so not starting is easier than attempting to stop. I try to remind myself that overdoing it actually wastes away muscle which is not what I want to do and it makes it far more likely my metabolism won't trust my recovery and will cling to every calorie. Supposedly exercise increases the appetite but overexercise deadens it so it makes it harder for me to eat. Hope that helps! clay: You're such a good son! Happy birthday to your mommy! slr: Thank you! I am very happy your social life is so active. Have fun on the field trip! Yesterday: breakfast: shredded wheat n' bran w/ almonds, prunes, and milk |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 12 2008 23:24 (UTC) |
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zebulancherry: Thank you so much for the muffin recipe! I like slathering things with almond and peanut butter, too. I feel the same in regards to the exercise. Terribly addicting. lala: You're quite welcome. Autumn is such a beautiful time of year. aqua: You are so worth it! xfallingstar: I will definitely miss you but that is terrific news. Thanks for sharing your success. |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 12 2008 14:21 (UTC) |
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clay: Aw, I'm sorry about the fight with the parental unit. Way to go with the toaster pastry! You reminded me of my desperate, unsuccessful attempt to reach Narnia through the linen closet when I was a child. Perhaps if I had lived in England instead of Seattle it would have been possible? lala: Love, love, love your new picture! zebulancherry: Awesome job with limiting the exercise, I know all too well how difficult that is. If it is not too much trouble, would you mind sharing your bran muffin recipe? aqua: Think you may need to invest in a bugle for this one but, for your final therapy session, Taps. theo: Why, thank you! Glad I could add a bit of music to your day. A par of spotted knickers, yes! Out of curiousity, what made you decide to learn Russian? dana: The last thing I wanted to do was make you feel bad. My point was simply that eating meat wasn't as big of a leap as you thought. I think the ED convinces us that vegetarianism is about animal rights but if that were true than you probably wouldn't eat fish. I do not want you to feel guilty, do you think animals are bad for eating other animals? Probably not so neither are you! slr: I continue to stand in awe of your remarkable progress. I shall toast you at my next feeding! ukjane: Do you have family in Siberia? Love hearing your healthy attitude toward recovery, thanks. I have been feeling rather "stuck" lately, just kind of in dull trudge mode. I think it was easier when I first upped the calories because there was some sense of euphoria but now that has died down and recovery does not seem exciting. Nonetheless, it is definitely what I want so I fully intend to persevere. I just like it better when there is more vim and vigor behind it. Life isn't always like that though so I must continue despite my feelings. Today I am a bit more gung ho but, sorry to say, actually going to the bathroom never fails to put me in a good mood! Lol! Am I pathetic or what? Yesterday: breakfast: muesli in yogurt w/ berries, cherries, grapes, and ground flax
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 11 2008 14:27 (UTC) |
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spek: Hi there! I'm glad to hear from you. Keep up the fight and turn some of that love you give others toward yourself. dana: I was vegetarian for about eight years. Didn't want to eat meat again but had to in treatment. I find it easier to reach my calories plus it makes it easier to eat out or at other people's house. That's not to say I don't sometimes feel guilty about the animals but I try not to think too much about it. I guess it seems hypocritical to me when people claim their reason for not eating meat is animal rights yet they eat seafood. What's the difference? I mean fish are living breathing creatures too, right? So, if you can eat seafood why not chicken or turkey or whatever? I congratulate you for taking this step and believe, like anything else, it will become easier with time. gibbit: I am sorry you are having such a difficult time with the weight. Perhaps the bloating is due to a high veggie/fiber intake? I know it is scary but maybe try eating less fiber for a few days to see if it helps. Also, this may be too late, but I would suggest waiting at least a couple of days to weigh again in case it is water weight, in order to give it time to go down. theo: Aw, I'm sure your rugby boys don't want a skinny companion! I think you have such a strong identity, just Theo, sans the ED, that comes through here. That's not to say I don't understand, just that, in my eyes, you are an amazing woman. aqua: I wish you were having a better time of it. Do you still have cello and therapy today with the holiday? Maybe you could combine the two. How about playing the music from Wizard of Oz when the wicked witch is coming as you walk into the therapist's office. Now that might cheer you up! slr: Remember your hair reflects your nutritional status from several months ago, not currently. Yesterday: breakfast: shredded wheat n' bran w/ milk |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 10 2008 14:28 (UTC) |
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Yesterday: breakfast: large sheet ww matzo cracker layered w/ peanut butter, banana, and strawberry slices |
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| Health & Support | Disgusting Intolerance to Cold | Nov 10 2008 14:11 (UTC) |
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I am trying to recover from an ED too and can tell you from experience that nothing will be very effective until you reach a healthy weight. Even then you will likely still be more sensitive to temperatures than the average person for some time. Best of luck! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 10 2008 02:49 (UTC) |
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I just talked to my nephew on the telephone. He sang the song from Madagascar to me and ended with, "Wuv you Aunt Sarah, nighty night!" Now that makes eating worth it! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 09 2008 23:39 (UTC) |
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theo: Thanks for making me LAUGH! I actually told them to either have the guts to say something directly to me or the decency to wait until I'm out of earshot. I bet you're right though, definite Spam eaters. Hope you feel better very soon! clay: I'm sure you don't have man boobs. Those are reserved for Kramer and Mr. Costanza. Did you ever see the "Bro" episode of Seinfeld? lala: Glad the job is going well. I'll be sure to check out you journal. Are you feeling any better? ukjane: Tell that housemate of your's to shove it! Way to go eating despite idiotic comments. The nerve! gibbit: Aw, darn! I guess this means there's a better gentlemen in the wings. Thanks for the well wishes! |
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| Weight Gain | Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today? | Nov 09 2008 14:34 (UTC) |
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gibbit: Hope you're feeling loads better today. How'd it go with Belgian guy? aqua: I have dubbed her Paula "stick of butter" Dean. Her voice bugs me too. The local radio DJs call Giada "skinny big head." Good luck! lala: How's work going? I worked at a bookstore/coffee shop a few years back so I know how particular people can be about their drink orders. xfallingstar: You should spend more time in the shower! Thanks for posting those words of inspiration. mashed: 2000 here you come! Keep fighting and don't think too much. Yesterday I felt heavy all day. I hate that, hate how the ED can distort reality. I tend to rely on my feelings far too much. In my view, I have put on a considerable amount of weight so I was startled yesterday when I passed two women sitting on a bench chatting and one of them gasped and said, "Oh, my God!" I honestly didn't think I looked too bad anymore. Thin, yes but emaciated, no. Perhaps I'm wrong? Today my mission is to STOP BLOODY THINKING, stop worrying about too much this, too little that, and just fricking eat. It pisses me off that it is still so durn difficult. yes, I eat at least 2500 calories, probably closer to 2800 but the mental gymnastics are beyond ridiculous. Anyway, enough of the negative, I'm off to a good start and aim to continue because I choose life. Yesterday's foodage: breakfast: muesli in yogurt w/ cherries, berries, and ground flax |
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