How did you challenge your ED today?
Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.
i shall go first :)
today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.
Reason: Moved from Weight Gain to Health and Support.
Day three of maudlsey: No tears, no tantrums, no giving out. Just a roast chicken dinner with potatoes and veg, despite not being hungry and I wasnt full full after. Then some fruit and cream and a glass of juice for dessert
Today i cut right back on my exercise by only going for a 30 minute walk being mindful that i deserve to heal my body and just because others are jogging i have a chronic eating disorder that exercise has controlled my life for 8 years and i need to overcome my compulsions to exercise or it will just stay the same.
+ I still ate my normal breakfast which equated to 600 calories today.
Back on track and feeling good about this.
Original Post by adam_jasiulec:
Today i cut right back on my exercise by only going for a 30 minute walk being mindful that i deserve to heal my body and just because others are jogging i have a chronic eating disorder that exercise has controlled my life for 8 years and i need to overcome my compulsions to exercise or it will just stay the same.
+ I still ate my normal breakfast which equated to 600 calories today.
Back on track and feeling good about this.
well done adam i know its hard but dosent it feel so much better when you are battling with the illness rather than sticking with it.
today i ate all my meals and snacks despite been flued up , maya driven i think its catching across the miles hugs girlies xxx
Teacastles: I'm sorry your parents habits have been so triggering. But you're right that those of us with EDs need a lot more energy (calories) than the average person, even one gaining weight. A good way to think about food is to consider it your medicine at the moment. Everyone needs different amounts/doses of medicine (not just food) so why would this situation be different?
Also, everyone in general needs different amounts of food. Those of us recovering from an ED are repairing our bodies, which we have practically destroyed with deprivation. So we need more food and nutrients to 1) make our bodies work right again 2) restore our bodies to a healthy weight. The amount of food some of us need doesn't make sense. I've needed 4500 calories to gain less than 2 lbs a week on bedrest (aka no movement at all). You'd think, logically, that I'd be gaining 1 pound a day, but EDs just dont use logic.
You're doing great, just focus on yourself and getting better.
Today, I cut my exercise from about 45-60min to about 30.
And I ate an icecream with chocolate. First time i've had either for ages. My friend encouraged me and had one with me (: We secretly ate them without our teachers noticing, and couldn't stop laughing, it was so fun :D Later, I went to the bathroom and started doing 'something', but stopped myself before I finished.
Little things, but an improvement (:
Original Post by tessa1223:
perhaps give it a little more time emma
well done on not making yourself exercise and good luck with tea sounds delicous
today i ate out i had a carvery its a bit thing for me i struggle eating out of my comfort zone
Yes, I'm hoping it has a lot to do with my periods. Once they returned after being gone for so long, they are horribly bad.
Well done for eating out at the cavery! I did that at the weekend too, it's hard but at least you get the veg which is comforting.
I have let myself go back up to 2000 calories as I know it's only 100 but the 1900 just wasn't enough to fulfil my daily plan.
I have agreed to go to town with a friend this weekend despite not feeling like talking.
I went to pilates on my own as my friend was ill. I usually am never brave enough to do this.
well done emma i know its hard when you feel a bit low , hopefully you will feel better when the totm is over
the 100 extra wont make any difference to your weight , i know you feel it might do .
today i had full fat milk they hadnt semi in the supermarket and i paniced but i thought this is life you cant always get what you want . i should feel lucky i can get milk so easily not like some countrys
