How did you challenge your ED today?

Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.

i shall go first :)

today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.

OK, now for my day.  I had butter on my toast at breakfast; I have hardly ever eaten butter in ten years!  Real butter too, no low fat for me, thank you very much.

I had a Cheesymite Scroll from Bakers Delight for lunch.  Basically it's a bread roll thing with heaps of cheese and Vegemite throughout.  Apparently Vegemite is an acquired taste if you're not Aussie, but seeing as I am, yum!

Then I had a blueberry and white chocolate scone for my afternoon snack

Dinner and dessert yet to come, but ice cream sounds great right now, because it's darn hot here in Brisbane

I went out to dinner at a fancy shmancy Italian restaurant.

I had an appetizer and then a huge entree.

With sauteed stuff! It was drenched in butter/oil yet I ate it all.

Yup, and kick in the face to Ed because I won this time.

Bwahahahahahah.

Me:3492085 Ed:0

Today for my pudding I am having a slice of CHOCOLATE BROWNIE CHEESECAKE!  The sort of thing a few years ago I would have looked forward to all day.

The challenge for me is now to enjoy it......

But I will.

Because I AM NOT MY ED I AM ME ME ME ME ME ME ME

And I like chocolate and cheesecake and both together.

hah! In your FACE ed!

Original Post by dollymixtures:

splenda - omg I did the exact same thing this morning.

Like the EXACT same thing.

Wow :')

xxxx

Good for you! Good for us, I should say. It's funny how ED always has the same stuff to say. Keep up the good work!

Today, I respected my hunger. I listened to my body signals and responded to them. I'm about to go do it some more.

Original Post by theofournay:

Today for my pudding I am having a slice of CHOCOLATE BROWNIE CHEESECAKE!  The sort of thing a few years ago I would have looked forward to all day.

The challenge for me is now to enjoy it......

But I will.

Because I AM NOT MY ED I AM ME ME ME ME ME ME ME

And I like chocolate and cheesecake and both together.

hah! In your FACE ed!

 Hope you savoured every mouthful, Theo.  Nothing should keep a person from enjoying cheesecake!

I have to say you're inspiring; I love how you're managing to face this with a sense of humour, and a great sense of humour at that.

Best,

Mel. ooo

Today I had an iced doughnut.  And I ate every sprinkle, much to ED's dismay

I realised that I was waaaay under my calorie goal for today, so I got out the peanut butter jar and dug in =p

Mmmm... natural crunchy peanut butter... *slobbers all over ED's face*

Second slice of chocolate cheesecake: Eat me, eat me!

Me: Yes! I shall!

My ED: No!  You shall not eat that chocolate cheesecake!  It is bad and will make you a BAD person!  

Me: No!  For I ate its twin yesterday and I am STILL here!

My ED: But you will be disgusting!  Do you have no will power?!  No one will notice you if you are normal and eat the cheescake!

Me: They will!  For my personality shines through anyway, and even more so when I am HEALTHY AND BEAUTIFUL!

My ED: DO NOT EAT THE CHEESECAKE!

Cheesecake: Eat me!  For it is my purpose to be eaten and you would not deny me of my life's purpose would you?

Me: NO! That would be CRUEL and SELFISH!

My ED: YOU WILL GET FATTER!

ME: YES!  But I will not be FAT...it will make me a good size.  And I WANT the cheesecake, so I will eat it!

My ED: *collapses in a puff of logic*

Cheesecake: Thankyou, I have fulfilled my purpose, you are a NICE WOMAN

Me: *Stuffs face with cheescake* HAHAHAHAHAHA

Theo you remind me of those Edward Monkton cards.. have yous seen them? 'The Woman and the Shoe' etc. etc.

Congrats on the cheesecake - you are amazing.

As for me, I'm gearing up the courage to have my evening snack which will take me to 2000kcal (or 2003kcal to be exact) for the first time in over a year, and the first time since I've got ill without being in hospital (about four years.)

I'm honestly about to cack myself about it.

You can do it Mashed! And Theo, ahaha, that was brilliant. It reminded me of Edward Monkton too.

At work, I've been letting other people prepare my lunch sandwiches. In return I make theirs while they step out from the counter and have their breaks. I have no control over the sandwich beyond what fillings I'd like, and we're a cafe generous with the fillings. Today I had a toasted, stuffed, tuna, spicy salsa and hard-boiled egg* wholemeal baguette. With SEEDS on it. And I have no clue what the calories were and I DON'T GIVE A RAT'S ARSE.



*a very nice and recommended combination. Steve (boss) suggested it and I thought "ooh, why not" and it was awesome.

I don't know calories today but I"m sick and sniffly and feel gross therefore i've been literally picking at stuff all day, eating when I feel like it and what i feel like because I"m sick and my body needs it and I want it. Lots of warm comforty food, and lots of laying around watching tv. OO and a square of chocolate right after breakfast because it was sittingin the candy bowl at my parents house and it looked good, and WAS very very tasty! I've been eating without thinking, without counting, without worrying what i've eaten and what i will eat, really not much thinking at all. oooo soo normal!

and all this week since i was out of town, every single meal had to be eaten out or picked up at any fast food or deli place, so i had zero control, ate tons of sandwiches made  by other people, and bagels, and ate lots of food even when every other person at my seminar was living off of diet coke.

go mashed, you can do it!

theo- haha you are awesome, i wish i could have chocolate brownie cheesecake, i must look into dairy free versions of cheesecake because it used to be one of my favorite things!

Today I'm having a caramel tart for dessert.  I had a date scone for afternoon tea.  Dates are scrum-diddley--umptious.  Put them in a scone and they're freaking awesome!

Theo, hurray for you!  ED is no match for creamy chocolately cheesecake goodness.  I hope you cut a good hearty slice that you don't know the weight or calorie content of! 

And gibbit, top effort.  I wish I were as brave as you.  That's great, especially with the pressure of others around you living on Diet Choke. 

Mel. xox

I ate a roast dinner - chicken and everything (even tho I went pescatarian during my ED) and then, despite the fact I felt absolutely stuffed, I ate PUDDING! I ate apple crumble and custard and it was gooooooood! And I don't feel guilty at all. Bloated, yes. Guilty, definitely not.

And I don't feel guilty about the couple of biscuits I munched on when I wasn't hungry this afternoon (god I miss genuine hunger pangs - I don't think I even remember what they feel like!) but I ate them anyway and didn't even restrict for my big roast dinner that I cooked for my uni chums!

After my doctors appointment my mum took me for a coffee :)
And I ate half her jam donut! And it was coated in SUGAR D:

And I bought a cereal bar from the fairtrade stand at school.
And I opened a new jar of nutella.
Things are looking good, even though I feel like **** and my bones and body are aching and I have an awffulll headache and heaps of revision.

xxxx

Yum, Dolly, I love jam donuts! 

You and your Nutella, hahah. You are doing so well. 

Today I am not going to restrict, even though I ate more than I planned to.  I'm going to gain, ED, and you can't stop me!

Keep it up, all!

Mel. xox

Today, when my friend offered me a rolo, I took one!  Instead of saying 'oh no thanks!'  And I'd already had a snack, and it was at a random time, I just did a normal food action!

Hurrah!

Ah, I'm so proud of everyone!

Today I ate food from our school dining room. It's known for it's soul food (read: greasy). I got grilled chicken, macaroni and cheese, a roll, and squash cassarole. I could NEVER have done that even earlier this year. It was difficult, but I used self talk to get through it. Also, it was good! I have no clue what squash cassarole is (my best guess is a little squash, a bunch of cheese, and a huge amount of salt). Still, I enjoyed it.

Take that ED!

Yay for you, Theo!  A slap in the face to ED, and chocolately caramelly goodness all in one. 

It will get easier, and eventually feel natural again.

So proud of you!

And splenda, likewise!  Also great to hear your school actually has food that is edible ;-)

Today I ate my lunch in a busy foodcourt, and instead of only worrying about whether people were watching and judging me, I worried about about whether people were watching and judging me and then said in my mind, 'Who cares?  If it bothers you so much, ED, then bugger off!'

I made a huge dinnercause i was under my calories for the day, I am also going out with my friend Danielle at like three in the morning and am so going to ave something to eat! Im also going to have a pretty large and in harge late night snack, complete with toaster pastry!!!

I had to do the housework--vacuum, mop the floor and clean my shower and basin today.  Instead of looking at all that work as a bonus because it meant I burned calories, today I looked at it as being able to have something extra to eat as a treat for all that hard work.  A blueberry and white chocolate scone to be exact.  Mmmmm.

And you thought you got away with it, didn't you, ED?  A pox on you!

Keep it up, everyone!

Mel. xox