How did you challenge your ED today?

Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.

i shall go first :)

today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.

I ate a whole bowl of oatmeal w/ milk, 2 tbsp or sugar, 2 tbsp peanut butter, and a banana and I have a stomach ache, but I DONT CARE! :)

Last night I wasnt hungry for dinner but went to the store and got some AMAZING chinese food anyway. and I enjoyed it!

hi everyone! I'm kinda new to this site...and kinda new to the whole ED recovery thing too. But I saw this forum and thought this was an appropriate place to post how I am feeling today...which is AMAZING. For the first time in 9 months I just ate:

-A PP&J sandwich. With REAL peanut butter. LOTS of it

-Loads of yummy fat-filled chocolate almonds. an entire cup!

-WHOLE FAT milk in my cereal

-a yummy sugary grape blow-pop

- cheeesey nachos and salsa

and finally...a chocolate peanut butter MILKSHAKE

All of which i used to love, but would panic at the site of not too long ago. and the best part is, while I might feel too full to function or breathe at the moment, I also feel a sense of relief. cuz i know every one of those delicious calories will eventually give me back my once oh-so-beautiful body. YAY

I never imagined so many people could be dealing with the EXACT same strange thing I'm going through. Congrats to all of you!!!

Welcome, summer, and congrats on what you've achieved thus far.

So glad you're rediscovering the pleasures of eating.  I too can't believe what I've been missing out on all this time.  Life's short, and you only get to do it once, so I want to experience everything I can, and that includes food.

Today I challenged ED by eating a slice of sultana cake--and I mean a real slice, not some measly paper-thin excuse.  And I ate a Tim Tam (god of choccy biscuits for those non-Aussies out there) and a fun-sized Milky Bar.  Eating chocolate again is oh so good. 

:-P to you, ED!

Today I challenged ED by eating a white chocolate and strawberry muffin for afternoon tea. 

And I'm having pasta for dinner with tomato, onion, garlic, and paprika sauce--AND cheese, cheese, and more cheese.

Oh, and ice cream for dessert. 

What's eating you, ED?  Oh, that's right--ME! 

Ultimate kick in the butt to ED!

I didn't count calories yesterday, but I'm 99% sure I ate over 3500!

There's a party going on in my body!  :)  ED is moving out, and joy is moving in!

i went shopping with my mom and put everything i WANTED in the trolley... and nope, they are NOT just cucumbers and brocolli... they were M&Ms, Kinder BUenos, chocolates, snicker bars, ice cream, potato chip and u get the idea... i finished a whole packet of m&ms, i whole bar of snickers and a whole big bar of milk chocolate because i felt like eating them. i finished them... totally without guilt!!! it felt sooo good...i had 2 big slices of chocolate cake and 2icecream w/ cone for dessert after dinner... great accomplishment huh?? i know its not very healthy, but hey, i got over it!!!!

Original Post by okgo:

Ultimate kick in the butt to ED!

I didn't count calories yesterday, but I'm 99% sure I ate over 3500!

There's a party going on in my body!  :)  ED is moving out, and joy is moving in!

 Way to go, Okie!  I like that last line too! 

even though i felt extremely guilty for eating a bunch of cereal late last night while finishing hw i woke up this morning and had breakfast as usual because i know if i skip it my whole week will be messed up.

i dont know why thats alway a challenge but it really is so hard to get over the gross feeling of eating unplanned food late at night. 

hm. yay though

Ordered the bread bowl with my soup at a cafe.

(and ate it!)


And finished my late-night snack of chocolate icecream.

told the doctor i wanted to be blind-weighed at my weekly weigh-ins from now on. 

Actually signed off an agreement that I cannot change my mind on the spot unless there is a big jump in either direction. 

and i threw out my scale. 

so if thats not positive about recovery i don't know what is

ngemma, throwing away the scale is a very postive move indeed.  Funny too how putting something in writing helps make you stick to it!

Today I had a melting moment biscuit with lemon-zested cream for afternoon tea.  I love shortbread and shortbread related biscuits.  ED kept them from me far too long! 

And I'm sticking to my 3500 cals even though ED had a bit of a tantrum earlier. 

Last night I had a generous coffee mug full of chocolate lactaid (i'm lactose intolerant) icecream!

the caloric value of lactaid icecream is the same as normal.

AND I added marshmallows

and this morning, I added peanut butter to my oatmeal.  and I didn't measure it.

Ate a home-cooked meal instead of preparing my own separate dinner - and enjoyed every last minute of it! Three cheese pasta! Fear food conquered!

And I'm planning on having a "normal" Thanksgiving too. Sure, I'm not going to eat my grandpa's killer mashed taters (out of common sense) but I'm still going to have turkey and all that.

Since joining Calorie Counters.. a WEEK ago.. I HAVE SO FAR

* EATEN SUSHI AT SUSHI BAR .. ALONE
* WENT OUT FOR COFFEE WITH PARENTS, IN BETWEEN A SNACK/LUNCH
* HAD A TASTE OF A CAKE THAT I MADE, DIDN'T KNOW CALORIES. *EVIL SMILE*
* EATEN PEANUT BUTTER
* EATEN NUTS
* ATE A "LEAN BEEF BURGER" FROM MCDONALDS, EVEN THOUGH I NEVER ATE MCDONALDS BEFORE ANOREXIA. JUST TO "GRIND IT'S GEARS"
* ATE CHEESE ON THE PIZZA, NOT JUST TWO LITTLE SHREDS.
* HAVING HOME MADE LASAGNE TONIGHT, 3 CHEESES, NOT WHOLEMEAL LASAGNE SHEETS.. WHATEVER MUM COOKS.. MUM KNOWS BEST.
* STOPPED RESOURCE/ENSURE TO EAT REAL/PROPER FOODS.
* ATE SUBWAY!!(3 TAKE OUTS IN ONE WEEK!!!!!)

YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FREEDOM I FEEL.

You guys are REAL, that's the point. My psyche/doctor/nutritionist.. they can study this disease till it's dying day.. but unless you live it, day in.. day out.. the feeling of understanding is ... overwhelming to say the least

x

i ate loads of chocolate with my friends

a jam sandwich on high cal wholemeal bread

bagel with lots of nutella

and lots of cereal

AND im still gonna have more chocolate.
You're right, stuff ED i wanna recover, im sick of being so FREAKING COLD AND EMACIATEDDD

(even though my new size 4 dress loosk cute :) but like i can wear it even when ive gained and it will hopefully fit nicer and fuller

x

hello! I'm back from NY, didn't meet my calories most days unfortunately but had to deal with going out to eat or eating hotel catered food every day so tackled fear food for almost every meal.

Then tonight i got home and went on a maybe date with a guy i met a few weeks ago. We went out for sushi and i have no idea how many i ate, we got 3 orders to share b/w the two of us plus miso soup and i was too busy talking to count how many i was having or estimate the calories. And afterwards we went to Ben and Jerry's and I got a sorbet. Something I never ever like doing is having dessert right after dinner!

Hi Gibbit! - i don't know if i've had the pleasure to meet you yet. I'm Lauren from Australia brand spankin' new.. and... already in LOVE/LUB/ADORATION withthis thread and the whole lot of you.

x

Lauren, I totally relate to what you said:  'You guys are REAL, that's the point. My psyche/doctor/nutritionist.. they can study this disease till it's dying day.. but unless you live it, day in.. day out.. the feeling of understanding is ... overwhelming to say the least'.

It really helps to talk things through with, and have the support of, others going through similar ordeals.  Glad it's helping you too!

Today I'm bumping up to 4000 cals, seeing as 3500 hasn't done anything.  Yet, anyway.  The way I figure it, the more the merrier, if not for ED.  Take that, you fiend!

I'm having a date scone for my evening snack tonight.  I absolutely adore them!  Thank you, Bakers Delight (Aussie bakery chain, for those not in the loop).  They make awesome blueberry and white chocolate scones too.  Pretty much everything they make tastes fabulous, come to think of it.

hello lauren!! welcome! this site has really saved my life, I LOVE everyone on here so much! I hope everyone is helping you and I'll be on here more helping and getting help too. IT's funny, i'm gone 4 days and so much happens!