How did you challenge your ED today?

Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.

i shall go first :)

today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.

I went trick or treating !!!

I ate like a beast yesterday lol it was weird I felt so comfortable eating what my friends were eating!

We went to Lotaburger and I finished a whole chicken strips meal with fries and still had candy, and earlier for lunch I had beef stew ! Jesus !

Lol yesterday was a big day for me

well today I had regular, FRIED tortilla chips dipped in hummus! I know it doesn't seem like anything at all, but it definately was a first for me. also, I'm going to have a turkey burger with baked fries tonight. TWO starches! oh noez!!

Yesterday evening I had a NON-CUSTOMIZED holiday latte (sugar & spice latte from Seattle's Best Coffee) AFTER I had eaten my final snack for the day and I hadn't planned it into my day or restricted to "make up" for it and fit it into my daily kcal. It was even a size medium instead of small, and it was SO good.

I did have a lot of feelings after I drank it, but I kept myself busy and they dispersed after about a half hour. YAY!! I am very proud of myself this morning.

Well today was election day, and I worked 14 hours at the voting polls ahhhh, and didn't have time to pack a lunch or dinner. So my friend and I went out to get lunch where I only had a salad. But later in the afternoon, I acknowledged that I needed something between lunch and dinner, and all they had at the polls were donuts and cake. So I shared a donut with my friend and had a tiny slice of cake. Then, wow, for dinner, we went out and go pizza. And I admit I was counting furiously but I just tried to forget it and eat intuitively and ended up having a fresh, delicious slice of pizza and some garlic bread. I haven't eaten these things for years!! And I have to admit I'm anxious but srsly, F*** ED. I was writing a recovery based essay for college today and in order to be true to myself, I need to really work to get over my fears as much as possible before college! So YES! I am very happy with myself and I know today's "fear foods" will not hurt me. Only bad thing is my friend and I returned to our shift at the polls smelling like garlic hell :-P. bwhaha. 

Okay! 

Today I started my first step towards recovery! I had a meeting with a psychologist and we decided on steadily working on getting used to eating normally again. I'm so excited/nervous about how this will go!

Wish me luck, everyone!

good luck sigen you can do it , youve made the right choice

i had chicken twice today, good for me as ive not eaten meat very much for a while and ive been stuck in eating quorn because the ed tells me it safe , but chicken safe all foods are say im learning it really isnt that scary

i've been doing pretty damn great in the past weeks. i have become better at skipping gym when i am too tired or when it hurts. AND i've been eating foods i haven't had for so long - i've had bread EVERY DAY for a week! and guess what's on my plate as i write this? spring rolls!

i am starting to feel like this has an end. that i can conquer it. it feels scary as **** and f*****g awesome at the same time.

damn you, ED. you're done wasting my time and stealing my youth. i want to be well enough to have a job, travel and go to dinners and birthdays without worrying about every single little thing.

you're all doing great!

That is so great! Bread is a HUGE fear-food of mine, even though I love it so much... Hopefully, my breakfast will consist of those nice, golden things with cheese and jam again! 

Well, I haven't technically done anything YET, but tonight my friends and I are having a jr. high-style sleepover, just for the fun of it.  Two of the three people there I have told about the ED, and I'm pretty sure the other has guessed or suspected.

Anyways, they told me the rule for tonight is that I have to participate in the junk food eating.  My friends house is like, the holy grail of junk food.  She has some of everything.

So I'm going to challenge myself by not freaking out and resisting the junk food.  And I didn't find out about this till late, so it's past the time I could have restricted to compensate, removing that temptation...I'm kind of excited :)

I actually ate a full meal after one of my big time ED cut-off times last night... my fear was that I wouldn't be hungry for breakfast in the AM if I ate after ___ o'clock and I'd want to restrict to make up for it and feel that hunger. But I am hungry, and am going to eat breakfast now!

Today, I ate stacks more than I normally would. I don't feel great but I'm not about to go for a run or try to purge or bruise or anything, so thats a positive (:

I had

Breakfast: a piece of toast and 2 eggs

Lunch: 5 calamari rings, a piece of herb bread, piece of battered fish, fries, iced coffee (with cream, ice cream and chocolate powder, and full fat milk)

Dinner: (haven't had yet, but I am having) tortellini with cheese OR carbonara sauce, and maybe garlic bread if we have time

Dessert: IDK.

idk about dessert because i owe my mum money for clothes, and i wanted the latest vogue, so she bought it and said i have to have whatever she says for dessert. I'm really scared because i dont know what shell do but she said really mmeanly "thisll be fun" and gave me a mean look. S: But hopefully it wont be anything thatll make me start crying and refusing, because i WANT VOGUE!!! (:

Also, I haven't worn a bikini for years. Before I felt too big, but the other day i wore one, and today I bought a new one! :D I'm still a little unsure but I'm wearing it anyway. My friends have all told me to stop being stupid and to just wear it, and one even went and asked a heap of my guy friends and they all said i should do it :) And none of them know about the ED. tbh, i dont know if im just a bit more comfortable because i weigh less than most of the girls in my school swimming/surfing groups, but the point is, I'm wearing one! (:

i didn't do my daily yoga last night as i was ill and knew it would be better for my body to recover rather than excersize.

Added a granola/cereal bar to breakfast, lunch, and evening snack (each) and increased by ~400 kcal today. =D Hopefully I will have the fortitude to do it again tomorrow...

Ordered 2am pizza last night with my friends, and ate 2 slices.  That's a quarter of a large pizza.  And there were guys around, and I didn't care that they saw me eating.

And we're currently doing renovations on our kitchen, so I can't prepare my own meals.  Instead, we're getting takeout tonight.  Chinese, one of my biggest fear foods.  I'm hoping I don't freak out...

Awesome job, Flight! Eating late is sooo hard for me... good luck with the take-out!

i challenged mine by cutting down my usual 4 hour exercise a day to 150 situps, and an hour runnnig ! i'll freak by tomorrow probs , but today hasnt been so bad, not as tired lol

This seems so pathetic compared to everyones big achievements, but I'm going to post it anyway! 

I drank a little milk today for breakfast! I did cheat and pour almost all of it into my (cold) coffee so I couldn't drink it, but my father noticed and stopped me. Which meant that I had to drink the last sips. Drinking calories, and especially milk, is a big fear of mine! It was milk with only 0.5% fat, but it was milk and even though I worked out afterwards, I'm kind of amazed!

Maybe this means that I'll dare to face up to ED soon and just say "You know what? Screw you! I'm doing this for MY sake and for MY health and you're not going to stop me!"

I put milk in my coffee today!

I honestly think I prefer it black, but it's nice knowing I can add some milk and the world won't implode.

Yesterday I went out to brunch with my family and didnt end up eating till 2:15!!way past my comfort zone time. I usually have a stuck timing schedule, that when gets messed up I restrict, but I ate my full brunch plus 3 glasses of wine and lotsa chocolate

Last night went out to dinner and didnt eat till 7:30(again way outta my comfort zone), still ate, drank wine and had dessert!

Sorry I haven't been here for a while, I've missed how motivational this thread is! Keep it up everyone you are inspiring.

I feel like I am finally moving on from anorexia at the moment, not completely of course but more than I ever have before.

I've been going to regular sleepovers.

I've eaten meals out.

I've drank alcohol at parties.

I have eaten things only estimating the calories

I have started to bake and eat what I make

I am not longer only eating ready meals

When cooking I can test the food and not include those calories