chew/spit disorder

I am seeking anyone out there who also suffers from Chew-spit disorder. I am not going to elaborate on here; if you suffer from it you know what it is - and I also don't want to go into it on here becuase it's a terrible, shameful, wasteful habit that no one should do, but unfortunately is a reality for some ed-nos (eating disordered) people, like myself. I feel very alone in this and just looking for someone in similar situation. It's gotten very bad - I swear it's akin to a bad, bad nicotine habit.  Thanks.

Wooow!  I know all too well, my friend.  It's really something that not a lot of people talk about!  In fact, I just confessed about it in my most recent post and have been getting some reassuring feedback.

I can say I've had this terrible habit (or, as I like to call it, addiction) for 3 years.  When I began college it grew 15x worse and I put my life on hold to isolate myself in my room to c/s.

Finally, finally, I have been able to go a few weeks at a time without doing it.  It's extremely difficult and the desire is always tugging at my mind.  Definitely message me if you want someone to vent to.  We can help each other.  I will know exactly where you're coming from..

Don't feel alone.  I had to stop it because of the heart burn (I really thought I was going to die from it).  I don't really know what else to tell you, but it sounds like maybe you're ready to give this thing up, or at least you're frustrated with it, which is a good start. 

i've been there. it never really got so bad that i was doing it more than once a day, and what made me stop was that i (gross) really clogged up our sink/garbage disposal, and it was a horrible and frightening ordeal to try and fix it before someone came home to see what i had done.

after that happened i was too scared to do it anymore.

but i know how you must feel, and what the shame and sadness feel like.. i feel like i am never helpful on here and i wish i knew what the right thing to say is... i hope you know you arent alone and a LOT of people do this- it seems like its this weird unprecedented thing because not many people admit to it or talk about it. but its out there i wish you the best of luck.

You are not alone; every one of my friends think that I consume the chocolate in my fridge; truth is, I can never bring myself to swallow it (this happens with other foods as well, but just for example's sake). I know that it's extremely wasteful, but it's so, so difficult to stop once you've gotten accustomed to it, you know?

My roommate once walked in as I was about to spit into the sink; I quickly pretended that I had some kind of mouthwash in my mouth (it was really half-masticated food) and motioned that I was going to go to the restroom. I ended up having to spit into the toilet, but my roommate never suspected anything.

Thanks so much to all of you (and to you Pollyanna for offer to message, I may do that some time!!) I know a lot of it stems from stress.  For some reason it makes me feel better (at the time, then worse later for having done it). Stress over job, social life, whatever.  But its the shame of doing it and knowing how wasteful it is that gets to me.  And it's gross.  I just keep doing it more and more.  Worse, I am living with parents temporarily (I just moved back to their city for a job and looking for a house) and that makes it harder to do - which is good I guess but I get irritable, not to mention scared they will find out. 

I normally eat an OK breakfast (maybe cereal) because I work out early.  Then I struggle with lunch - not feeling like I deserve it. I may eat a couple grapes or something.  If I have a lunch to go to for work, or meet someone, I try to eat as little as possible (and freak out if I eat more).  Sometimes I c/spit instead of eat lunch.  maybe in my car while driving around.  I mean is that bizarre??? I am 28 years old.  I need to grow up!! I am very normal, professional, otherwise.  Then by late afternoon usually starving, and I may c/spit again on way home in the car.  (and usually do it at night too, if I am home alone).  I know I am not treating my body well... but I HATE sitting at the desk all day. It gets to me like no other. Sometimes I try to walk on my lunch hour but I hate doing it (I do run or cycle in the mornings).  Anyway, just venting.  I feel so un-normal.