How did you challenge your ED today?

Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.

i shall go first :)

today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.

yippiee :D congrats !

hm.. today i eat chococalte cookies with chocolate cream inside yummy! haha instead of just a few strawberries (; (well  actually gotta eat a fruit and bread, that's what my nutricionist told me:D but everytime i eat something with sugar i didn't want to eat fruit but today i DID! so hurray ! )

Yay! I ate white bread, hahaha. I started wigging about nutritional value and then was like, "Shut up, ED".

Original Post by lalabanana:

Yay! I ate white bread, hahaha. I started wigging about nutritional value and then was like, "Shut up, ED".

 hahaha! i do that to. i start like'' hmm 30g carb.. 12 gr.sugar .. awwee cookies come to mee *-* ! go to the hell ed!

aha (:

This is a great idea =p We can then find more comebacks to the ED by sharing our own!

Yesterday I put cheese on my subway! I've always had a huge fear about cheese and the last time I put cheese on my subway was when I was a little girl lol. When I bit into the sub, I could feel the ED complaining, screaming. But I just continued to eat it and said:

'It's so damn yummy. It's so damn good for me.' =)

I love the idea of this thread and I can totally understand where you're coming from -- "I am trying", I used to say - but secretly, I knew that I was still eating just to lose/maintain.

Today I had chocolate banana cake after lunch (chicken noodles) at a restaurant. And after that, I still craved sweets. So I decided I'm going to give in and let myself eat as many sweets as I want - so I had two triple chocolate muffins as well and a chocolate chip muffin.

Well.... I guess its a fine line b/w binging, gaining weight, and destroying my body. I think today was borderline all 3 haha. But I did it all with a gaining weight mentality.

And than I went to sleep afterwards. Normally I would feel the need to work out.
And when I woke up, I still ate - INSTEAD of restricting like I normally do after binges. So that's a step forward to the binging/restricting cycle.

I'll hopefully be my normal tomorrow (I promise I don't eat 3 calorific junk muffins everyday) eat healthier while still challenging my ED and gaining weight.

Today I ate a bag of M&M's because I was low on my calorie intake even though, get this—I was about to go to bed.  No more of this "no eating before bed" junk!  Take that!

I had something from the snack bar at a football game yesterday.

I'm going out to dinner tonight or tomorrow night. And I'm not going to count, I'm not going to care. I don't even know where I'm going. I'm going to have what I want, no matter what else I have eaten today. I am not going to care if the carbs are white. I'm not going to worry about the salt content. I'm going to have a pudding if there is one I can eat without getting sick on the menu and even then it's a weekend, I can afford to get a bit poorly if I really want a tart or an ice cream. Screw you, ED.

yay well done guys this is so inspiring!!

today i had hummus AND tzatziki with flatbread for lunch PLUS a yoghurt afterwards - much more than normal and I felt good about it :)

Today, I ate all my baked beans and toast. I actually cleared my dinner plate:)

And then I had 2 chocolates.

^_^
I want to gain weight. Screw you ed! I NEED to gain. I'm FED UP OF BEING COLD, I NEED fat! lol :D (keep tellign myself this)
Maybe I should have some more chocolate this evening. Meh, I'm not hungry. Would impress my mum though? There's a bag of m&ms on the table...ugh but so unhealthy</3 nah I'm sure my purchasing of nutella will be enough to reassure mum :) it's a start. we all start somewhere, small steps. <3

i'm currently on my third chocolate chip/m&m cookie :D

Dolly, I still honestly think you should be in hospital. :\ Your BMI is critically low.

Lalabanana: thanks for your advice and you're right, i should get some kind of help :/ But I feel Ican do this, I can get over the mental half of my ed with the help of my friends, and by myself. Well, Ican try. And the physical side, like what I eat and stuffs, my mums kinda helping me with gaining.

I even ate a ricecake and nutella just then. THe first time I've eaten after 10 pm for like ever. Small steps? :(

Edit: I had some more chocolate too :) SCREW YOU ED
Im going to recoverrrrrrrrrrr

enough of this

its not NORMAL to worry obsessively over eating late at night

im not going to count my cals tomorrow, or try not to, to see if ican manage, cos that would be a major step=]

I went to a restaurant at which I always get the same thing, something very low-calorie.  But today I went there, and guess what?

I got potato chips too.  Hahaha.  Calorific potato chips—classic Lay's!  Yeah!

I finally used that avocado that's been sitting in my fridge for weeks today :D Sliced it right open and put it on my wrap...
Avocado's are so easy to use! They do taste good.... even though there's not much taste lol!

great idea!

well, the last few days I've really thrown all ED thoughts out the window as they came and they really do start coming less and less! I ate desserts, and lots of snacks b/w meals, and meals served in restaurants that I had no idea how they were made. TONS of white bread, eek! I went out and drank at a bar, yes it was just wine but alcohol scares me.

And today I also ate a lot of snacks (wayyy too busy this week and no time for formal meals), ate airplane food, then still had a big snack when i got home, then made a cake and licked the bowl, then went out to dinner and came back and ate cake with my family right after dinner. A chocolate brownie cake with a super sugary icing I made for my aunt that I didn't even try to "healthify" I usually don't like having dessert directly after dinner but I had it anyways AND I still came home and had a huge nighttime snack of several handfuls of almonds, soy ice cream mixed with large bowl full of chocolate granola (460 cals a cup! ) finished that and still wanted more so  had another bowl of chocolate granola with vanilla soymilk.

wow, i feel like ED is really gone this week!

I am super proud...today:

I treated myself by going to Marks and Spencers food hall instead of tescos, where I spent an extortionate money on things I didn't need but I really wanted.  PLUS (and this is where I'm proud) I took me with me, not healthy me, or gainer me, or anorexic me, just me, myself and I, and although I had vague ideas - I had to buy for morning and afternoon snacks, dinner, supper, pudding etc, I put stuff that I WANTED in the trolley, not what I thought I should want, or should have, or couldn't have.  And I'm proud of myself.

Of course, this means that I am now going to be living off odd mixtures of caramel snackajacks, mince pies, liver, pork chops, red thai curry paste, rose prosecco and dried figs for the next week but, screw it, I can handle that........

I am off to write my essay (Did Franco win the Spanish Civil War or did the Left lose it) and sing MCFLY!

(Theo- I feel like the left lost it, but it's been 2 years since my spanish history course so my memory is a bit foggy. Oh boy, i need to refresh on so many things!!)

yeah, my thesis is essentially that although the right were better militarily, they had strong military command which helped them win, the left lost it - outside influences helped as well, the lack of interest from democratic powers helped the right and failed the left, while spain's intense regionalism created a largely politicallly apathetic agrarian class unwilling to mobilise en masse for the left, in contrast to the right's sophisticated military hierarchy, furthermore the left were un-organised and politically fragmented...  But then we have to remember that the civil war was not inevitable: the left's failure was in starting a war that it could never have won - had they continued down the political route they could have been successful, but they just had to go and be wankers about it all

sorry, this is a weight gain forum, not a spanish civil war forum....  on that note I just found out how cross buns, figs, and ricotta cheese go REALLY well together...shopping with myself might just work out....

I had a slice of potato bread today. We were one slice short of the whole wheat kind I usually eat. So instead of having some crappy whole wheat diet bread, I had one slice of potato bread.

Oh, and last night I ate a banana and nutella filled crepe that was the size of a pizza. And also some sugary candy. And sugar and milk in my tea. Hahahhahaha I WIN ED!