How did you challenge your ED today?

Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.

i shall go first :)

today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.

I GOT MY PERIOD BACK!

Yay! Sophie that is so amazing! So happy for you!

I haven't been on here in a while because I have actually started to socialise again! I have been to about 3 parties in the past two weeks and have drank alcohol and ate snacks without panicking about the calories! Makes recovery seem worth while, I love having friends again!

Otherwise, I am starting to decide on a maintaince calorie level, never got to maintaince point before! I'm not freaking out about how I look at this weight so much either.

Original Post by sophiec96:

I GOT MY PERIOD BACK!

 yay im so happy if you dont mind me asking what is your bmi ?

Original Post by sophiec96:

I GOT MY PERIOD BACK!

 AWESOME!!!  Oh you are doing so amazing Soph!  Wow!

My doctor says mine should come back soon too!  Everything else looks good, now I'm just waiting for that estrogen to kick back in:)

For the first time in about 4 years, I am a solid 115 - 116.5 lbs.

I am only focused on learning to accept my healthy weight, rather then fight against it.

This was very hard at first - because I have ALWAYS been 114 or lower, for so long now.

Not because I was restricting either - I simply was not “ super” fit,  at the level or say, an aerobics instructor, therefore I was simply eating an adequate amount of calories for some one who was just “ fit”  ( as in, walking 60 mins a day, Pilates a few days a week, nothing vigorous)


But I want to instruct aerobics classes as a job on the side - for extra cash when I do my ordinary job in the future

SO, to be fit enough to instruct vigorous aerobics, I need to be super fit, so I have been doing vigorous exercise almost every day, and eating way more calories than ever before. Consistently . Every single day.

And my body is telling me that to cater for additional fitness and activity - my body needs extra weight -

I have learnt that not all people can be SUPER fit, at the aerobics instructor level - and be at their lowest healthy weight….

So YAY!  I am happier and healthier than ever -  and I am accepting my new weight!

I NEVER thought that I would accept a weight higher than 114.

but nothing terrible has happened. In fact, it has forced me to stop using thinness as a factor that makes me feel good about myself -

Therefore, it has pushed me to work hard to achieve other things. Which, in turn, is making me HAPPIER.

yesterday I ate over 1000 calories for the first time in I dont know how long !

Personaltrainer - that is so amazing that you are able to listen to your body and nurture it properly! That is an awesome realization!

Koran - keep on keepin' on! I'm glad you're sticking around the boards and on the way to doing what's right to love yourself and take care of your body!

AHHH bluide! Bahhaha me & my mom were victory dancing all around my room(: Yours is comin, no worries girl! You are doing wonderful! 

Personaltrainer: awesome, awesome, awesome. healthy = happy!

Korangez: AHH! YOU SHOULD BE SO PROUUUD! i remember how hard it was to bump it up again. Keep doing itttt xxx!

i ate out in a pub and brought my lunch forward to 1pm instead of 3

You guys are all doing so well!

Today I skipped the gym to go study.  Imagine that, skipping a nice, intense workout, to...sit.  Did the sitting get boring?  Yes.  Good thing I brought snacks :)

i challenged myself and bought a dark chocolate peppermint bar, and then put it in the draw for a few weeks. last night i finally felt brave enough and ate half of it and actually enjoyed it! i'm so glad i didn't bin it as my ED was telling me. if only we could do the opposite of everything ED tells us, recovery would be a lot quicker haha.

I used actual OIL in my stir-fry tomday, instead of just steaming everything like I usually do...made a huge difference, so yummy!

Celebrating Halloween and actually eating after my "time when we stop eating" rule!!

This has been such a hard one to break out of!!

AND I did not measure the olive oil I used to cook my dinner tonight!!

How'd'ya like THEM apples, ED?

i listened to my hunger cues, ate when i was hungry eventho i had just eaten and it wasnt "Time" for lunch"

ate what i wanted, actually wanted something!

ate 250 cals more than i have been

Original Post by agruskin:

i listened to my hunger cues, ate when i was hungry eventho i had just eaten and it wasnt "Time" for lunch"

ate what i wanted, actually wanted something!

ate 250 cals more than i have been

 well done amy i know its hard to let go that was a big step, something i have been challenging myself with

I am doing the opposite Agru -  my body ONLY feels physical hunger (the kind in the stomach)   when I do not eat in ages

So I have been challenging MY ed, by enjoying eating regular  meals with no guilt associated DESPITE the fact that I do not feel physical hunger.

I tried eating intuitively for a couple of days, and only  felt physical hunger in my stomach when I ate 400 - 500 calories early in the morning at breakfast -   and then did not feel hungry until dinner time.


Where as, in the past, I would often think ‘ I am not physically hungry, what is wrong with me, why cant I wait until I feel hunger like normal people?   

So, I have recently started eating without putting it down to me being “weak’’ and having to use food for enjoyment all the time lol.  I mean, my body DOES need to eat during the day! And I am aloud to enjoy it.

yesterday i had pasta whole wheat shells with my hommmade spicy peanut sauce..it is something i love peanut noodles! so i wanted to show myself and prove to ed that i could do it! and after dinner i had

1/2 a bar of dark chocolate(lavender blueberry falvor! so good ;) it had been in my box for 2 months! and i had it shared with my sister!

and this morning i had a differnet breakfast than my sister she is also anorexic so we often eat the same breakfasts and most meals, i guess it feels safe? no comparing whos was "safer" lower or yummier so we each made diff oatmeal bowls and didnt even talk about what we where going to have, no comparing and no talk about the fat or calories each had! it was great!

HELEN-thanks!! yes, my "lunch" was around 1000 cals, but boy did it energoze me!!! AND its what i wanted.  also, it didnt really scare me into thinking, well, will i be able to eat this in the future, like i sometimes think+ get scared about, and i realzied, yes, if i want to WO then yes, my body WILL need to be properly fueled!

PERSONALTRAINER- i often eat on a schedule bc i dont always feel phytsical hunger.  for me its when i start to not be able to think clearly or just feel lethargic, that i know its time to eat.  also, in my job i might be busy for 3 hrs straight w a student and not be able to break other than drinking from my water bottle so i know in these instances that my body NEEDS a snack before hand to properly function.  i do feel physical hunger tho if i dont have time for my AM snack and go from my 7:15 bfast to about 11:30-12, then i start feeling hungry and weak and want food.

MAYA-great job challenging urself but if im not mistaken ur still not eating 2500+?

So these past 3 days, I've been going to parties and eating stuff like pizza, burgers, cake, candy, etc. I haven't done any exercise either, and I don't feel an ounce of guilt! :D

How did everyone else do on Halloween? (for those who celebrate it)

evolution_revolution: Thanks for the comment!! I've seen some of your other posts as well, and you've been doing great yourself! Keep it up!!